Update: I am now a single dad. I am raising my 16 and 14 year olds. With the 14 year old being autistic. So I have a lot on my plate. But i'm going to do the best I can to make them the best they can be.
I'm not very good at this type of thing. I have a hard time summarizing myself since i'm a big mix of alot of things. Every person you come in contact with tends to add and take away parts of you. So i'm always changing from day to day, sometimes for the better, sometimes worse. For the last few years my life has been so chaotic and unnormal. That i've lost "me" in alot of ways. This tends to happen when you let too much of your life be controlled by others. You kinda grow into what they are or what they want. Forgetting what made you tick, then you wake up years later and realize how much has passed of "you". So my free time now is spent mostly trying to find what gets me off. Trying to find my happy spots, regaining lost trusts. This is going to be a major undertaking, since so much of these things have been lost. But I dont give up to easily, must be the Taurus in me. So i'll just keep getting up everyday. and someday , if i'm lucky. I'll figure out who "me" really is.