I've recently had my heart decisively broken. Tolerance for bullshit is low right now.
The long and short is: I'm corrosively awkward and very self-involved, but earnest, affectionate and passionate.
Depressed & anxious cat lover, sometime vegan, medicated anti-gamer, slow reader, and serial dropout. Largely living in a bed. Very isolated. Not prepared to date or fuck. Mostly looking to friend, to chat, to play video games, and to cuddle. I'm also looking for friends to play tabletop games with, and people to organise with in Leeds.
Special Skills: Panicking; Oversharing; Self-Mythologising
Hi Roll: Sense of Justice; Good Nails
Lo Roll: Life Direction; Interpersonal Skills
INTP (borderline INFP). Enneagram 5 (borderline 1). Cancer (borderline Leo). Boy (borderline not-boy). Melancholic (borderline phlegmatic). In a Big Five Personality test, I scored high on Neuroticism and Openness, and very low on Agreeableness. I like tests. I don't take them too seriously.
I'm pretty into reading, history and video games.
I spend most of my time alone, and so my emotional intelligence is middling. I'm very sensitive to the needs of others when I'm paying attention, but I'm not always paying attention. In some contexts, I have total self-knowledge, but in others, I struggle to identify patterns in my own behaviour. I'm responsive and communicative when it suits me, and completely unreachable when it doesn't. I sometimes flippantly say hurtful things for reasons I don't fully understand.
My biggest interests by time spent are probably:
* Twine & browser games made by trans women;
* Character-driven webcomics made by trans women;
* Social history (& especially microhistory);
* Cartoons I can convince myself are transgressive;
* Constitutional design;
* Migrants' & detainees' rights in the UK;
* Old English poetry;
* Feeling cute;
* Hiding my face;
* Folk music performed by trans people.
I get the impression that it's quite a lot of work to be my friend. If you need to protect yourself from relationships like that, that's totally understandable.
I used to be the kind of revolting person who talks about how they don't think love exists and how emergency services should be run on a subscription system