October 5th UPDATE: I KNOW IF YOU DON'T READ MY PROFILE, ASSHOLES!

September 30th UPDATE: I am beauty that knows that "ugly" is also in the eye of the beholder. I am art that knows boundaries are an illusion crated by the fearful mind. I am optimism that harbors a sweet sense of pessimistic realism to keep my life in balance. I am music that stirs the imagination into a rush of dizzying excitement and gratification. I am open like the paths that lay before each and every last one of us. I am logical with a streak of irrational decision granted only to those who have tasted freedom. I am forward, I am confident, I will fall and rise and yet I will always remain a part of this world. I am Melissa; wonderful to meet you.

October 5th UPDATE: I'm currently unemployed but still going for my GED and applying for jobs like a mad woman! (If you know of any places hiring, do let me know!) I want to major in Graphic Design and Business. I hate to use the word "Bisexual" because I don't just date women and men... I would classify myself as Pansexual as I am interested in other people regardless of gender including males, females, transexuals, tansvestites, gender benders, hermaphrodites, intersexuals, and androgenous people. At the time being, I'm not interested in males (meaning "I was born with a penis and I look and act masculine).

I won't claim to be a professional at anything, but I do enjoy playing piano and bass, singing, writing poetry and short stories and debating :) I'm also going to use this space to talk about things I like such as the goth and fetish lifestyle. Don't instantly assume I'm some hardcore BDSM eccentric nympho, I just know what I like and know what I am interested in.

My eyes tend to grab you and eat you up :)

Books: "1984" by George Orwell, "Fahrenheit 451" by Ray Bradbury, "Ishmael" by Daniel Quinn, "American Gods" By Neil Gaiman, "The Hobbit" and "Lord of the Rings" by J. R. R. Tolkien, C.S. Lewis, Silver Ravenwolf (to an extent), anything on almost any type of culture (sociology), religion (Theology), language (Linguistics), mental theory (psychology) or mythology.

Movies: V for Vendetta, Steel Jawed Angels, Wristcutters, Nightmare Before Christmas (Could never get old! Unlike these "nu-goth-emo-/wrist"ers, I actually remember seeing it shortly after it came out in theaters! Possibly a year or two afterward.) Lord of the Rings, Of COURSE Harry Potter, Knowing, and my FAVORITE movie of all time is Jim Henson's The Labyrinth with David Bowie! (I would really love to watch a lot of indie films if you know of any :) No zombie plz. So sick of the zombie cliche. Get a more interesting obsession)

Music: I listen to quite a range of music. Kamelot, Nine Inch Nails, MSI, Combichrist, Hanzel und Gretyl, Korn, Dope, The Cure, David Bowie, Coldplay, Tool, Chevelle, Lamb of God, Slipknot, Dethklok, Beatles (And I listened to them BEFORE the movie came out, thank you very much), Eiffle 65, Linda Strawberry, Sworn Rival, Ghosts of the Great Lakes, Spice Girls, Pussycat Dolls or really honestly whatever the fuck I am in the mood for.

Music.
Nature.
Books.
Intellectual stimulation.
Human interactivity.
Loveee :)

"Sarah stood outside Jareth’s Labyrinth and thought for a long time. She took her time remembering the various challenges, who had helped her and how. She looked deeper into what Jareth called the challenges and saw darker, universal truths:

Some always lie, some always tell the truth, but there is never an always or a never.

The way forward often travels down paths you have seen before. There is no turning back, for time always moves forward.

Asking for help does not mean you will be put upon the right path... Moving too quickly can be as dangerous as not moving at all.

Even friends may betray you in order to save themselves... A friend who has betrayed you may turn out to be the one that saves you..."

I love all things art and all things capable of intelligent conversation! (So what I'm getting at is something to do with that, or the following) I like to sip coffee and read books next to rivers and lakes in the winter as it's snowing. I like to make snow angels and crafts from natural organic stuff. I'm a good mix of sarcasm and concern. I picture scenarios in movie and cartoon because life to me is just a big script waiting to be written and revised multiple times. I listen to music every day and couldn't live without its influence in my life. Tv is just a form of brainwash to me. And I just now mixed up my superman icecream cos purple is way cooler than red and blue.

My name is irrelevant. My cause is a virtue of its own creation. I love that which wants to be be loved. I hate that which doesn't exist. I belong to my own world. I penetrate the veil of surrounding worlds. I dance with my fingers on paper and sing with the voices of a million fallen martyrs.

The preservation of the feats and failures the martyr in me has endured will be what lives on past my death. I am not cold, I am burdened and if you truly loved you as well would know burden. Burden worth knowing. Truth worth accepting. Doubts worth exploring.

Reject not the questions of your heart and soul for fear of sin. Cease not the replacement of a question mark where one has placed a period. Fear not the unknown and all of its possibilities. Your imagination is limitless. So is our world.

you are calm, open, not currently fucked up, fun, female and confident in yourself :)