p.s. I don't frown all day long; i just take cameras too seriously- social anxiety.
I've been around here for i think ten years now, so the first thing you should know is I'm fairly certain I'm here until they make me pay. I have met so many people, it would be safe to assume that if i disappear all together, i've had a breakdown.
If you wrote me in march/ i'm still returning mail from February- i fell behind again after my grandmother died. if it was before that and you are still paying attention, let me know. it's just that around January was when i started managing this all better. please don't let that stop you from writing. most of the mail i receive is from people who don't even notice i'm poly before they write. (update, now in march)
I'm here because i am a social person with that social anxiety. I am here to make long term tribe mates in a world filled with people who think they can live on an island of separateness. I am very skilled at gathering tribe mates, and okcupid is one of my tools. i believe that every single person i interact with is important right now and holds a message and vice-verse.
I will share that I am an alien. I do not fit it here, or there, or there. it's sometimes a shame because i feel sad about it and wish for the comfort of normalcy... but there are other times when this gives me charm, they say. i see often that it gives some people something radical and trans formative to experience, but the truth is, this makes me just that much more nervous of people.
I sometimes disappear it's part of my persona. I just came back out of a cave and i just remembered that I was a star and had forgotten that the light came from within. I can feel my energy coming back now, and i am working on unblocking it. so, i'm ready to go out again. a lot.
update: I'm going out a lot... if i meet new people, they must be aware that i am probably not 'available tomorrow'. or the next day... or the next. My dance card is full with me things and people things, and I'm not lonely~ I'm rushed. I can make some time to meet people if i work at it- i love people. I like to have a lot of different kinds of friends and meet people in person. I also only have one boyfriend right now, so I am dating. My fiance has 2 other gf's. sciencegirl and gothkitten i think... i'll add them here some other day.
I'm counter culture in seattle where there are a lot of us in a several communities... though i've been hiding in my dark cave painted black.
Fiance known 21 years, together 6 this time.
My other affairs are open to limited discussion; but not for my profile.
I'm hardcore permanently poly, and i have only bad feelings towards the institution of monogamy. I'm sorry if this offends you.