informed consent: i have ADHD (not the "doesn't everybody" kind, but the "my mind is in 6th gear, cloud 9 planet claire, all at the same time" kind.). everything is interesting to me. everything. sometimes the wrong thing, at the awkward moment.
i strongly identify with walt whitman's quote: "i contradict myself? very well then! i contradict myself. i am large. i contain multitudes." i have come to treat this whole confusing life journey as some kind of art project: i want to infuse it with beauty, whimsy, profundity, playfulness, passion and life-giving purpose.
to be my type you'd have to be enthralled and intoxicated by complexity, aroused and/or delighted by "scary smart" intelligence, visionary conviction, deep somatic awareness, raw and natural aesthetic gifts, and frequent and easy cultural "code-switching."
*intensely romantic, yet not at all possessive.
*deep thinking and reflective, yet relentlessly funny. funny as hell, if given the slightest encouragement.
*rigorous and skeptical, yet mystical/shamanistic.
*fierce and militant in my convictions, yet highly tolerant and often warmly affectionate with people that i hold strong disagreements with. (my best friend from h.s. voted for "W" TWICE. i neither killed nor disowned him.
*i consider myself fairly AWEsome, sexy, off-beat, on-key (yes, i can sing), brave, generous, wise, tender, sometimes noble, occasionally foolish, deep, fierce and frequently goofy.
i am extremely confident (even cocky) and outgoing in many ways, yet surprisingly shy and vulnerable in others. i can be seen dancing 3-4 times per week, almost always in bare feet.
while i have sought for most of my life to blend, fit in, and appear normal, i have decided, along with rumi, "from now on, i will be mad." i now identify as out and proud, relentlessly, irredeemably, hopelessly (hopeFULLy, really) eccentric. i do not crave to be seen as normal. i CAN, however, comfortably perform a convincing version of ordinary low-key "manly" black guy with dreadlocks--as it suits me, your parents, or your children.
i like funk music. i like old timey, roots bluegrass and "newgrass" and deep appalachian hills music. i like conscious hip hop. i like classical. i LUV joni mitchell and peter gabriel. i adore al green, clarence carter, dionne warwick and all kinds of roots pop and r&b from the 60's and 70's. i love led zeppelin, aerosmith, blue oyster cult. and weird bands like magma and captain beefheart, and the mothers of invention. i still have zappa's "shut up and play your guitar" on vinyl, but no record player. the residents rock my world (som0ebody stole my "eskimo" album on WHITE vinyl. may they rot in hell). i get off on balkan women's choir music. i heart beetoven's sypmhonies. i saw the best orchestra in the world, the cleveland orchestra (according to international critical consensus, not me) conducted by the world's foremost beetoven interpreter, george szell performing the 5th symphony when i was 12. t was a school field trip. my fucking head exploded.
i have strong vegetarian aspirations, faint vegan hopes. love cooking and dining out, esp. on organic/free-range delights. i've prepared feasts "from scratch" for 2 to 200. i play sorry guitar and flute, but sing beautifully. i am an "intermediate" yoga enthusiast who maintains exquisite health and fitness. drawn to green/feminist politics progressive lifestyle artistry. i have a 3000 book library, but only 200 or so novels. i like light carpentry and fixing things. would someday love to build/restore a house. i enjoy light hiking through mountain, redwood and desert landscapes, esp. if there are hot springs for soaking in nearby.
an outgoing introvert (infp/enneagram 4), i require regular solitude, but am gregarious and pro-social at the same time. i'm fiercely independent, yet fiercely loyal and generously affectionate. there is a high likelihood that i will be a delight to your children, parents and pets, because i am pretty darn good at "loving everybody" and that starts with me.
gender note: i am only interested in women sexually, but still identify as queer--"genderqueer," or, gender "non-conforming." although not effeminate, i am not willing to limit my life choices to those defined by the "act like a man" box. i can do all the "in the box" stuff--heavy lifting, changing tires, repairing computers and other stuff, hand to hand combat, etc .... i have drawn blood in battle, triumphed and found it exciting. but, i prefer to spew poetic prose and look cute in skinny jeans--sometimes with a fine skirt worn over them. there is a whole lot more to being human and male than the "man" box can accommodate, so i draw outside the lines of compulsive masculinity with some deliberation, as well as with a spirit of adventure and playfulness.