I am a student, looking for friends, and a fellow.
My Self-Summary
I'll start right out and say that I don't lie. Now, you might think
that's a good thing, but I don't really think it always is. I guess
when it comes to you asking me something, then yes, you'll always
get an honest answer... but it also means that I have no filter in
between my brain and my fingers apparently. So, I'll end up just
saying whatever pops into my head, which can be rather tactless. I
don't mean it maliciously, but I guess I don't know a nice way of
saying some things that I wonder about. Just a fore warning.
Else wise, I don't get out much, and so I'm pretty chatty online,
but in person I'm fairly shy and reserved for a while until you get
to know me. I do like women, although I hardly understand them...
Sometimes I think I do, but then... mostly not. Which I hear is a
common problem most guys have, so I guess I shouldn't feel too
badly about it.
Now in Japanese
はじめまして。わたしのなまえははざまです。わたしはにじゅうろくさいです。がくせいです。せんもんはcomputer
かがく。わたしのしゆみはあにめ。どぞよろしくおねがいします。
What I’m doing with my life
School's started again and I'm going to Palomar Community College
to work on my general education for the
computer science major. I hope
to transfer to UCSD in a couple of years, maybe I can even get an
associates before then. To be honest though, I might change my
major (again) to something like Information Systems Management
because I don't know if I could really sit there and write code all
day. Originally my goal was to be something that dealt with
networks... being able to connect two computers from across the
room, or across the world. It seemed vital for businesses, and the
military, which I was in for a short period of 3 years. We relied a
lot on our LAN to get our job done, but half the time it didn't
even work... (we couldn't access the same files from each computer,
we couldn't print, it crashed, etc...) So then I said, gosh! There
must be a need for such things... and I like computers, since I
spend most of the time I'm not in school sitting at one.
School is pretty
fun, but I don't know anyone... and community college does seem to
be somewhat of an extension of high school, so there's a fair
number of cliques. Plus with me being shy I don't know. I just go
to class, do my work and then go home. But who knows... there's a
lot of people that go there, maybe one of them will see this and
chat me up. -lol- Then we could be friends. :p
I’m really good at
Well, since I like
video games and
anime, I guess I'm good at that. I
haven't gotten any new games lately... but I have like almost 100
between the Wii and the PS/2/3/PSP... and DS.... It's something
I've been doing since I was 6... My parents worked, and it was the
easiest way to make sure I occupied myself without destroying
things or whatever... They could leave and come back and I'd still
be there... so did what they wanted, I suppose.
As far as anime goes, I'm watching Shugo Chara now... but I have an
external hard drive with over 5000 episodes on it, and always
looking for more. After this one fills up I have another one (the
old one) that's 1 TB and I can wipe that and add in another few
thousand more episodes... so, it's a fairly decent collection. I do
have a my anime list thing or whatever on the internet, but it's
hard to keep it up to date because I watch a lot. It's really handy
now though that I'm taking Japanese in school... I'm actually
starting to be able to read some of the characters, and understand
more. So that's neat.
In other things, I'm probably good at being
domestic. When I was in the Navy the
guys in my division always said I'd make a good house husband. I
get amused by all the little things, and so I can do stuff that
other people don't and like it. For the Navy, I dealt with all
their paperwork. Keeping track of their logs, confidential
documents, drafting up the work authorization forms, providing
technical schematics and perusing the manuals for operating
procedures/instructions.
At home I like to clean I guess. Only if I have someone to clean
for though. I enjoyed the few (ie 2) times that I got a girl to
play video games whilst I cleaned the bathroom. I like
sweeping,
vacuuming, using
window cleaner, doing
laundry, shining
shoes (kinda)... all that kind of stuff... I truly even love going
grocery
shopping with someone. I think it's fantastic to pick out what
you would like to eat, then go home and make it and eat it. So, I
don't really know what to think about all that, but... that's me.
The first things people usually notice about me
Probably that I'm very quiet, and smile infrequently. I suppose
that's how it is at school. I just go to class, sit down, say
nothing, take notes, get the assignments, pack and leave. I suppose
my body language comes across as defensive too since I sit there
and listen to the pre-lecture with my arms crossed, and tend to
keep them that way any time I'm not writing. I think before it
tended to lend itself to some kind of "spicy and cool" image... but
really it's probably because I'm nervous and stuff being around
people so I am all like, well probably the opposite of whatever
they think I am.
My favorite books, movies, music, and food
Well besides reading textbooks now, and technical manuals before
that I read fantasy novels pretty much. Stuff like Dragon Lance,
the Earthsea Trilogy, The Sword of Truth series...
Movies, well I like romance, comedies, romantic comedies, action,
drama, suspense, etc... all the way down to horror, which I don't
much care for at all. I guess if the mood is right then it could be
nice to watch, but I don't know... I think life is scary enough
without adding in crazy people and monsters.
Music is all over too... Sometimes I listen to 80's music,
sometimes pre-war music from the 30's and 40's... like swing music
and big band stuff... sometimes I listen to R&B and Hip-hop...
It's whatever sounds good I guess, each of the genres has songs
that I'm like, ehhh so I just change the channel.... and also I
only listen to music whilst driving... so I hardly listen very much
at all.
Food, well I do like to eat. Asian foods foremost I guess since
that's what I grew up with... so I do like rice. After that, pretty
much anything... although for religious reasons I technically don't
eat anything but fish, beef, chicken and turkey... and vegetables,
dairy, whatever... but if all you've got is a pepperoni pizza then
it's not going to kill me... I figure that a fine animal died, and
is here in front of me now, I might as well honor its sacrifice and
eat it... I hate wasting food. I could tell you why... if you
wanted to know.
The six things I could never do without
I suppose in no particular order:
Electricity
The Internet/computers
People (I fear them but also would like to know them. I'm not
a
loner by choice I guess.)
The past... I guess... so I can figure out where I'm going and not
end up walking in circles.
Hmmm, what else... kittens I guess, since they're fuzzy and cute
and make you smile...
Uh, I don't know anymore.... Time? Since I have many ways of
keeping track of it (watch, phone, computer, alarm clock). I don't
like being late...
You? -rofl- Oh, that's 7 huh? Oh well, I can get a gold star for
effort maybe.
I spend a lot of time thinking about
Women, I guess... how to understand them, how to talk to them, how
to make them happy...
I have only 2 dreams really... all the others I think broke... to
put it in my poetic fashion... since, I write poetry...
Each tear is a dream I encase within a liquid crystal, and is flung
from my eyes away from me, to be shattered upon the rocks of
reality, and forever lost. One day I shall stop crying, for I shall
have no more dreams to lose.
Of course, being a hopeless romantic I am always coming up with
more dreams and thus I can still be hurt and still cry, even all
these years later after I said it.
So my first dream is to get married... because I think the idea of
someone who could say I love you forever... well that's like,
insane.
Other than that, I want to work in a cubicle, with a desk, and a
computer, and a file cabinet... and maybe have a potted plant and a
picture of something, and an ergonomic chair... and possibly an
in/out box... I want to have a water cooler, and office parties
once a year or something... and spend my days typing away...
If you remember the Navy commercials they gave about the Seals and
paratroopers for SAR and stuff, and then they went, and somewhere
some guy is buying a mini van... I wanted to be that guy. Which is
ironic because I joined the Navy, and then worked on an aircraft
carrier in the reactor department... but whatever.
On a typical Friday night I am
Relaxing after a week of learning about computers, and their
various levels of infrastructure, the past lives of the people in
western civilization... mathematical properties, and
Japanese...
Probably playing WoW... just doing dailies, cooking...
fishing...
Watching anime, and translating text that might pop up... It's slow
going... based on my limited knowledge of Japanese.
Eating, napping, whatever... usually I don't go outside... no where
to go, no one to go with... but I can watch stuff and imagine what
it's like.
A man can dream, can't he?
The most private thing I’m willing to admit here
Eh, just ask... maybe it'll give us something to talk about... I'm
an open book really... I mean if you made it this far you can kinda
see it right?
I'm both a guy, meaning I have... horrible... base... sexual
thoughts... like, once every 3 seconds... all pervy and
eww...
and yet, I don't like sports, cars, random hook ups,
drinking...
So it's like... I'm not gay because I don't like other men, and yes
I am sure... but... I'm a guy who's not a guy... like how I'm an
Asian who can only speak English...
It's all a big mystery.... wrapped in a vest. (If you get that
allusion.)
You should message me if
You go to Palomar... I'd like to make friends you know... that'd be
nice...
You're bored... and want someone to talk to about anything,
really... if I don't know I'll google it... Wikipedia makes experts
out of all of us.
You read all this and still want to talk to me...
D) None of the above.
Still message me anyways. :p