**So I haven't updated or changed this beast in quite a while... and it's not going to happen now. But soon. Maybe.**

I'm never completely satisfied with any kind of self-summary that I am required to give, but here is attempt number 35435768527314132167.45q.

I'm a precarious mixture of light and dark and my moods can shift in less than a second. It keeps things exciting, I suppose. I'm not afraid to fight or argue about something or try new and dangerous things (people included), but I shy away from open hostility. I develop brief and passionate crushes on people, words, colours, and other odd objects only to find something else and fall in love with that. Mushy movies make me cry, sometimes even non-mushy ones. I cry a lot in general, even when I'm really happy. I have irritating empathic tendencies that make it hard to be around certain people for long periods of time. I can be very impatient one moment and the opposite the next. I can be very intense until equal intensity is sent in my direction and then I don't know what to do with myself. I don't know what to do with myself most of the time anyway.

As much as I might say that I hate everyone sometimes, it's absolutely not true. As a matter of fact, I usually love everyone a little too much. I'm one of those ridiculously charming/cute/nice people that couldn't make someone hate them if they tried. Not being pretentious here, I've tried. The usual reaction to my efforts are, "Awww, she's so cute" which generally incites more of the terrible Wrath of Sarah that... no one ever notices. So I love people... when I don't want to punch them. Well, I have trouble not hating people that lack common sense or are just stupid. Nothing a good kick in the shins won't fix though!

I absolutely hate sitting around doing nothing, even though I seem to do a lot of it. It's hard to find entertainment when you live in the epicenter of complete boredom. I live in the middle of a field. My neighbors are for the most part extended family. Town is anywhere between 15 and 30 minutes away. Exciting? I think not. I do have a beautiful view of the night sky however. I've yet to see one to beat it.

I don't really have hobbies because I like to try to do so many things... usually at once. I'm generally up for anything regardless of whether or not I know anything about it or occasionally legality. I like studying things to find out how they work and then breaking the rules, people included. I read constantly, sing obsessively, and watch very little TV except for select cartoons and anything with Alton Brown in it. That isn't to say that there aren't some really engaging shows out there, it's just hard to get to watch anything while sharing a screen with five other people.

I love theatre from all angles, and have just as much experience backstage as I have on it. I need to figure out how to get back into while still figuring out what I want to do with my life.

I'm apparently very quirky and ooze contradictions and strange juxtapositions from most orifaces you have heard of and some that you haven't. I'm a Borderline Personality and somewhat okay with that.

I like to play dress-up, tackle football, and sing obnoxiously loud in the shower. Alone or with company. ;)

Learning (about anything) is one of my favorite things to do, it's probably why I watch people so often. That, and I'm really shy until I get to you know. I like video games of all kinds, even though I'm not good at them. I even watch Star Trek. Yep, I'm just pretty much amazing.

Apparently I need to tag five things.

Surviving with my sanity intact in the epicenter of nothing. What? Someone drove a tractor to school? Let's put it in the newspaper! *cough*

Currently working on saving money to go back to school and get out of Moore County, not particularly in that order. Trying to have fun and travel in the process.

I know as soon as I want to make a career of something I'll start to hate it, so I'm trying to figure out how to do a little bit of everything before then.

Making something out of nothing, occasionally singing, reading until the wee hours of the morning, getting overly excited about life and small things I discover in the world around me, charming the pants off of you. Um, not always being literal.

My hair. I have a lot of it, even though I recently cut most of it off. It's thick and curly and screaming for attention no matter what I do to it. Since I'm a little bit on the tall side, my boobs are usually second. They're not huge, but they tend to be on eye level for a lot of my friends.

Otherwise, people don't usually notice me unless I call attention to myself. I'm quiet and fade into the background when I'm around people I don' tknow.

I deleted this because I hate lists, and what I had listed didn't really cover much at all. Besides, I rarely read anyone else's either. That's a lie. I secretly love lists, just not you. That's a lie too. No lists for you though.

I like books - real books. You know, those things with lots of words? Sometimes I even prefer them to people, though if I do, you must REALLY suck. I don't enjoy that I am severely lacking in enough spare time to read books for pleasure. If you like books and having somewhat intelligent conversations about them, you deserve a massive hug from me. Two hugs if you recommend a good book to me that I actually get to read.

I don't see movies that much. I'm sure there are lots of great ones out there that you'd just love to tell me about, but seriously... you don't need to add to the list of things I haven't seen. An exception would be RENT. You can talk to me about that all you want. Or sing to me, as the case may be.

There's not much music that I don't like. I also like to discuss it sometimes. Yes, we're back to that whole gross "communication" thing. Have I mentioned RENT?

I love chicken alfredo, Asian food, and fruit. I'm also slightly obsessed with pop tarts, freezer pops, and raw vegetables.

I used to have Friends/Family on here, but then I noticed that this category refers to things I could never do without, as opposed to people. And as much as I use.... I mean love them, they aren't things. Check.

I. My computer- I pretty much live on it, and occasionally do work too. It's my connection to the world, and more importantly the people mentioned above.

II. Music- In general, if I'm not singing out loud, I'm singing in my head. Anything that pops into my head depending on my mood or taste at hand. From show tunes, to girlypop, to metal, to Baby Got Back.

III. Affection- Oh sweet Jeebus, hug me please. Okay, I'm not that addicted, but it's way up there. I like touching and hugging and cuddling. Not to mention making obscene kissy faces and smart ass comments. I'm a sucker for tickle fights and play-wrestling.

IV. Paint- I think this stems from playing in the mud as I child. I loved the way it felt in my hands and how I could create almost anything with it. I do the same thing now with paint, only it's prettier. And more sanitary. Well... it's not always prettier.

V. Sleep- I probably sleep a lot more than I should, but there are tons of less healthy ways of dealing with my life, so I figure I'm gold. And besides, under lots of warm blankets, that toasty stretchy feeling is divine.

VI. Respect- If you can't show basic respect for a person's boundaries, verbal or otherwise, or if you insist on making snarky, pretentious, assholish comments, I don't want anything to do with you. Respect is way important, and way under-credited.

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• johnpicaacho

Sex. I can't help it. I try not to even, I just.... yeah. I think about sex a lot. I also think about other people's motives, getting inside their minds, cute fluffy animals, and the last good book I read. None as much with sex though. Sometimes simultanously with other things.

Also, who I can annoy and make feel awkward at any given time. It's a rare talent and I'm pleased to possess it.

Spending quality time with my friends, missing my sorority sisters, reading, maybe talking online to friends, painting, orchestrating trouble, trying to be unproductive, laughing my ass off, sometimes a little bit of illegal sneaks in there too. Pretty much whatever pops into my head.

I'm easily rendered completely speechless by unexpected acts of kindness or simple shows of affection.

I spend too much time thinking about other people and trying to get inside their head.

I can be manipulative if it gets me what I need, but I don't like doing it. I just happen to be really good at it. Blame it on years of theatre.

You want someone to talk to, because I love talking and listening. Or if you think I'm pretty snazzy. I happen to think that you're pretty snazzy, too.

Oh yeah, if you at least attempt to use correct spelling and grammar. Sorry, I do have that one requirement.

And you're not looking for ass.

My AIM is Faeriedreameth. Use it wisely. If I don't like you, I'm sho' 'nuff gonna block you. :)