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35 M Minneapolis, MN

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Last Online
Nov 13, 2005
6′ 1″ (1.85m)
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Other, and laughing about it
Taurus, and it’s fun to think about
Graduated from university
More than $1,000,000
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Seeing Someone
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Dislikes dogs and has cats
English (Fluently), Spanish (Okay), Urdu (Poorly)

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In Ralph Ellison�s essay �The Charlie Christian Story�, the author talks about the ideas of �asserting within and against the group�, multiple realities, and �loss of identity to gain identity� in jazz music. These ideas can be also be seen throughout his most famous novel, Invisible Man. The ideas that Ellison sets forth in the �Charlie� essay can be seen as a framework for the larger novel, and one could even call Invisible Man a �jazz-novel.� The first idea in the quote from �The Charlie Christian Story� is one of individuality. Ellison says, �There is in this a cruel contradiction in the art form itself, for true jazz is an art of individual assertion within and against the group.� This idea of �assertion within and against the group� is seen at the very beginning of the novel, when the protagonist is asked to speak in front of a large group of rich white men. The protagonist is asked to give a speech that he had given at his graduation. At the very same event where the protagonist is giving his speech, the rich white men have also arranged a �battle royal� with a number of young black men. The protagonist sees himself as better than the other black men (the battle royal participants) and tries to distinguish himself from them. He says, �I felt superior to them in my way, and I didn�t like the manner in which we were all crowded together into the servants� elevator� (18). His thoughts about separating himself from the rest of the black men do not stop even when he is in the middle of the battle royal. He says: The harder we fought the more threatening the men became. And yet, I had begun to worry about my speech again. How would it go? Would they recognize my ability? What would they give me?� (24) The narrator tries to separate himself from the community of black men that is around him. He thinks that he is better than them because he is there to give the speech, but the white men just group him in with the rest of the battle royal participants. His speech, and the acts of try to separate himself from the rest of the blacks, are �assertions within and against the group� because even though he is within the group of black men, he has to put the other men down in order to make himself look better, thus asserting against them. At this point in the novel, this is the only way that the protagonist can view his reality. He is much too na�ve to realize his true place in society. This realization comes later on in the novel, and takes a lot of time for the protagonist to understand. The second idea Ellison asserts in �The Charlie Christian Story� is �each solo flight, or improvisation, represents� a definition of his [the artist�s] identity as individual, as member of the collectivity, and as a link in the chain of tradition�. This idea can be linked to the novel in that the protagonist, all at the same time, must realize his position in society in three different ways. He must first realize that his individual assertions as a person will be seen by the rest of society as assertions of the whole African American race. Not only that, but his assertions will be seen as assertions by all southern African Americans. Because of this, he must not only be aware of what he himself is asserting, but what his assertions say about southern blacks and blacks in general. It is as if he has to have three separate minds or realities working at the same time, but the way that all three of these work together is what makes up his identity. The protagonist doesn�t learn this idea of multiple realities until the very end of the novel, but the idea is hinted at throughout the novel. One of these incidents is when the protagonist is confronted by Peter Wheatstraw when the protagonist is on his way to try and get a job. Wheatstraw is black and obviously from the South, and he can tell that the protagonist is as well, so he talks to the protagonist and tries to get him to take part in a verbal �game�. The protagonist doesn�t recognize what he is trying to do at first, because he is too wrapped up in his first reality, the reality of being an individual and trying to get a job. Wheatstraw says: Now I know you from down home, how come you trying to act like you never heard that before! Hell, ain�t nobody out here this morning but us colored- Why you trying to deny me? (173) But as he starts to realize the other two realities, first that Wheatstraw is black, and second that Wheatstraw is from the South, he understands more and more where Wheatstraw is coming from. The protagonist says: I tried to think of some saying about bears to reply, but remembered only Jack the Rabbit, Jack the Bear� who were both long forgotten and now brought a wave of homesickness (174). The protagonist at first denies Wheatstraw because he is ashamed of his roots. But as he talks to him more and more, he starts to realize that his roots are part of him no matter what, and he starts to grow fond of Wheatstraw, saying, �He had me grinning despite myself. I liked his words� I�d known that stuff from childhood, but had forgotten it� (176). The protagonist further realizes how his three realities have to come together when he comes across a yam vendor on the street. When he buys a yam from the vendor, the taste brings back memories of home. He says: I walked along, munching the yam, just as suddenly overcome by an intense feeling of freedom � simply because I was eating while walking along the street. It was exhilarating. I no longer had to worry about who saw me or about what was prim and proper (264). In that instant he realizes that he doesn�t have to care about all his separate realities mixing, but rather can celebrate each one together. He goes on to say: What and how much had I lost by trying to do only what was expected of me instead of what I myself had wished to do? What a waste, what a senseless waste! (266) Here is the first time that the protagonist realizes that he had been consciously altering his behavior according to which reality (individual, black individual, southern black individual) he was in at the time. Although the yam turns out to be bitter (and he gets �boomeranged� backwards) he still learns a valuable lesson about what it means to be an individual. This is a lesson that comes to full realization when the protagonist understands the last idea expressed in the quote from �The Charlie Christian Story�. The idea Ellison asserts is �because jazz finds its very life in an endless improvisation upon traditional materials, the jazzman must lose his identity even as he finds it.� Near the end of the novel, the protagonist finally realizes his �invisibility�. This comes when he puts on a disguise and is mistaken for a jack-of-all-trades known as Rinehart. The disguise allows the protagonist to see what Rinehart�s reality is like, and also allows him to not be recognized. He says: How many days could you walk the streets of the big city without encountering anyone who knew you, and how many nights? �All boundaries down, freedom was not only the recognition of necessity, it was the recognition of possibility. And sitting there trembling I caught a brief glimpse of the possibilities posed by Rinehart�s multiple personalities (499). It is here that the protagonist finally realizes the multiple realities that at the same time take away his identity and give his identity to him. He understands how to use all of the different realities together. His single identity is taken away, but his �multiple� identity is given to him. His new identity, which is made up of many different identities (black man, southern black man, southern black man in the north), is �invisible� because there is no one �him.� The protagonist can only be seen as a plurality of all the different multiple realities. This relates back to the ideas expressed in Ellison�s �Charlie� essay in that the protagonist�s life is �an endless improvisation upon traditional materials (i.e. the assumptions and prejudices and histories that surround blacks) the [protagonist] must lose his identity even as he finds it.� The only thing is, it took the protagonist the entire novel to realize this. He says: Why hadn�t I discovered it sooner? How different my life might have been! �Why hadn�t I seen the possibilities? If a sharecropper could attend college by working during the summers as a waiter and factory hand or as a musician and then graduate to become a doctor, why couldn�t all those things be done at one and the same time? (509). Once the protagonist realizes the multiple roles that he must play in society, and the fact that he can play more than one at once, he is ultimately able to realize his invisibility. In Ralph Ellison�s Invisible Man, the protagonist must come to realize that he has many different realities and many different roles in society (At least in a society where he is a minority). Using themes and ideas that are present in jazz, most notably in Ellison�s essay �The Charlie Christian Story�, the protagonist is able to make this realization. Only after this does the protagonist truly understand his place in society.

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Making sense of things around me... placing them into schemas... Assimilating if you will....
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everything I put my mind to... of course I give up on things I'm not instantly good at or take too much thinking...
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My spastic arm movements.... My huge nose... Um, that I have a loud voice... That I never talk unless talked to... But after that, watch out...
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Think outside the box. Sometimes the little things can say a lot.
Humans, animals, matter, space and time, sight, breathing....
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