July2015 free write...
I've been away from the net for quite some time now. I think I've ignored most of the internet for over a year. I've spent a large portion of that time being reclusive excepting my partner and his brood.
I'm, as usual, on the hunt for friends. And have used this site to do so successfully for over a decade now. Speaking of which, what up with the removal of the friend percentage?! bah humbug, I declare.
To all those I never replied to... My apologies for my ever changing past self; she was going through some pretty heavy times. There was much to think about, and much time & healing was needed in order to reach the conclusions that needed to be concluded in order for me to be ready to reach out to my fellow humans again. I am ready now... except... SUMMER...
Oh how i despise summer. You can love her sticky mess if you want to, that's fine with me, but she rips my soul out. I think I'm going to get a kiddie pool and sit in it all my free time; spritzing myself with a spray bottle like i already do. (and don't forget the frozen half gallons. these are my real friends). I also considered going nocturnal for 3 months. 4? that might be rough though, huh? The partner didn't like the idea. Life unfortunately doesn't cater to insomniacs and vampires... like it should. cause i say so. no one ever listens to me, silly humans.
but wait... I'm totally going to try to build an air conditioner for under 15$ i hope it works.
Growing up I pretty much stayed in the freak/goth/hippie boxes. The kind of freak who had a hard time feeling like anything but an alien in a world just not right for her. People weren't very kind, and I had a hard time making friends until after age 12. The kind of goth that clings tight to their little group of fellow freaks because the world is both terrifying and beautiful. The kind of hippie that followed the grateful dead with frequent pit stops to Rainbow gatherings, Music festivals, places of interest, or just where my current group was going for the hell of it. After that many of my friends were musicians, then next i spent time with lots of tech/computer/gaming inclined folk.
I remained versatile; i like all KINDS of different people. I met a LOT of people, and I don't intend to stop. But I think i've reached a point in my life where I wish to form deeper relationships, not that i haven't had any, I've just outgrown my old self's life. And I just kept moving. My feet kinda ache from all the moving to be honest.
To be clear, I am a die-hard Polyamorous female who volunteered a monogamous relationship with DyingDreams. He mentioned being poly-curious, but i didn't hold my hopes up too high. Looks like his curiosity is much higher and on a positive note after doing his own research and considering his own history. yay.
This doesn't mean I'm currently wanting to gallivant about town and then hop into someone's bed though. I'm definitely on the hunt for friends. I suppose It would be dishonest to say I wouldn't be delighted to develop NRE with someone, or go out on a date. I'm just not really sure we're ready for me to get involved in anything very quickly. And I prefer to only involve myself romantically/&sexually with someone i already trust enough to call friend anyways. I'm a bit selective, as we all should be if we want to enjoy life.
I'm not sure what I what to do, except go out somewhere to meet new people... I can only go out at night and on rainy days though. I'm sort of... allergic to the sun.
I know my free write is more of whatever came to mind then a profile... but historically my profile is always a mess. sometimes it lands into a beautiful mess... sometimes not so much.