Lost might be an understatement. After a year of unemployment I'm switching fields and diving into tech/engineering to see if its a good fit.
My circadian rhythms have been vastly changed in the last month, possibly (more likely) a result of having moved down to the formidable OC from SF. Ah Fullerton, a place where it is easy to lose oneself in an ocean of nostalgia and waves of change that seem to warp the place I spent my adolescence. For instance, where did all of the cool thrift stores and OTTO go? Times they do be a changing. I don't know if time has made me bolder, but I am getting older.
I'm blunt to a fault, as ignorance usually casts a spell of some kind of sweet bliss. My case of foot in mouth is severe, but not contagious like some kind of sexually transmitted crazy (though I think Love might be a variant of the latter). I want to be caught up in a maelstrom of chemistry, creating bonds that are solid between our two elements that have a half life of greater than 50 years.
I'm not normal, never have been and for the life of me I cannot figure out the algorithms that would adjust me to fit some kind of average mold. It always seemed like people who were willing to settle/settle down followed a formulaic path and though I don't want an ordinary life, if I could find the missing piece, a partner of sorts a variable in the trajectory of my life across 3D/4D? axes that could have unbounded [x, positive infinity] life would be extraordinary.