I am thoughtful, intellectual, and sensitive.
My Self-Summary
Some people say I think too much, but I'm not sure yet if that's a
bad thing. Who are you if you don't think? I write a lot.
I'm very shy in groups of people. When surrounded by friends I can
be a clown-like person. I say everything I think and sometimes
that's not so good, but most of the times everything is fine. I
like to be able to share every one of my thoughts with the world.
My philosophy (for the moment) is 'share everything to be less
vulnerable.'
I can be enthusiastic and stoic. I used to have very low self
esteem, but I'm working on that. I like who I am, I love me (no
really), but sometimes (when other people dance, for example) I
don't feel very comfortable. I tend to think that other people know
everything better than I do.
I like to observe others and myself and I'm often analysing
everything that happens. I fade away into dream land a lot, too. I
don't know if that's a good thing. I'm trying to understand how
people can always be busy and not think or dream too much. I think
I should try to relax more.
What I’m doing with my life
I'm in my first year of studying psychology and I think it's very
interesting.
I'm really into writing at the moment. It's a talent (or so they
say) that I have and have discovered in the last year.
I’m really good at
People say I'm good at writing and I want to believe them, so I
guess I shall. I can't really judge myself; that's always very
hard, I think.
I'm good at thinking. I like to make every thought and every
written sentence perfect. Sometimes I get lost in my thoughts, but
I like that I'm able to think like this.
The first things people usually notice about me
I don't know. My low self esteem, I guess. I really wouldn't know.
I've never asked them; maybe I should, huh?
My favorite books, movies, music, and food
(a) I like to read, but I always forget what books I've read and
thus liked, so I can't really tell you about that.
(b) I really like 8 Femmes, Evita, Chicago, Cruel intentions, Jay
and Silent Bob strike back, Lion King, Pocahontas, Broken flowers.
I like to watch TV series like Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Lost,
Gilmore Girls, Desperate Housewifes. I'm a big fan of Buffy, it's
just a well thought about show. I have no words for it..
(c)I really like Madonna. I've been to the Reinvention Tour in
Arnhem two years ago and to The Confessions Tour (great show!) in
Amsterdam this month. I also like Britney Spears and Robbie
Williams. I noticed some time ago, that I don't really listen to a
lot of music besides Madonna. I mean, there are songs from other
artists that I like, of course, but I think I'm just under the
Madonna spell or whatever.
(d) It has to be vegetarian. I don't like mushrooms and olives.
Other than that, I don't know. Try me, I'd say.
The six things I could never do without
The first has to be thinking.
Then comes writing, also very very important.
Friends, I've always needed those very much.
Knowledge, education, anything interesting to keep my brain
working.
My self appreciation.
The sun and snow. Both can make me very happy sometimes.
I spend a lot of time thinking about
Everything. With everything I mean everything. I can't stop
thinking, never.
I think a lot about myself. I think about who I am, what I do and
what I should do better. It's good, but not always fun. I don't
think it's good to think about how to walk, for exaple, or about
where to put my hands, because that results in me feeling very
uncomfortable.
I think about the meaning of life, as horrible as it sounds. I just
can't seem to stop.
I think about what it would be like to hear the thoughts of other
people. I want to know everything about them. I want to know what
goes on inside their heads. I also think about what it would be
like to meet myself as a kid or as an adult. I want to see what
I'll be like, and I want to give kid me assurance that she will
turn out happy and that everything will work out.
On a typical Friday night I am
In my hometown, finally after a long week.
I also like to spend time with my friends, but we don't usually do
that on friday.
I don't dance, although I'm learning. I danced for the first time
in years at the last Madonna concert.
I can also be found updating my web log or sitting in my room
thinking or having fun with my parents or my sister. Who knows?
Every Friday's different.
The most private thing I’m willing to admit here
I'm gay, but I don't think that's very private anymore. I've told a
lot of people.
I don't really know anything more private to write here than I've
already told other people. I believe in telling people everything
that goes on in my head untill it goes wrong, and it hasn't
yet.
And what is private, really? Is it something you don't want people
to know about? Then why would you admit it here? Is it something
that goes on inside your household. There's nothing special there.
Does it have something to do with love? I'm in love with a friend
of mine, but she's not gay. Do you think that's something private
to admit here? Eh, what was that again about thinking too much...
You should message me if
You should if you want to. I'm not desperate, but I like it when
people message me. It's good to be thought about, right?
Just tell me what you think of the answers I've given to all these
questions, ask me a question or say anything you want to say.