At 33, maybe for the first time I am truly open to life and anything it may bring. I have a home where I come from but I don't yet have a home where I will go to. I don't know where I will be, what I will be, who I will be with and its all ok by me.
I have a stable life thanks to the years of sincere hard work being what I was expected to be. Diligent, polite, responsible. I really have a good foundation. Now I want to learn how to fly. I have been to every corner of the Bay Area but I want to see it again. Through your eyes. I want to know how you live, what moves you and hear all your stories. I can't say that I am ready for love and marriage but I am ready for exploration, conversations over coffee, discovering hidden paths in the woods, going to the museum, talking about the movies and what to eat.
I am not here looking for great sex. I am looking for what leads up to it.
Abandon. Is a good word to describe my state of being nowadays.
I like old stuff. Old cameras, old lamps, old films, old music, old maps. I love old, decrepit theaters with optical projection systems. And older women, yes. I find them alluring.