We had been separated for nearly 5 years but had still remained close friends. I have to admit her death was a shock to me. Mary was only 54 years old we often discussed the possibility of getting back together. Then ultimately decided no it would be a divorce. That divorce was not meant to be we were meant to be together as husband and wife until the end so it seems. I say be careful what you promise God he just might hold you to it.
""""UPDATE: April 20, 2014 a lot of this is still in the works many set backs have taken place. The divorce was put on hold again the V A and Social Security are still pulling my chain about my disabilities. I have spent the last month in the hospital under intense psychiatric Therapy for Binge Eating due to Post Traumatic stress disorder and Severe depression and anxiety. I was back up to 401 pounds but now my weight as of 04/20/2014 is back down to 365. I walk with the use of a heavy duty walker due to a back injury sustained during desert shield work activity. While another co worker was horse playing. """"""
I believe every man possess's the qualities women seek in them. It is up to us as men to show those qualities. Not just when it benefits us but when she needs us as well.
If you come upon my profile and there is a 98 % to 100 % chance we will be enemies. Write me I love a challenge.
Update May 7, 2013: Well I just completed my training and I am now a licensed and ordained minister. No I am not a lunatic I was called to serve the lord in 1985. I lost my way and over the last year of hardships. I have found my way back to him. I am not going to change my profile around. I probably will not be preaching in a pulpit. I will witness when and where I can. I have long felt Gods calling and now I know where it was leading too.
I never knew that my separation and divorce could or would lead me back to God. I did still strongly follow his word as I have not even dated another woman. I will not until my divorce is final.
I have met lots of new friends on here some I speak to here and there. Some I speak to once or twice a month. Some I probably wear my welcome out with chatting to much. I just hope that you all understand what I am truly all about. I am not the old pervert chasing the young girls. I am not the young puppy seeking a cougar to teach me the ropes. I am not the
Older wiser father figure. I am just me and I hope that one of you will see through the corny jokes.
To find the little boy inside struggling to make friends. I hope that you will see the kind gentle cuddly teddy bear. That just wants to be loved. I hope you will see the hopeless romantic struggling with the awkwardness of being human. Struggling to get past those barriers to become someones Prince Charming.
I hope that you will find it in your heart to become the love that I have long yearned for. The Love I will never deserve but will put 100 % of my broken heart into earning every minute of that love.
Okay if i put any more out there you will have my social security card and my bank pins. LOL Oh yeah and the smart mouthed fool that just cant wait to poor ice water on my best moments. So they will pass by quickly and allow me to hide my blushing face. In order to keep up the appearance of being the dashing white night with the impenetrable armor.
News Flash: The nee is starting to mend It turns out I tore a tendon.
Well since I twisted my nee up severely on the 14th of November 2012 and not healing as well as I had hoped. I am not as active as I was before that.
As of Dec 04, 2012 I had lost 69 pounds since May 22, 2012. I was down to 315 lbs at that time.
Update: As of Dec 24th of 2012. I had lost a total of 80 lbs and had only 1 pound 4 ounces more to lose. To get over my wall but I am sad to say I slipped back up to 340 lbs again. I am still proud of the 49 lbs I did not gain back that is successful loss of 49 lbs.
My goal is to have that 40 lbs gone by June maybe more. By Christmas this year I want to be 240 lbs.
"missed by a 160 lbs"
No one truly understand what the other person is going through and it is a waste of time and effort. To try and get them to understand just tell them once and walk away. That way you get to keep your sanity.
You know when I do this I forget to write about me instead I drift off into likes and dislikes. So here is my real self summary.
I am working on my 4th' technical diploma and associates degree in business management. From there I will get a job hopefully as a social worker. I believe it would be helpful to work in that field while completing college courses to become a licensed psychologist. Once I obtain the license then open my own office. I have always loved talking with people helping them find solutions to their problems. I might as well get paid for it LOL.
I hold the following license, certifications and decree's.
Licensed sub contractor and Licensed Contractor. I have not been able to use those license since 1998 due to health issues. I am taking business management. In order to incorporate those license and step up to the next level.
I hold a masters license in electrical work to include.
Blue print reading, wiring diagrams, line diagrams, schematics, residential wiring, commercial wiring and industrial wiring.
Having proudly served eight years in the U S Navy Sea Bees reserves. While spending approximately 18 months on active duty. I took part in Operation desert shield and desert storm. Including two years of technical schooling While in the reserves in the following.
Heavy timber construction, Residential from ground up. commercial carpentry, industrial carpentry. Concrete forming, pouring, placing and finishing. Interior and exterior trim also sheet rock hanging and finishing.
Twelve of the past 30 years was spent working as a finish / master carpenter / framing sub contractor. Finish home builder contractor.
I plan to keep my license since my daughter wants to work on houses. I can keep her from going through the headaches of getting a license. Also give her a few tips along the way while she works towards her goals.
I love to play chess, checkers, monopoly, rummy, gin rummy, dominoes etc. I usually win and it leaves people to think I cheat. I also love to play volley ball, billiards, ping pong, racket ball, hand ball, dodge ball. I love going on hikes through the woods and along the beach. I have been known to walk in the rain just because.
I would love to walk in the rain with my special lady and just stop and make out. A long passionate kiss in the rain will win you points with me. I am attracted to women in general I have my preferences. I will not list them hear just because someone does not look like Raquel Welch. That does not mean they are not the one for me.
Turn offs: If you have only one profile picture do not cover your face. I like to see a face helps me to judge the person inside better. Having no profile picture will not get me to send you a greeting at all. Oh and if your only picture is of you with your kids or girlfriends at least circle your face. No one likes to feel like they are in a crap shoot.
A nasty attitude such as oh I am educated and hold several degree's. Or the prissy attitude of oh my what a neanderthal.
I hate people who judge others and yes you show it in your profiles. Yes I read them a pretty face and great body will get you a greeting from me. However it will not hold my interest. If you do not think we are a match and just do not want to be friends just say so. Nothing a guy hates worse than to be used as the back up plan or even worse the last resort.
I pride myself on my keen sense of wit. I will make a wise crack about most anything. I try not to hurt feelings though. I love a sense of humor. If it is sarcastic the more the better. Bruce Willis comes to me for lines by the way.
Okay I was 48 nearly 49 now 50 year old male very open minded and open to most things worth being open too. I am not into pain and I hate petty arguments. I am a gentleman the open the door for you type. I will not run ahead of you just so I can. If you walk with me or wait for me then the door will be opened for you. Please do not stand in the rain waiting just open the darn door and go in. I promise I will understand. I do not criticize. I hate people who tell people only what they need to know in order to make themselves look good. Even if it means making the other person look bad.
I tend to be very caring and that is sometimes taken for weakness. I can be a bear if I need to but prefer to be considered the big cuddly teddy bear. I have a big heart and will go the extra mile for the people I care for. I am not the hopeless romantic but have my moments when I can be as romantic as anyone.
Most people say I am hard to read. I tend to carry myself as if I am confident and hard core. When the truth is I am sincere, loving, Kind and giving. I love to feel as if I am in charge but usually. I lead from the lowest position when I do not even know it. I tend to be the one everyone can count on in a clinch. When some people see this they think it is an open door for users. Be aware though I see through users and will back away. I may look gullible but I am far from it so take your using, scamming self on down the road.
I hate having to say this but here it is. All legit potential friends ignore this paragraph or skip to the one after this one.
I make it my policy to never give money to anyone I do not
know personally and for a long long time. So if you are planning to scam someone keep moving. I am a moderator here as well as a patron and I will report you.
My independence is very important to me. I do not find it comforting when people pick out my faults and try to flaunt them. I am not very easy to fool so do not try me. I consider myself to be intelligent and easy to speak to. Well that is enough about me what about you?
Oh yeah! I will not take my profile down just because we are talking. If it gets serious then I will take it down. I will never quit making friends. So don't ask me to be all wrapped up in your world. If you are not all wrapped up in mine.