My Self-Summary
What to say? Well, there's a lot for me to say, but to sum it up in
just a few sentences is like reading half a book or watching half a
movie. I'm Wiccan and Christian (Methodist), I'm a
singer/songwriter, I love to read, write, and do anything that
involves creativity. I'd love nothing more than to do something
with my writing and my music. Not to sound evil and mean, but I'm
extremely tired of being "someone's big sister". I like to follow
my own bliss! So sometimes I look clueless, but I know where I am
in life and what I want to do, and that's something that I've
accomplished on my own and it makes me very proud. I may not be
rich and famous, but at least I can say, I did this or that! There
was a time when I used to be a total recluse because of the people
who used to seriously pick on me. I'm far from being that
girl/woman anymore! No one is going to rain on my parade. *laughs
and thinks about the movie, American Beauty* My motto for living
these days is, "Bonny Tyme Pyrate"! A concept thought up by Emilie
Autumn. Here's a tid bit on what a Bonny Tyme Pyrate is all about.
Quoted by EA herself..."What is "BTP"? "BTP" is a bit of an
experiment in how quickly a small group of people can create an
international trend (think EGL, GLA, etc.), and you can be at it's
forefront. "BTP" is all about nabbing elements from any and all
eras and bringing them together to create a brand new look. Think
of it as fashion time travel. The use of Old English spelling
signifies the trend's leanings towards antiquity. And "Bonny"?
Well, that just means you'll want to kiss your reflection in the
bathroom mirror. So go on, help spread the word about "BTP", and be
a fashion pioneer!
What I’m doing with my life
Good question...right now I'm just being a social butterfly. I've
put my music and writing on hold. Not by choice because I have mad
writer's block right now. So basically I'm just hanging out with my
best friend in the whole wide world for the time being and
contemplating.
I’m really good at
I'm really good at developing an ego that I never use. HA HA HA!
I'm "really" good at screwing up things. Example: breaking my poor
computer because it's being pushed to its limit with all my music,
writing, and computer art. Some say I'm really good at writing,
singing, and performing. I don't like to judge myself because I
know that no matter what I do, it'll never be perfect. I'm a
horribly obsessive compulsive woman.
The first thing(s) people usually notice about me
My hair. That's being a bit vague, but in my case, people either
notice how long my hair is and how "not so thin" I am. A lot of
people have told me I have very expressive eyes and lovely pouty
lips (which was also a great "Pick on the freaky girl with big
lips"...yet another ironic situation! I get tired of that crap! You
can't judge a book by its cover. I forgot to mention that usually
people notice how I carry myself. Even though I'm full-figured, I
like to show that it doesn't bother me. Smile, and the whole world
smiles with you! Lame excuse, but what can I say? I'm lame
sometimes. Let's see, long red hair (natural redhead and damn proud
of it! People actually used to pick on my red hair when I was
little...how ironic is that?), dog collar, pentacle and Goddess
pendents, nose ring, eyebrow ring, tongue ring, and a few tattoos.
I used to dress real Gothy, but I've calmed down quite a bit. But
given an endless amount of money, not saying I would rob you blind
if you're rich, I don't care about money. I'm just saying, if I won
the lotto, I would buy Victorian clothes and striped stockings and
dress like a Punktorian. Check Emilie Autumn out. You won't be
sorry. She's a bright musician. And she has inspired me in many
ways.
My favorite books, movies, music, and food
Books: Good Omens by Neil Gaiman and Terry Pratchette, Neverwhere
by Neil Gaiman, The Collection of Beauties At the Height of Their
Popularity by Whitney Otto, White Oleander by Janet Fitch, The
Collected Poetry of Dorothy Parker, Sylvia Plath's The Bell Jar,
The Virgin Suicides by Jeffrey Eugenides, Girl, Interrupted by
Susanna Kaysen, Blood Sugar by Nicole Blackman, Portrait of a
Killer by Patricia Cornwell, Story of My Life by Jay McInerney, The
Wings of the Night series by Maggie Shayne, The Harry Potter Series
(of course!) by J.K. Rowling...and anything by Dean Koontz, V.C.
Andrews, R.L. Stein's adult horror, Dan Brown and Nicohlas Sparks,
the Twilight saga by Stephenie Meyers and every book that
Christopher Moore has ever written. Movies: Right now I'm obsessed
with the Ginger Snaps Trilogy, White Oleander, Kill Bill Vol. I
& II, Underworld and Underworld: Evolution, The Virgin
Suicides, Lost in Translation, Muholland Drive, 21 Grams, From
Hell, Donnie Darko, The Goonies, Ghost World, Hero, Eternal
Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, all three Pirates of the Caribbean
movies,all five Harry Potter movies, Finding Nemo, Shrek 1,2, and
3, From Dusk Till Dawn, Pulp Fiction, Grindhouse, Sin City, Four
Rooms, House of Flying Daggers, Memoirs of a Geisha, Crouching
Tiger, Hidden Dragon, A Tale of Two Sisters, Marie Antoinette,
Amélie, Twin Peaks Fire Walk With Me, The Lord of the Rings
Trilogy, Run Lola Run, or any movie with Franka Potente in it,
Prozac Nation, A Dirty Shame, V for Vendetta , Sweeny Todd,
Stardust, Antonement, The Legend of the Black Scorpion, Pan's
Labyrinth, Legend, Labyrinth, The Dark Crystal, Willow, anything
with Audrey Hepburn in it and the list goes on and on and on and
on... Music: You're kidding right? Gah! Too many to choose from!
*sighs* Okay, let's start with the two most important female
musicians in my life, Tori Amos and Emilie Autumn. The Birthday
Massacre, Rasputina, The Dresden Dolls, Bjork, Siouxsie and the
Banshees, The Cure, Depeche Mode, Portishead, Goldfrapp,
Switchblade Symphony, Jill Tracy, Danielle Dax, Evanescence, Nikka
Costa, Placebo, Smashing Pumpkins, Nine Inch Nails, Cranes, Sigur
Ros, Cocteatu Twins, Lush, His Name Is Alive, Kristin Hersh,
Throwing Muses, Sky Cries Mary, The Tiger Lilies, Kelly Osbourne,
Kelly Clarkson, Madonna (and don't you make fun of me or I'll kick
your arse!!! Madonna is hot shit!) Windy and Carl, Two Girls
Kissing, CocoRosie, Delerium, Conjure One, Poe, Combustable Edison,
The Ditty Bops, Imogen Heap, Frou Frou, Pink Martini, Slowdive,
Julee Cruise, Tom Waits, Mira, Autumn's Grey Solace, Marilyn
Manson, Over The Rhine, The Creatures, Lacuna Coil, Within
Temptation, kidneythieves, Garbage, Fiona Apple, Laika, Lamb, Mazzy
Star, Dead Can Dance, Miranda Sex Garden, Mediæval Bæbes, Sister
Soleil, Lady Parasyte, Sugarcubes, The Smiths, Curve, P.J. Harvey,
Billie Holiday, Frank Sinatra, Beethoven, Mozart, Chopin, Bach,
Sweeny Todd soundtrack, The Beatles, The Doors, Rolling Stones, Led
Zeppelin (God, Robert Plant's voice sends me to places only one
desires for). I'm known to some of my friends as a music Nazi
because I'm not into the music of today. There is some I'll listen
to, but for the most part, give me strange, give me dark, give me
talent! I'm tired of whiny and growling guys! TV: Dead Like Me,
CSI, CSI: Miami, Lost, Grey's Anatomy, Private Practice, Pushing
Daisies, Ugly Betty, Twin Peaks, Law and Order: CI, The Closer,
Ghost Hunters, Charmed, Futurama, Family Guy, Bleach, Fullmetal
Alchemist, InuYasha, Aqua Teen Hunger Force, Metalocalypse, The
Venture Bros. and Robot Chicken, Shin Chan, Squidbillies. Foods: my
Vegan chili, zucchini casserole (or anything with zucchini in it!)
I love to cook. I'm not a chef or anything like that, but I do love
a good meal. And life would never be complete without pizza and ice
cream! For the most part, my favorite things just tell you a little
about me. In all honesty, if you can handle someone with horrible
mood swings (and NOT PMS mood swings), I'm manic/Bipolar...that's
what I meant about mood swings and someone who generally stays at
home and listens to music, write, drinks absinthe ritualistic,
feels nostalgic, plays with my kitties (I own eight wonderful
kitties). Watches crazy movies...and I mean crazy. *laughs* Some
people say I'm one of those ageless types. I may be 35, but I look
25 and act 25, to some degree. I know when to be mature. I know
when to be funny. I can be morbid at times, but that's a good
thing. My favorite quote, right now is a lyric from Emilie Autumn's
song, "Heard It All". "Somebody called me a Paranoid Angel". If
you're interested in learning more about the violin faery, Emilie
Autumn, let me know. Seriously. www.enchanting-violin-faery.com/ is
my EA fanpage. I play "The Sims" on my computer (but NOT for days
and days on end) I tend to play The Sims when I'm all stressed out
and no one to choke or throw something at. I love making houses!
They're always Victorian! I love the Victorian era. Hence the
obsession with Absinthe. I love La Fee Absinthe! It's something I
don't indulge in all the time, but when I do, I am very ritualistic
about it. I know I just repeated myself. I tend to do that. Short
term memory loss from the years of smoking pot! hee hee
The six things I could never do without
My computer (w/ internet, of course), my keyboard, my eight cats,
especially my favorites, Spooky and Tristan, my best friend, my
family, music/writing/reading (and endless amount of pens, pencils,
and tablets), my MP3 player, headphones or speakers, and an endless
amount of battery power to use all of my equipment...hee hee) So
sorry I named more than six things...I don't like being limited to
a certain amount of things.
I spend a lot of time thinking about
I spend a lot of time thinking (obsessing) about love (the "true
love", that is), fame, and health. Or if you want to REALLY know
what's on my mind (don't shudder, I promise I won't scare you)...I
spend a lot of time wishing I could find the perfect girl or guy to
complement me. Example:a young woman or man who isn't afraid to be
artistic and strange. I have a pretty good Gothic attitude. I'm not
into posers. Give me a raven colored hair (or redhead *winks*),
blue-eyed, Wiccan who loves cats (or animals in general), poetry,
cemeteries (I love to photograph cemeteries. The older the better!
*smiles* I'm obsessed with beauty. Dark beauty.)on a silver
platter, any day! I'm tired of the crap that I've gone through with
men and women, posers, and users and especially alcoholics!
On a typical Friday night I am
What do I do? Well, I either play on the computer, listen to music,
write, watch movies, read, whatever. My day begins after sundown. I
stay up all night. I'm a freelancer, what do you expect? Hanging
out with my best friend. We'll either ride around in my car,
listening to music, go to a cemetery and take pictures or sit
around her place and hang out. I love to go for walks in the
cemetery in my best friend's back yard (she and her husband are
cemetery care takers) and take pictures of the tombstones.
Especially at night because it's the most peaceful time to go to a
cemetery.
The most private thing I’m willing to admit here
You're kidding, right? Okay, the most private fact about me that
I'm willing to admit is...NOTHING! Actually, that's lie. What I
want to say is I haven't been with someone for a very long time so
I'm very shy. So basically, it's up to you to make the first move.
But don't take advantage of that. I will call the cops if something
happens. I've been a victim before and I won't go through that
again. I refuse to be used.
You should message me if
You're not looking for a so-called sister or "good" friend. I'm
tired of being treated as everyone's sister or friend and not
someone else. I'm not in the mood for games, either. I may sound
like a bitch with a bad attitude, blame that on my small town
upbringing. Small town suburbs suck losers dry!