I'm close to insane. Probably a narcissist. Almost definitely have Asperger's syndrome. I do love old board wargames and will play almost any games. As far as relations go I can be both violent and tender. Not a safe choice by any means.

Came to an interesting realization. My dancing and rages are the
same shit. And, 'tis remarkably similar to the effects that people
experience whilst undergoing PCP trips. Moreover, my delusions are
likely similar to hallucinogens (for normal folk - drugs affect me oddly). I wonder why people
choose to live completely drug-free, if they can't have this naturally.
Though, the loss of control would bother me, I honestly never have
been able to understand how they can exist without the kind of passion
that I experience, yet see in so few.

Ah, it still wants more. What more is there that can be expressed here in words though? To know me is either to love or to hate me (or perhaps in between). Vanity is a virtue (along with most of the so-called deadly sins).

Wondering why these quizzes rate me so highly on drug use. Yeah, I drink some, I smoke tobacco constantly, but I seem to rate up with fairly hardcore users. Crap, I don't even smoke pot anymore. I tried a couple of things when young (and I eat poisonous things - but not for the effect, rather to develop an immunity), but I'm pretty damned boring now. I won't even take aspirin.

Not even bloody sure why I'm here. I have an internet addiction and tend to hang out, playing on fora. Showed up originally, just for the quizzes, but eventually started contemplating the idea of meeting someone over the net (after falling a couple of times - just to test the waters :P). But, 'tis bloody unlikely that I'll find a match - here or anywhere. My standards are probably too high - top on the list: immortality. :D

I guess I should say more of what I'm looking for, since it's kinda strange. First off, you should have a certain intellectual playfulness - especially when it comes to word use. This has the added benefit of being a good sign that your mind is sharp enough to pursue some of my interests. A free spirit is also a good sign - because my beliefs are kinda hard to handle.

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• Valentiinro

Trashpicking. :)

Dancing - since the weak little 80's night I found here died
(gods, I miss Eugene), following a few local bands - Sarah Vanell, Miles to Nowhere, and Gospel Claws. It's good to have
bands.

Ah, AND telling other people that their code sucks. Which is fun.

And backtracking - but I need help with that.

Being depressive. Dancing (mine own style). Acting. Reading aloud.
Disbelieving in everything.

Clothes. I dress oddly.

(a) Gormengast, a lot of old sci-fi (Zelazny, Heinlein, Asimov, Van Vogt, etc)

(b)Walker, Repo Man, Young Guns, Blue Velvet.

(c) BOC, Tull, Who, Yes, Zebra, Stones, Bowie

Asia - pretty much classic rock/ early '80's

(d) Willing to try most anything. I eat boring on my own though.

my insanity games pipe

That's about all that I can think of.

Death. Love. The wind*.

What silly thing to wear on the couple of days that I get dressed.

Whether I actually want to share my life again.
Not sure I can love as I once did. Very concerned
that less would NOT be worth it.

* No, this DOESN'T mean I fart a lot. :P

I WAS dancing.

My illness cut that,
and the place I went died,
for lack of my glorious presence.

Must find a new place.

Finding THEM rather than there.

I have exceedingly low self-esteem. Most narcissists do.

Plus - I'm better than sliced beer. :D

Worse - you can HEAR my insanity:
http://www.datafilehost.com/download-5ceafb88.html

You think that insanity is fun, and you are near.

Or, if you wanna teach me finer points of hacking.

Hell, I'm available for the curious, as well.

And, any fellow grognards, feel free.

I'm also at Myspace right now: http://www.myspace.com/calandale
Probably a hell of a better place to get to know me.

Seems more applicable to my type of insanity.

I probably will reply to nearly anything.
Though, if there's no spark, the conversation
will die. I'm not exactly the kind who can keep
one going, on chit chat.

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• chainedpunkgirl