What if I don't think of the books?"
When I watched this episode of HIMYM, this conversation between Ted and Robin made me do some self-reflection. My birthday is coming up and I can't help but notice that my life has definitely not gone according to any of my plans, not even the revised ones. By now, I was supposed to be annoyingly successful, married to the perfect woman, and maybe have a kid on the way. Instead, I'm just some guy who is restarting his life all over... yet again.
The old versions of me would have been depressed that I'm so far behind schedule.
But, the new me realizes that life doesn't really have a schedule... at least, not any timetable that we can fully control on our own.
One of the most important things that I've learned after my many, many, many years in this world (*sigh*... I'm so old) is that you need to pick yourself up each time after you fall down. As you go through life, you will stumble. It will hurt a lot. You will cry. But, what you do next is key to becoming a stronger and more mature individual. You need to get up knowing full well that you will fall down again sometime in the future.
You can't let the fear of failure hold you back forever...