Heartbroken dropout & perennially tired communist seeks companions to be sad with, to escape work with, to cuddle, to play video and board games with, organise with, watch Steven Universe with, to date (maybe. I'm not a great partner and kind of flaky but try me if you're interested), and/or to fuck (conceivably. I don't much and I don't know what I want). I'm corrosively awkward and very self-involved, but also earnest and affectionate.
I am currently employed full time. It's exhausting and boring. In Pokémon Y I just beat the Elite Four, and I'm down to trade.
Class Cyber Marxist
Gender Please Don't Ask Me That
Favourite Pokémon Mawile / Shedinja
Special Skills Panicking; Oversharing; Self-Mythologising
Hi Roll Sense of Justice; Good Nails
Lo Roll Life Direction; Interpersonal Skills; Bank Balance
INTP (borderline INFP). Enneagram 5 (borderline 1). Cancer (borderline Leo). Melancholic (borderline phlegmatic). In a Big Five Personality test, I scored high on Neuroticism and Openness, and very low on Agreeableness.
I spend most of my time alone, and so my emotional intelligence is middling. I'm very sensitive to the needs of others when I'm paying attention, but I'm not always paying attention. In some contexts, I have total self-knowledge, but in others, I struggle to identify patterns in my own behaviour. I'm responsive and communicative when it suits me, and completely unreachable when it doesn't. I sometimes flippantly say hurtful things for reasons I don't fully understand.
My biggest interests by time spent are probably:
* PSX JRPGs which I missed first time around and which haven't aged well;
* Twine & browser games made by trans women;
* Character-driven webcomics made by trans women;
* Social history (& especially microhistory);
* Cartoons I can convince myself are transgressive;
* Constitutional design;
* Migrants' & detainees' rights in the UK;
* Old English poetry;
* Feeling cute;
* Hiding my face;
* Folk music performed by trans people.
My mental health is not good right now. I am very socially isolated and kind of hope-starved. My deal is kind of: pessimism and communism. I wanna revolt and play Smash Bros. Contact me if that's also your deal
A few years ago, I was not very good at practicing consent, and a few years before that, I sometimes drank a lot and made poor decisions. It's a long time ago. I behave and think very differently now, and I'm willing to explain anything you need to hear. But I get it if that's a permanent red flag for you.