are given the chance to turn well they have a window of opportunity it seems then
AND YOU DO AND HAVE (LUST AND CAST IT SEEMS AND IS IF IT IS, NONJUDGINGLY
i swear if anyone mocks anyone for their sexual orientation, or any sexual behavior including if it is sinful their own lust for evil has remained strong
#god is swearing, and is telling u to fucking cast the first stone u who have never lusted and do not lust for evil and are not lecherous sayin u will make come ons to me even if i don't find it appealing and u are aware of that to a certain extent
https://soundcloud.com/mmmusic/lorde-team for 'the team political now anti-orapolitical afterwards if it is it is it seems
we'll party up it up every week and fancier once a month at social luncheon political meet and greet and once every 6 months at a ball, maybe:P
Annoying things people do on dates (Miss Congeniality... another update in the ongoing quest to be the prezzie u wud most want to have a beer with, or 6 natural ginger ales with, or have sex with..uh, let's stick to reality here because there's only so many days in the year and so many hrs for fucking
1. If you have a car and if u plan to have sex outside, it's called buy the fucking box of Kleenex *yes, this is a brand mention, no dilution here to put in ur car somewhere and also buy the pocket sized kleenex and bring it with u when u are on a fucking date in ur fucking pocket thx bc it's not fucking fair if i'm always fucking having to buy more mini-kleenex packs, at least outwardly it seems u all are betta at having condoms (which btw i purchase around 40% of the time and then leave the ones that are unused at ur place or in ur vehicle so if u need it for someone else (usually god doesn't suffer fools around me for more than one date) then there u go
2. Do not make (unnecessary) derogatory comments* about other ppl's looks including weight, sexual orientation or any of the fuck. It's fine if u point what seems to be things out but don't fucking make fun of or 'seriously condescendingly mock people, mocking behavior or speech that mocks ppl can be acceptable in jest in certain situations
3. Don't shit ie embarrass or insult or accuse someone in their drinking hole or local hangout place or town anywhere close to where they live i.e. within 1 hr 30 minutes driving distance omg it's fucking embarrassing (instance: do not fucking undertip it's fucking 20% for two people on halfway decent wait time and halfway decent food, u can do that on the 'food and drink' only, but if u are not fucking generous around me i will fucking remember that u are a cheapskate and that u talk shit with ur actions, practice fucking hospitality wherever the fuck u go (oh goddamn, next time i go back to [particular restaurant establishment] i'm gonna have to fucking pay and tip extra because some dumfuck undertipped this time and i'm pretty sure the waitstaff whom it seems shares the tips and service responsibility will remember me, jesus) oh, along with that, it's called don't fucking enter an establishment from the atypical entrance when first entering as a patron and don't fucking be lazy as shit and leave ur shit all over the table move the fucking 'condiments (loose term) back to their proper and likely original places generally and for god's sake if the table is rather wide pass ur shit to the server so they don't have to fucking lean all the way over
a) if u have sex with someone without a condom do not offer to be an accomplice to murder and offer to buy them plan b in the morning it was ur fucking choice, take fucking responsibility
*if u start spewing shit and it becomes repetitive for varying categories of shit i will usually not mention anything after the first incident, ie offensive remark, by the second, third and so on and so forth expect a rather perfunctory, eloquent and simple assertion, if it is repeating problem of arrogance in behavior, speech, mentality, motive or action expect me to become rather still and cold for a period of time and rather quiet, which is a hint to me that u are being arrogant even if i have not been informed or told of ur so-called iniquities, egregious behavior yet has not yet been pointed out to me in specifics, also expect to be chewed the fuck out eventually in an even more stark, perfunctory manner if and when i feel led to as beneficial (and really it might be months before we talk again and most of ur shit behavior was already addressed in former rounds of interaction including communication)
I hate the news, I hate the blues I used to causeeee unecessary, too i love the news the good news blues from the heart sorrow depart but the blues here and hearing the news with a pure blue true heart, and I don't hate anything anymore
I woke up in the morning with bjork singing in the head...
it is wednesday
a long week materials the update and i have yet to skim the news skimmed over me
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lhoyIYxXKOI for dc as if courting some guy
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AupNf6DOaPg stalkerish, but who would suspect it
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WuJE40OBt48 yea, when you stop sinning entirely
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zrqKnPhPSJ4 johnny, get angry for reasons you know and don't know
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y6V0zJygCvI like dc, like me
Well, i guess you neva' knew
that God was into booze and politics
well i think i drank too much and too little of it
and whaddya haveta' do
Courting american public, like royalty
well, you'll say it's not so bad this time
it's not this bad in the shrine to good and evil
highly strategic moves God's got them a mess in this throng
well i guess it's the name isn't it the name it ain't the name of the game
yea, long week ahead, gotta' live cus i'm not dead enuf
i am not proud of my failures, i guess i stopped failin' by heedin' ur wailin' by heeding your wailing
and she who is angel is a beautiful song
angelic and rebellious still they went on
long list of sins trail behind me
goddamn, they still know my past is where to find me lost and losing
but yea, you've gawt those highly strategic moves
andyouwritethose highly strategic goings onsongs that weave and move and say so long
this too shall pass on;
and i go on courting American royalty, anyways, was humble means, well grown poor, yea, princess gown america, yea, she loved more, a whore, poor royalty, but she was always royalty to me, part of hope for jerusalem you see, she was she is as she will be
War on terror
reverse terrorism tactics fear mongering United states is behaving like a terrorist cell recruiting efforts culpable colluded nations effects for no efficacy home grown terrorism (gov't own) is its own worst terrorist domestic threat eroding american values undone from the inside down and isn't that what terrorists wanted anyway, aside (american values not under 'greatest threat by terrorists but by americans in gov't by themselves freedom values violating the law civil liberties constitutional law (and the constitution is not flawless representative the idea, still falling short of liberty values protection of ideal pursuits
constitution patriot act? unconstitutional we terrorize american citizens (and foreign peoples) eroding freedom which is just what the terrorists and those who behave like such in limiting freedom wanted, but you sinning
did you stop entirely yet? well, if you wanted it really a desire well maybe you could if given a chance, a real chance in mercy
consulting the voice of god at every instant asking what would be beneficial, but you didn't give a damn anyway about freedom did you, really actions true
desiring priority move but yea, he'll still perform shit through your shitty self, but it doesn't mean you give a damn 'bout anyone else
desiring not sinning, above everything else and every instant a still, small voice to guide that will tell you whether to go from the left or the right, but nobody heeds, noone heeds they read but do not unheeding, my way they say carve the day that way but they keep fucking up never tried, and i forget the lines
every instant to instant abide the voice abide tells you what task assigned how to perform it how to lie gesture tone severity thoughts entertaining assigned what to do next what needs to be done to be used encouraged and supported through you to others but no one wanted to listen, and david fucked up but he said don't take away your spirit the voice of conversation even if he never tried, even if he never did anything right
Mostly it was not about new measures other than airport security it was about strengthening controls not violating privacy shifting seas of information parsing gleaning futility it was accountability from the bottom to high up but you know you can't force people god can maybe to do their part fulfill responsibility duty so ignoring them like you ignoring, and wonder why
Oi vey, so my ego has been decimated it seems but i suppose intimidated effect still occurs, much reading and preparation materials for the fall
including two newly added books for skimmed purposes it seems and $60 worth of amazon video on demand purposes and maybe reading up on some more baudelaire to expand access to language faculties
not to mention the first half of theater history and lecture notes, engaging shockingly perhaps, but not surprisingly, if it is really practiced as true art it is sublime
i am also scheduled to write a screenplay and a play, oh god help meinspirationgrabbed from the good ether hopefully
and the rest, preparatory rest so much more needed to know, and yet not with any surety,verify by my own account or verifiable with certainty by my own account here
and theater like everything else reflects passages historical period a record, a reflection of the times, notions running escape elude enlightenment bare it
All the Songs sing about God&HS sigh the feminine and the masculine, 'cause she's gawt the power, hovering over gathering like a mother hen
Hmm..perhaps electric eels shouldn't go swimming, electrocuting the entire goddamn ocean, poor fishies in the sea that is polluted, can an electric eel electrocute itself? does it put the cute in electrocute?
If i'm such a fuckin'recluse...haha, whatever, how will politics ever find me out?
For dat 'funk/soul brotherofdc:inspired?
Everything you did&/n't want to know about me: i'm your fangrrl:
loved the two-tone crotch thing:Pkindahorrifyinglyintriguing like most ppl
uhh, and the dijbouti line.. i didja bootay 'nd i never came back, lol <3 amazing
Why do you want to go into fashion design?
Well, I'm registered for theater classes and then realised that I don't want a longer-term career in theater per se, and that even if I did, it might be more practical to go into design. Maybe I'll learn sewing skills, among other things which would be applicable to everyday living.
Also, because I hate shopping. It often takes an inordinate amount of time to find what I am looking for, or I have 'extensive searches that last for years for particular item that I cannot find (does it exist yet i wonder?) and I often go to stores looking for something but come up empty, and with a shitload of 'confusing, neutral value design choices and renditions imprinted in indelible expressions in my mind.
I also have a beneficial sense of taste of items belonging or that they ought to belong to certain people, such items when I see them, well some items, remind me of certain people but when shopping for apparel, accessories, or other 'gifts for people it seems appropriateness can be found and delivered, external force moving through me, anyway. Typically, they have detailwork and a certain styling that suits that person, perhaps emanation of their heart or soul, provider that the present view the item fulfills a pragmatic need as well as a satisfaction in the aesthete: the perspective consists seemingly of a present view and focal point in the future tense of being.
I have had an interest in fabrics and design since I was young and paid more attention to glitterfying designs on a barbie doll than barbie herself, as well as reappropriating materials like draperies and making them into skirts, among other clothing items. Related materials with regard to texture, consistency, embroidery, lace including ribbons of sorts, buttons, also perpetually held some fascination for me along with cuts, drapery, and form; essentially how the cloth falls visually and against the body in terms of feeling.
I wonder if there is appropriate music to play in a clothing store that 'matches the collection. It would be amusing to find out.
I like practicality and durability in clothing design, which is difficult to find these days, varying styles so to speak to suit a specific temperament a/o mood a/o occasion, stages of life a/o in depth of maturity in setting places revived.
I've enjoyed trying out different materials and outfits and engaging modes and styles so to speak. Lines in items seemingly adhering to classic utilitarianism to island sand nuanced designs landmarked in the archive of past design that I have worn or only have 'glimpsed in passing, design that remains it seems if only in reticent memory in the museum archive of my mind.
I in part dress like shit (but there is method to shitness) some days because I can't find clothing that I think would be appropriate otherwise; why not work to design for myself? And customise work for others?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nMz20IHd8YQ for a girl i once knew
sometimes you wonder, why the goddamn church sits on money when people are dying: oh, because they care more about solidifying their worldly power in 'wealth than they give a damn about he who is love; but, yeah, some nation's bein' too bitchy
capitol, the heights (these are not the heights) dedication
i have not eaten burgers for months
the royals do not eat in public
neither should political dynastics
particularly when it seems congress doesn't fast enough
and there's a chef in the palace
paid for by the public: today i feel like i am starving
the whole world over
for love: leave everyday people to their every day:
they are not a zoo, this is not speculation, they are not meant for your entertainment, your refreshment: not in this way
don't you have your non-every every day: but you forgot duty
you forgot love: it's strange to be vacationing on duty
leaving visiting not until the term is served: but flattery
of offering hugs and kisses now, since photos cannot abound
what strangeness, what bullshit propaganda in this hollow sound: my, how we fell, and we took each other eating with us, wielding unduly our power now; and keep all animal remarks to yourself never public remark out of respect for yourself and others including the animals contained or uncontained in themselves
Even if they do
People don't love people anyway, they let love move let it be as it is through them, really it has nothing to do with what i do even in choosing there's so many mercies in presenting of said opportunity presented in said instant circumstance aligned to choose
Beyond a shadow of a doubt do i love you (bottom line: some ppl who ought to be in office and are equipped to their permitted extent failing integrity morals do not fulfill their duty's sake but there's barely anyone morally/else equipped comparably otherwise to replace 'em and so what it happens in every field/industry most people are shitheads and don't give a damn about each other and risk each other's lives/injury so what chances are so do you so why complain overly much; you're not changing much in your private or public affairs/dealings and they're not changing either, so what you still maintain your roles in your family and your income/employment/position/job if you have one, and so do they when you choose to change maybe they'll beat you to it maybe, most never do, there so much goddamn mercy on everyone, but who really knows or recognises what is accrued, none of these non-omnisicient idiots do)
when people complain about people in office
moan and**** saying that they would do a better job
well as it stands you may or may not have had politics as your life plan some public or private career of sorts
but can't they see that if you are equipped for such a role then you are equipped and for however long
can't they see they themselves are abrasive perhaps more so as well
and if you want to talk about integrity or the switching of roles
well if someone was supposed to be a dj all their life and they have integrity and the talent equipped i guess you can't ask irreverently for them to throw it away exchange it for a career in politics, unless they are equipped to pursue that as a good end we need dj's with integrity where they are anyway
so if the people most of the people who are in office are equipped to be in office for the most part anyway even if they reject some of their equipping then they are more qualified because they equipped than the person glitching, and morally, anyway, the person who is complaining about people does not have more 'decency' overall, usually, their ****in' constitutes less
judas it seems was the guy in charge of holding the money and it seems he might have helped himself to it, however much or not, from time to time or not, but you don't see someone else taking over his responsibility, everyone has their own sh*tto do and sometimes ppl are upheld in their roles regardless of how egregious or crappily they do their jobs, some of them should be fixed out by others, who are equipped or become equipped for the job, but sometimes not and they stay where they are, this speaks more of their moral failing usually than how they are equipped or not equipped some try to stick themselves in politics when that's not part of the intended plans and purposes for their lives, most are chasing after their own deceits that they attached, clung to and so made their own even if it was all part of a&/the lie
there is serendipity around the corner -
here: isolation in what we fear
hmm, it seems sometimes the popo (and fellow okcupid/CL users) think i'm high, maybe i am god only knows, the question is.. well, if i'll be toned down one day and elected to public office:P hope they don't find all my old shit;P
shh.. if'i everget'intopoliticshaha... let's have only one party... called 'Party In The USA' that we're all affiliated with:)hehe:PPPcus the constitution seems to still be a flawed document wtf is up with electoral voting and ain't there
incoming : mail : love:hatelovehate:love
This whole profile is one big troll or you were very high on something very strong when you wrote this...
yup: thaz what ppl saybut who the fuck knowz anyway:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YiUdrIsqmyQ holy spirit wrote it i am only the typist i hope turnt
somethin' missin' or is it complete replete with fairness in entirety somethin' all-encompassin':)
so hawt i'm droppin' it: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N_Felv4n_-4 :PPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP
y'all too hawtfo'me;P :)))))))))))) ------------------------------------------@ long-stemmedrosefo'u<3true
xxo's to DC&c
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(ha, sigh: silly, silly boys, x)
All My Lovers (To The DMV)
All my lovers
Won't you come back to me
I remember how you look when you get dressed for work in the morning
I remember how you skid, how you hurt me, how we got rid of our greed
It's lonely up
Here without you still seems
Clear the way you would lay back and I love the smell takin' it all in layin'
Back again it's alright I still can't memorize aftershaves the names of all
Of your colognes or scents today I guess I don't mind sometimes
It may be an acquired taste or you ask me which one and you tell me
Which one you wear on various occasions and why you don't keepin way
I guess I'm in another state of mind these days but sometimes
I was it will it will we eva be
Changed is it
Some new season callin hey
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god is like omg so ded. (typed at 4amseeminglysaturdaymorning bc maybe god was pissed maybe only at my own shit)
bc morally overall everyone's fukin bankrupt whois
on god's not dead eat pray and love the twilight series &c&me
- hope i -
as a person
if he was indeed a human being made in the image of God; i also love the phrase god is dead because God is dead in the hearts of men that continue to commit evil including the ones that perjure themselves when they say they have an intimate relationship with Jesus that they are born-again but do not/are not
- seriously if you really are 'born-again' holy fuck you don't talk about that shit, rarely ever because it's embarrassing that you ever had to be cured of your addiction to evil in the first place -
and secondly, or concurrently, you don't *really* know with absolute certainty because even if you stop sinning seemingly like altogether you have this sneaking suspicion that god might have made you outwardly a robot and inwardly 'hid' a part of your consciousness from you
- even Jesus seems to say that despite their protestations that God performed miracles around them that they taught His word Jesus will say to them something to the effect of away from me you evildoers i do not 'know you ie. i do not have an intimate relationship with you that you claim to have/have had with me; i love so-called atheists;
if God exists, he may have worked through many so-called atheists to raise and support me; if God doesn't exist, I still owe a debt of love to everyone;
I have no right to commit evil; I ought not exercise free will in such a manner;
if God doesn't exist, I owe to so-called atheists every benefit i have received from their human existence that i cannot repay
who fought for my rights; i mean, God but even on a pure 'human existence' level
who made my clothes, who did God tell me that I would possibly marry and that is was beneficial that he listed himself as an 'Atheist' on OKC:P
who transported my food,
who contributed to the making of the incestuous porno of game of thrones that goes on to win a lot of 'awards'; and goddamn i support and so does god the legality of the porn industry; morally it could be an obstruction like homosexual relations but legally same sex marriage or whatever is it seems approved by God
travel wherever the Spirit tells you to go, and fuck whoever His Spirit tells you to fuck but don't write a shitty ass middle class dream of a book about it
i read smut as a child in retrospect it seems i feel less guilty about it since God says it was beneficial for me to read it to well be 'educated' but not anymore; it seems there's no reason anymore for me to read romance novels with vampires in them nor watch films based off of such novels
a purported 'Christian' of all people ought to know why a person hates a absolutely moral possible being, who is an actuality if 'forrealz, but hey don't they wouldn't call themselves 'Christian' if they really knew God it seems because well God doesn't like the goddamn term, we hate and practice evil until we stop hating and practicing evil (in its entirety)
we say all sorts of stupid things against the word of God saying it's not found here or there but really how would we know God seems to say that his word is found in all sorts of places but is He the one leading the investigation or are we leaning on our own assumptions: well now that it seems i no longer lean he tells me his word can be found in the qur'an the book of mormon but some translations are poor altered and such added to well falsehood displayed around the original quoteunquote word of god
or maybe just me, maybe i'm the only one who ever made false assumptions and spoke against the word of god presuming it was not to be found where it was in fact permitted to be existing - my god, perhaps
i actually haven't 'watched the film; if God tells me to watch the film if He exists and He tells me to watch the film i hope i would, though seemingly it falls under the genre of 'whoredom, or maybe just me the biggest whore of all
I have done awful things. It seems I cannot fathom their depth nor gravity. I was always failing. I never was where I ought have been doing what I ought have been doing.
Even now, I think about everything I lost that I don't have with me now to glorify you. Everything including you. I never ought have 'missed people.
Missed them in passing.
It is strange, since the year of my leaving:
I was smacked with the idea that I don't have a 'type' unless you call sinless a type:P
That I had been cruel most of my life, though I pretended not to be. That morally I never had taken care of anyone as I ought. I knew it before but denied it, instead of contending with it as some perspective of reality.
Now I spend time with whomever it seems beneficial to spend time with, I don't understand it. I don't expect I ever will.