The times they are a'changing, and so am I. These past couple of years have been a big period of growth for me. Relationships changing, career changing, learning new things, finally releasing old things held too long.
I am not 100% sure where this ends, and that's okay with me. I have had all the checkboxes on the American dream checked off, and discovered that the promised Hollywood happy ending does not automatically ensue...so, I am doing something about it.
As you will find out if you read further...I am not sure about long term relationships vs. short term relationships right now, and that's okay, too. Just because I am not ready for something the Universe throws my way does not mean it won't be good for me.
Some people have asked me, given this outlook, why I have a profile here, and wouldn't it be easier if I got my house in order first and decided what I need? The answer is that reading profiles here and occasionally sharing and interacting with women here gives me hope for myself and humanity at large for the future... ;)
Sometimes it's just a drive-by moment of shared understanding, or a compliment for someone who is also putting themselves out there. Sometimes it's a philosophical discussion. Sometimes, it's a friendship that wasn't there before. Sometimes, it's a spark...sometimes requited, sometimes not.
It's all good, from my perspective.