I have a relationship for the first time with a man and he is so good to me and it's somewhat open and it's maybe a poly relationship depending. I'm not looking for hook-ups. If you think I'm kewl/interesting in a good way and you just want friendship and to talk then please add me on Facebook, request for my url/name there.
I am a Mystic, Two-Spirited, Intellectual.
I'm hormonally Female, Mentally Female, semi Intersex and Transsexual MtF Woman finally beginning to really become me starting HRT (Hormone Replacement Therapy). I naturally have higher levels of Estrogen like any other girl but just too much Testosterone... but I am blossoming so I'm told. It's a plus having more Female hormones already in my system. So in a way I'm the daughter of Hermes and Aphrodite... or to actually relate it more to my spirituality a daughter of YHVH & Shekhinah. I have been living as my true woman self 24/7 for over a year now and because it's a part of the legal process I received the "therapy letter" to prove I'm Transsexual and that I need to continue the transition with hormones and so forth. I personally already knew that I'm a woman but the letter opens many doors to move me forward with my transition. Even though things take time and money, I'm willing to fully transition at some point. If you can't read between the lines, don't ask what body parts do I have. If you realize I'm trans and can accept that... and you want to send me a message then put in the subject title or first sentence where I can see it... that you accept it.
Some people use the term Transgender but it's too much of an umbrella term used for different types of gender benders. In other-words I am not a crossdresser because I do not identify as a man wearing women's clothes but as a woman wearing what I want. I have a Gender-Fluid quality about myself... I like being a woman whether butch or fem... mostly fem I guess. But, if you can't take the heat get out of the kitchen — I've got some baking to do.
"Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart."
- Psalm 37:4
I'm Sapiosexual meaning I am attracted to Intelligent people... and being Intellectual is important. I don't mean being a "smart ass"... and I don't mean the person has to have six million degrees, or the highest IQ... nor do I mean hide your intelligence and act ridiculous or completely stupid. I mean great conversation, openness, laughter, art, music, spirituality, and most definitely common sense. I'm sure I still have a lot to learn with all the above... but I'm willing to do so. I love to teach as well.
I'm Gray-A PanRomantic which means I'm not always actually into sex... I don't actually like it as much as most people but like it more than Asexuals. However I find people of all genders and orientations beautiful and could fall in love with anyone of any gender(s) or orientation(s).
When I care to be sexual this is me on the Kinsey Scale in CAPS.
0- Exclusively heterosexual
1- Predominantly heterosexual, incidentally homosexual
2- PREDOMINANTLY HETEROSEXUAL, MORE THAN INCIDENTALLY HOMOSEXUAL
3- Equally heterosexual and homosexual
4- Predominantly homosexual, more than incidentally heterosexual
5- Predominantly homosexual, incidentally heterosexual
6- Exclusively homosexual
Now that the gender and sexual orientation info is out of the way:
I love to talk religion/spirituality, sexuality, and be artistic. Model, paint, sculpt, draw, act, sing, "dance" LOL... I love artistic and spiritual people.
I've always been heart first before the physical. But it led me to settling before my time and falling in love with the wrong people. So I'm telling you now... I have to be spirituality/emotionally and physically attracted to you for us to fully work...and vice versa. COMMUNICATION: I'm big on communication. If your feelings change let me know right away. Don't hang on to me because you are afraid to hurt my feelings. This is something that I'm learning goes both ways.
I am totally a Religious Studies nerd which doesn't mean I know everything... but I'm trying *laughs a little*. I'm getting more involved with the local transdenominational Jewish Renewal Congregation which is Neo-Hasidic taking on the beauty and spirituality of Hasidic Judaism without the Ultra-Orthodox nonsense and more I'm involved with Earth Based Judaism and a bit of Humanist. I LOVE listening to the upbeat music, chants, open spirituality, and mysticism in Jewish Renewal and getting in touch with the earth thru a Jewish basis. I happen to agree with a lot of what I've experienced in Reconstructionist Judaism and it seems Humanist Judaism as well. If I ever "lost" all religion I'd still be humanity and earth focused... which in ways I think is Judaism anyway. When it comes to Ultra-Orthodoxy I'm all encompassing of the Beauty of the rituals, tribes, and deities of the Hebrews... and despising of the law bound, man made, ficked up scheisse they now call traditional Judaism. So I follow a Jewish and Ancient Israelite (Middle Eastern) Path. The Israelite/Hebrew-Canaanite God Yahweh/El/Illu and Hebrew/Israelite-Canaanite Goddess Shekhinah/Asherah/Atiratu... as a worshipper of the Near/Middle Eastern Hebrew/Israelite G*ddess and G*d I find my way to The Ancient One... The Infinite Light: Ohr Ein Sof.... and Elohim. So I'm not a polytheist... but monotheist or duotheist maybe... I'm just a theist. All are One Force, Echad and I find all religions and paths to be important and all the deity expressions fascinating. So I study religions and various spiritual paths. Religious practices help give me a balance in life and with the artistic way I view life these paths fit it well. I have an interest in various religions especially as they overlap with my spirituality and I love the beauty I've found so far. I'm a M'agelet (female Jewish practitioner of Kosher magick) and practical Kabbalist... and I uphold the Jewish holidays and I keep Kosher style. Right now my flowers are my children and I'm researching Permaculture and other Eco-friendly methods or ways of living. I'm a Witch but most fitting between being Jewish and witchy is the term Jewitch. A witch is what I've already been talking about... not someone who is evil. However I do protect myself. I want to be a light to others. And a wonderful friend once said I could be a "free roaming Jewish Shamanic traveler...no synagogue but the wind and the trees." I LOVE the sound of that. So with that... I give you tons of labels for me.... I love the Divine and I love the earth and I love working with the earth and the Divine to achieve Tikkun Olam (Heal the World).
I have several names and nicknames... so when the time is right you'll receive a name from me. Spiritually I'm what one might call a Shapeshifter... but nothing evil or psychotic I promise.
To sum up my spirituality in a quote so far the following says it best,
"My heart has become a pasture for gazelles, a monastery for monks, a temple for idols, a Qa'aba for the pilgrim, the tables [scroll] of the Torah and the pages of the Qur'an. My religion is Love now. Wherever it takes me, Love is my religion and my faith." - Ibn Arabi, 12th-Century Sufi, Al-Andalus
I love to share what all I've learned and it excites me to teach, be an artist, and share my knowledge of life, traditions, Sign Language and more. I have done some teaching of Sign Language, guiding people on their spiritual path and critiquing and advising people in their artwork. Teaching and LGBT Activism are my purposes in life.
Through spiritual Judaism and my knowledge of various other religions... I want to be a Professor/Teacher and I hope to get back in school soon so I can really pursue that.
There is a chance I'm Polyamorous leaning Polyfidelitous. In the past I've hoped to have a man and a woman and be committed to both of them equally. But this is still something I'm trying to figure out. I know I was THRILLED to be with a man and a woman before. I'm just not sure that's for me. I would love to meet other people with similar interests... whether 3 men, or 2 men and a woman, or those in need of another... or basically whatever. I'm still trying to understand the Polyfidelitous part and if that is really for me... we shall see.
Shalom, Light/Dark & Love, Namaste, and Blessed Be