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My self-summary Propose an edit

Well, you could say I'm quite a cheerful person. There is this one sentence that I like to use: "You may take away my happiness, but you won't take away my smile". Most probably, the first impression you'll get about me will be right. It takes a couple days to get to know me, though.

Some say I am funny (although that is kinda subjective, sometimes I say something that makes someone laugh, while other times my "funny" remarks are unheard or simply ignored).

I think of myself as a nice person. My morals are high. My actions should reflect my ideals more often. My thoughts are dirty.

I love myself and I also hate myself. I love myself for the things I can do, like playing piano, having interesting conversations with someone, being polite, being able to concentrate on hard tasks and knowing that with logic and reasoning I can solve them, being able to conquer my own fears (with time and sweat). I hate myself for not being better (a better person, a better son, a better friend, a better pianist, and more), for being so shy, for not making good use of my possibilities (Oh, the times I heard "Yeah, you could be a **insert job here**! I'm positive!"), for being afraid of so many things. I hate knowing that it happens that I want to do something but I can't, because I'm a wuss, because I think I'll fail, because I know I tend to be extremist with certain things and I don't want to cross the line.

I'm a pleaser. I'll make you a tea if you want (I only have Classic and Apple with Cinnamon, though, but there is some Earl Grey at the office). I'll hear your complains if that makes you happy. I'll stay with you in silence if nobody wants to talk. Hug? :)

I don't like crowded places. They make me nervous and uncomfortable. While it sounds like I am a total social inept, I behave just like a normal person; I just don't enjoy being surrounded by strangers. My ideal place is at home, or in a rather lonely park. That makes me a very introverted person. I would like that to change some day.

I feel like I'm not learning anything new from life.

I won't cry for help if I'm in need. I will, however, point you in the direction that something's wrong. I'll be very happy if you notice.

What I'm doing with my life Propose an edit

Mostly working. I enjoy my work, in fact, while I work only 4 hours per day, I usually stay in the office doing some other stuff a couple hours more.

I work in Software Development, by the way.

One of my passions is music. I spend some of my free time composing in my piano. There is nothing in the world as pleasant as playing to your own tunes in your own instrument. Feels like heaven to me. I'm fairly an amateur at composing, but I would like to improve, either by taking classes or some other method.

I'm also wondering what is my next step. I'm very careful with the things I choose... I wouldn't want to start something to find out two years later that I took the wrong turn.

As you may deduce, making mistakes is particularly painful to me.

So, the thing is: should I seriously study music or should I study Computer Science? The only thing that I could get out of all this is that I want one of them to be my sustain, while the other helps me live. Does this make any sense?
Argh, this sounds better in Spanish.

What I'm trying to say with this is that I want to do both. Maybe I'll work as a Software Developer all of my life while making sporadically some music as a hobby, or maybe I'll end up a full-time Musician, and wind up making small programs or games as a hobby. What comes first is the question.

I'm really good at Propose an edit

Hmmmm... tough question.

I suppose I am good at many things, but I can't say I'm really good at anything. Mainly because I'm naturally humble, and saying that I am utterly superior at anything would make me feel arrogant, and I hate that.

I suppose you could see for yourself the stuff I made:
Misael-K.deviantart.com (some old stuff is here, I don't usually add too many new things)

(These sites are in Spanish)

Armonías Pentagrámicas (music I made using mainly FL Studio... sometimes there is an update)

MalditoCRC (manga scanlation, we used to translate Death Note and D.Gray-man, although it's an abandoned project, I'm not much into manga anymore)

The first thing(s) people usually notice about me Propose an edit

If I have to say something, I'd say my kindness. Seriously. I've received that compliment more than once. ^__^

I try to be as polite as I can. Politeness is good.

My favorite books, movies, music, and food Propose an edit

Books:
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Movies:
Vanilla Sky, Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind, Fight Club, The Butterfly Effect, Pulp Fiction, Kill Bill, Final Fantasy, Donnie Darko, Monty Python's Life of Brian, Monty Python's The Meaning Of Life and some more that I can't remember right now.

Music:
Let's list here what I usually listen, and not just what I like. Nobuo Uematsu (almost every kind of Final Fantasy fan loves this guy), Muse, Ayreon, Poets of the Fall, Nightwish, Stratovarius, Placebo, Silent Hill (big fan here!) OSTs (Hmm, should I say Akira Yamaoka too?), The Arcade Fire, and a lot of my own. Meaning I'm a composer, in case you haven't read the three words next to my face up above.

Food:
I like all kinds of food, and I'm very open minded about trying new types of food too.

The six things I could never do without Propose an edit

(1) My good state of mind. This is, not being crazy, schizo, psycho, etc. A hard one with nowadays standards and crazy world madness. One day I'm sure I'll be a perfectly normal human being. Yay.

(2) Music. Any kind will do (although I have my favorites and my "oh, why do we have to listen to this?" music as well). If "music" as a raw element is not valid, then I want an instrument, a piano if possible. A guitar can do the job too.

(3) Friends and family.

(4) My body as it is right now. No handicaps or weird things, please. That includes my five senses.

(5) A PC. Can be a Notebook. With Internet too, perhaps?

Well, six is not an even number anyway, so screw you six!

I spend a lot of time thinking about Propose an edit

What on earth am I going to do with my life. It's hard.

Deciding, I mean. Not my life.

On a typical Friday night I am Propose an edit

Eating home-made pizza with my parents. Well, it's not exactly "home-made", it's more of mix-up. Tastes great, anyway.

The most private thing I'm willing to admit here Propose an edit

I once stood for three hours in my backyard when it was raining, to feel the rain going slowly through my body. I had my clothes on, which was the most interesting part (I'm not into nudity, mind you.)

I wanted to do that ever since I was a child, but I did not have neither the endurance nor the will to make it happen. It also had to be a very hot day to withstand the cold touch of the rain for that long.

I believe this was in December '06.

You should message me if Propose an edit

You can help me make up my mind.

You want to have some mail to read.

I'll promise I'll respond as soon as I get a chance to.

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