Hello.......i feel a tadlington dopey writing about myself.

I just wrote a huge mass of stuff here and then stupidly leaned on the keyboard........................$%*@#&$!@#

What did it say.......

i realised the other day that I have a goal that i am well on my way to achieving....that is being a psychologist.....i'm still not sure where i should put my skills to work though....kids, teen, adults, seniors, post-trauma, forensic, drug and alcohol, women only, men only....so many choices....i could go on forever.

One thing i am determined to do is change the stereotypes about seeking psychological help. People need to know that it does NOT mean someone is weak or inferior if they need help, if anything it means they are smart for taking control of their life.
No one should feel ashamed that they need help. The television and media perpetuate the myth that people who seek help are crazy. Every single person on the planet will at one point in their life need someone to talk to, it might be for a small problem or a huge problem, what is wrong with that. Who has never asked for guidance, or needed support through a situation? Who has never thought they cant go on living for one more day? If we could get through life without help we would be superhuman - Gods even.

I've lived with my Grandma since I was really little. I love her dearly, she is my best friend. I would not be where i am today (that is, accomplishing my goals) if it werent for my grammy, I hope she is proud of me, god knows i'm proud of her. I brag to everyone about all the amazing things she has accomplished throughout her life. If she wasnt my grandma i would adopt her.

I've been playing guitar since i was 13. I think i'm pretty good at it...I've had standing ovations, unforgettable - yay me! I've written a few songs that have made people cry; i think, as a musician, evoking such a strong emotional response is the ultimate compliment. I've had a lot of requests for a CD. One of my songs was used in a local theatre production, cant remember what the play was called - it was about kids and drugs.

Blah blah blah.....I think that was everything

I am happy, heppy, and huppy??? :)

i'm earning respect. i'm making money. i'm buying new clothes, ipods, books, cd's, pc games, plants, dvd's. i've stopped doing all that bad crap that's been holding me back. i'm talking more. i even got a punching bag. i'm listening to lots of music. i'm sleeping a fair bit more than i was able to before. i'm paying my way. i'm letting my grandma know i love her.

Doing a BA psych at uws. yay!!!! And getting awesome results!

feeling sorry & sticking for up for kids and animals. i'm pretty good at wearing a pink shirt i bought for myself. playing pc games, decent ones - not baby crap. letting ppl know when i've had enough. smoking a pack a day. Everyone says i'm good at singing, writing songs & playing my guitar, painting houses & rooms etc, DIY stuff, i'm pretty handy with a drill. noticing things, being observant, walking in someone elses shoes, being objective, my dress sense, so i'm told. working hard - outdoors stuff. drawing, writing, painting pictures. i'm a champion speller, when i can be bothered.

1) They always notice i wear only black and then take it upon themselves to label me a goth: I AM NOT A GOTH!!!!! hence the pink shirt, i also have a white one.
2) my ability to laugh at myself....... as long as no-one else does!
3) "standoff-ishness" & "dont come near me-ness"
4) my biker boots
5) i look better than i have looked for years [only cause i'm looking after myself]
6) i know a lot of very useless and useful facts.

All of the alien movies and alien Vs Predator1 FEAR & LOATHING, Texas Chainsaw Massacre, blade runner, from hell, k-pax, edward scissorhands,brazil, planet terror, meet joe black, 12 monkeys, seven, dead man, blade trilogy, harold & maude, kill bill 2 & 1 anything by Stanley Kubrick, george A romero, david lynch, john carpenter, quentin tarantino, terry gilliam, peter jackson. actors: malcom mcdowell, ralph fiennes, anthony hopkins, kevin spacey, benecio del toro, johnny depp, nick cage, donald sutherland in invasion of the body snatchers. writers: iain banks - the wasp factory, state of the art & countless other masterpieces. books: Anything by chuck palahnuik, AMERICAN PSYCHO brett easton ellis - the movie totally 100% sucked! the power of one - go peekay! luke davies - Candy, aldous huxley - brave new world. the handmaids tale by Margaret Attwood<--go get this book!!!!!! enough now i could go on forever. Did i forget William Burroughs, how dare me!!! Anything by burroughs is worth reading.

My guitars but especially my beautiful '61 gibson SG
My HUGE CD collection - (a large collection of CDs, not a collection of large CDs)
My beautiful cats and dogs, awww theyre so cute!!
My computer
The written word, no i don't mean the bible, ewww.
The ability to whisper.

And a couple of additional necessities:
antiseptic, the wheel & the knife <--without those 3 things the world would still be in the dark ages.
oh, fire oops, how could i forget fire.

the best tactics to win.

why?

shameless ignorance.

how?

why i'm single, even though i'm not totally revolting.

why our pets love us unconditionally.

how complex the brain really is.

why people are so apathetic.

how did those people get to be so apathetic?

Not studying...finally. No, now i'm studying again. Its like a really disfunctional relationship: on...off...on...off...on........

having a drink, watching a movie.
Fridays with me are usually pretty quiet.
Lots of people my age cant handle being home on Friday and Saturday nights-I am the exact opposite of them. I much prefer to stay home with a drink, a movie and a comfy seat to snuggle into. i do really enjoy a night out, it has to be with the right person though.

At home with my grandma, my pups, my books, decent conversation that goes on for more than 2 minutes, What good is life if i can't be with the ones i love??

i can burp at will.

if you made it this far down you should have a look at my myspace page. theres other stuff. Update [august 2009]: There was music player there with a heap of songs i like that you should've had a listen to but myspace is more disfunctional than my sad, sad, sad, relationship with study and I'm slowly giving up on them but you can have a look anyway......if you really, really want to

www.myspace.com/smartest_cookie

You consider yourself a nice, decent person and consider me, so far, a nice, decent person.

Dont message me if.....
You are an arrogant jerk guy that thinks i "havent been ****ed by a real man yet".

You are an arrogant jerk guy that likes to attempt conquering or converting lesbians.