I am comfortable in jeans & t-shirt, sweaty-horse smudged riding clothes, business attire, and the classic black dress with heels. I have learned how to self-replenish, have the ability to be juicy, ripe, filled to over flowing. I have discovered self-admitted and accepted inconsistencies within myself. Consciously I have often challenged the whole concept of the dance that is expected in courtship…who decided it was the man’s role to make the first move…yet, I find myself hesitant. I am very skilled at orchestrating the decision process of my remodeling project which is my business side. There is a romantic side to me that I am guessing has read too many Louis L’Amour novels and watched too many “ride off into the sunset” movies in my youth. I express and acknowledge the small gestures of romance… the ones that say I am thinking of you, know you and want you. I am a high energy person, but will easily be lured back to bed on a rainy afternoon for a backrub.
I AM NOT a woman whose hair looks perfect all the time, makes home cook meals every night, and knows exactly how to answer all my daughter’s questions. But, I am a Mom who eats birthday cake with no hands, encourages silly and says no when necessary.
I AM NOT a woman who has more answers than questions. I am a woman who has acknowledged the past’s influences on the present, and has walked through her past and healed in the present. I want the long conversations, the look across the room, the casual caress, the naps with my head on your shoulder, the ease of being with someone who can make me genuinely smile with their quick wit and double meanings.
I used to want the man to ride up on his white horse and save me…now I want to ride with him side by side together. I have done the saving, as well as expected to be saved….done that, have the t-shirt. I have also learned how wonderful it can be when your friend is also your partner and lover. I am a package deal, my daughter is 12 years old…my parenting journey began in my 40’s after my career was established. I am an entrepreneur and am fortunate to be both passionate & accomplished in my profession. Although my life if full, I am searching for a healthy, interdependent, committed relationship with a man who is not intimidated by an intelligent, complex woman.