To be real, right now I spend most of my time working at a scene shop in east van building sets for theatre and other big/random projects. Other than that I am
Nerding out about movement and herbal medicine, training in russian martial arts, working on undermining institutions of domination, spending time with little people, not spending enough time out of town, sometimes playing with horses, going on epic "vacations" making soup, working on a farm or at a cemetery or making medicine for sick friends.
"having a gender crisis"
Feeling overwhelmed by the totality.
making food. digging up lysichiton. learning quickly. caring for things. staying calm during crisis (but losing my shit the rest of the time) listening. attracting people who need help. baking with out wheat or other grains. arm locks. not tapping out. crashing my bike.
Being a good date.
Also i've been told that i walk with a swagger
Lucinda Williams, Remains of the day, PS Elliot, "dark pretty stuff" Country, Black metal, Strange Weather, sangre de muerdago, Liz Phair, John Prine, Bryan Hartley, Oliver Schroer, One hundred Dollars, Jessy Bell Smith, Rae Spoon, Robyn, Beyonce, 90s booty jams...etc.
Books: Nerd shit. Books about herbs, bodies/pathologies, trauma, some theory and fiction.
F.Perlman, Ursula K Leguin, Barry Lopez, Leslie Marmon Silco, Patrick Califia, Peter Levine, ...
the night sky
relationship to other living things
How people often think I'm hitting on them when I'm really really not.
How to reconcile living in the city with my desire for the city to exist less, gender and my relationship to it, total freedom,
" should I use my one day off to go on a road trip or should I do laundry?"
... Or I'm exhausted from working too much or I'm still working.
You want to go somewhere outside!
You know me from real life and want to make fun of me for using the internet.
You're hella queer and kinky and wanna have dates
You live in somewhere rural and think we have something in common.
You think you have an idea of what i mean by "the totality"
You are queer but also a bro/don't hate bro shit.
You want to take me kayaking or climbing
You have a first or second gen dodge cummins or some kind of toyota truck that you are selling or randomly want to give me. (long shot I know, but its worth a try)