Should is a powerful word. It got me out of my bedroom and back through school. It got me to try yoga and start getting back in shape. It got me to broaden my horizons, make new friends, and see how other people are living their lives. It got me a job. It got me a car. It made my mother happy. Here I am world! A fully functioning, well-rounded, independent adult... but the shoulds keep coming!
I should spend time abroad so that I can be a cultured citizen of the world. I should save my money so that some day I can buy a house. I should get in better shape so that women will desire me for my body. I should eat healthier and take better care of myself AFTER I exercise. I should learn another language. I should watch all the TV shows, listen to all the bands, and read all the books that people have recommended. I should get in touch with old friends. I should make new ones. I should do nice things for all of them on their birthdays. I should change the oil in my car. I should brush my teeth and floss twice a day. I should meditate every evening. I should work on coding projects outside of my job to stay relevant in my industry. I should maintain a network of business contacts. I should keep spreadsheets of all my finances. I should spend more time volunteering. I should take on leadership roles in my outdoor activities. I should get 8 hours of sleep every night.
I'm doing a damn good job with most of this stuff, but it's beginning to dawn on me that it's impossible to do it all. At the end of the day what I really want is just to be happy. I'll let you know once I've figured everything else out. ;)