I was leafing through a recent issue of Vogue magazine last night... I was disgusted, to put it mildly. There was not a single healthy looking fashion model in there. Either these girls are airbrushed and photo-shopped beyond all semblance of humanity, or their bones should likely be snapping under them from a lack of nutrients and supportive surrounding tissue.

If this is your idea of beauty, or the ideal that you're aspiring to, move along. Do not waste another second of your time or mine looking at my profile. That's not beauty, that is severe body dysmorphia.  :-(

 

Someone told me that a memory device I use is offensive.

Not being an active part of the gender flexible community, I sometimes have a hard time remembering what certain terms mean. Specifically "cisgendered", a term that applies to me. Intellectually, I know that cis comes from a latin prefix; basically meaning "on the same side", but I don't always think it through etymologically. In a gender identity context, it means identifying with the gender one was biologically born with. For that reason, and only in my own head, I find it more convenient to associate cis with Comfortable In (one's own) Skin when I'm trying to remember which means what.
I was recently told that this is insulting and derogatory towards transgendered folks. While I can somewhat see that point of view, I don't think I'm being insensitive. I'd like constructive feedback.

This obviously fake profile showed up flagged tonight (and rightly so!) It'll be gone soon, so I just had to copy/paste it for posterity. It is, verbatim, as follows:

I'm Chloe but most of my friends call me "silly hot lady".
I love doing things that makes me feel hot other than eating spicy.
When your with me we both going to the place which is crowded but it brought us fun.
Dance to the beat of music,until our sweat scratch against our skin.
Or come and join me in the beach and join me lying down under the sun and make our skin tanned,
and help me put some lotion at my back that both give us a pleasure.I'm a lady that loves to watch the flame
in the boe fire at night and seat next to you and lying my head on you shoulders while we feel the blow of the wind.
Come and join me to enjoy the spice of life.Hold me tight in your arms,and feel the warmth of your body,and feel you heart what it feels.
let me of become your part of your life forever that can put some spice to your too.Catch me at redhotlady at yeah that cum.

My toner in my morning and evening routine
I can't go outside without my panty liners and tampons on my bag.
My make up kit that help me look more pretty
I can't sleep not putting my petroluem jelly on my lips.
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My future guy spending most of our time cuddling each other and caressing,touching each other skins that makes and gave us pleasure.Spending time with a endless love.However it takes we both here for each other forever.

when i'm alone i love to thinking those wetdreams i have every night.And do it on all by myself to gave me pleasure.
You want to someone like me who can gave a spice up to your life but at the same time can gave surely my heart to you if you take me seriously.And promise myself that if your that guy I will spend my life with you forever.

So yeah, there ya go. Comments welcome; I can't be the only one whose brain hurts after that..

I'm removing most of this from my profile summary, but someone asked me to preserve it for posterity. I think she just likes laughing at me..

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{[old information] I've just changed my relationship status to "single" because that most accurately represents where I'm at, however I am really not actively looking to start dating anyone. If it happens, it happens, but I'd rather just make new friends right now. (Added 05/02/08)}
I've changed my status back to "seeing someone" because, through no intentional effort on my part, someone incredible has come into my life and helped me believe that I can in fact fall in love again, and give my heart to her completely. :o)
This does not however mean that I'm not still welcoming new friends in the area, and chat/email friends all over. Please feel free to contact me if you'd like to get to know me. (Added 05/19/08)

Update on my relationship status: There have been some rough starts, and sometimes it feels like a holding pattern, but I love her with all my heart and I know she's worth waiting for. In the meantime, company is always welcome and appreciated. :o) (Added 07/05/08)

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So yeah.. she (not the same she who asked me to journal this) told me she needed to examine her life, but would of course value my friendship, love and continued emotional support. She has since deleted me on MySpace, FaceBook, et cetera; blocked me on AIM and YM; and broken off all communication, refusing to even explain her bizarre behavior. I guess she has more growing up to do than I realized. I wish her well.

I freely admit I'm assertive, I challenge all preconceived notions, and I've even been known to dine on the occasional sacred cow. (Mmmm.. cow.. ) I imagine some people don't do well with that kind of straightforward, no holds barred honesty. I wouldn't want a relationship based on anything less.

to the best journal entry I've read in days. Thank you Gutterabbit! :oD

Darwin + Giant Panda = FAIL

If my profile appeared on your "stalkers" list and you are male, less than a 50% match with me or greater than 300 miles away from me.. odds are that your profile or photo was flagged and I wanted to know more about you before making a decision, or you wrote a user test that I had a particularly strong opinion about - positive or negative - and I wanted to learn more about the person who wrote it; id est, you.
There are always exceptions of course, especially if you happen to be a gal below the age of, oh.. let's say 42; so if you read my profile and like what you see, by all means let me know. I'm seldom opposed to making new friends, regardless of the method of introduction.

That needed to be cleared up. I was getting some really strange emails.

You know what I love? A girl who puts nothing but slutty, half naked pictures up in her profile, and then says, "I'm a Christian women who will accept nothing less from her man!"
Damn! So close.. Because goodness knows I was almost going to message your skanky ass for the hook-up, but I'm afraid I just can't meet the standard of morality, excellence and good ol' fashion family values you're obviously setting.
Lawdy, lawdy.. Praise the T&A and pass the ammunition..

On the subject of T&A, I'm also getting sick of girls who include the oh so clever camera shot from above, looking down their "I had no idea this shirt was so low" neckline, showing their milk sacks as they demurely look away from the lens. These are almost always the same girls who proclaim to be looking for a guy who will respect them for who they are, and not treat them like a sex object. Sure you are.. Honey, we can't respect you until you respect yourself.
For the record, girls who do the same but look into the camera with those "come to bed" eyes.. very nice. Keep up the good work. I'm not saying.. I'm just saying..

You know what else I love? I love a morbidly obese person who claims in their profile, "All my friends say I'm tons of fun to be around!" Oh sweetly ironic, unintentionally self-deprecating statement.. how you gladden my soul..
Disclaimer: I'm speaking rather glibly about a serious medical condition. I do not use the term "morbid obesity" lightly, and certainly not in reference to shapely, meaty or slightly overweight girls who I, to be quite honest, am attracted to. Thank you.

This query is posed in the matching questions, but unfortunately, the answer options are limited to Yes or No. It's just not that simple. (JRG, stick with me and keep reading. I promise you won't hate me in the end.)
I define marriage as a spiritual union between two loving souls, and civil union as a strictly legal, non-spiritual or religious matter. Clergy perform marriages, civil authorities such as justices and sea/air captains perform civil unions; at least in my opinion. I am absolutely in favor of any two people who love each other having the right to make their union legal and binding; and to be married by any clergy-member, rabbi, priest/priestess, minister, etc.. who is willing and empowered by their religion to perform such a ceremony. However, asking about the legalization of gay marriage without specifying that it also includes civil union, and permits religions to abide by their own traditions is a huge violation of the separation between church and state. This renders any legislation that speaks only of gay marriage unconstitutional. I support human rights and civil liberties; the First Amendment and the constitution itself exist to protect these rights.
So stop calling me a Republican!

Just because I love hatemail, I need to mention that I believe with all my heart that the LGBT movement has lost its way. Once predicated on the firm belief that love should know no bounds, be they orientation, gender and gender identity, or societal disapproval; this once accepting community now chooses to turn their backs on some of their own. As I have now witnessed on multiple occasions, they often view true bisexuals as an undesirable caste. They view bisexuality the way the unenlightened perceive the children of interracial couplings; accepted by neither one community nor the other entirely, they are simply "less than". So too is it with bisexuality. Prejudice in a group often discriminated against themselves is prejudice none the less.
It comes down to this for me: I am morally and spiritually opposed to all forms of unjust discrimination and anything that seeks to repress the free expression of love, and I will fight against such oppressive views anywhere I witness them. This is not a popular position, I assure you.. When an institution or organization once established to counter said oppression becomes guilty of the same, it becomes a part of the problem, and can no longer claim innocence.
In other words, if it's a concave digging implement, no matter what its purpose originally was, it becomes a shovel.

Just so you know, I identify heteroflexible/bisensual. These are just words though. I enjoy hugging all my friends, regardless of gender or lack there of. I cuddle with anyone willing to snuggle back; love is love. I find attractive men, well, attractive and I'm not ashamed to say so. What does that make me? I dunno.. a loving human being?

If I had a point, I've lost it now. I'm just so bothered by the binary, yes/no, Us vs Them, either you're with us or against us mentality I see running rampant in society today. Whether you agree, disagree, or want to take my thoughts and expand/expound into something closer to the truth, I leave this open to your comments.

B'Shalom, Namaste and Goodnight.

I've decide to keep a "blog" on this site. I might as well, seeing as I'm on here so much these days. I can't promise that it'll be interesting, or even that I'll update it with anything resembling regularity, but I have such a profound dearth of better things to do so.. who knows?

Someone called me a people-pleasing misanthrope today. I can't decide if I'm more bothered by being called a "people-pleaser" or by being found out so easily. As I've said many times I am not in fact a misanthropist; I'm just very selective about who I call a friend, and I dislike people in a general sense. See?

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Misanthropy
- snip -- While misanthropes express a general dislike for humanity on the whole, they generally have normal relationships with specific individuals. Misanthropy may be motivated by feelings of isolation or social alienation, or simply contempt for the prevailing characteristics of humanity.

Overt expressions of misanthropy are common in satire and comedy, although intense misanthropy is generally rare. Subtler expressions are far more common, especially for those pointing out the shortcomings of humanity. In extreme cases, misanthropes may remove themselves from society, becoming hermits, recluses, shut-ins, or suicides.

Some religions, or schools of religious thought, maintain that humanity as a whole is evil, or an unnatural cancer on the earth. -- end snippet -

Fuck me.. Well, if the sabot fits, use it to gum the works.

I think I'm going to go connect this to my self-summary so "quick matchers" can read it and see what a head case I am.

More later. Perhaps..