My previous love interest turned out to be unsuitable and a little crazy. I easily fall in love, but I am cautious, and I never forget details.
I am not seeking any contacts, nor will I message anyone. This profile is for information purposes. I am tired of endless rejections, and requests to talk to me that end in silence. I the unlikely event there is a woman, 62+, seeking a transgender partner, I will be glad to talk to her.
I AM NOT WEIRD
Women have been messaging me with hit-and-run. I am an easy person to talk to, and I am a real person. Seattle has the highest population of transgenders on the planet, but most people never notice us. We all blend and act normally. Lat Saturday, I attended the Ingersoll Center “Snowball.” I met a lot of married couples, and their so-called husband-wives. Some of us are not stuck inn the gender-binary.
If I were to meet you in person, I would not seem unusual…just another woman. Problems only arise when people worry about me being out-of-spec. I have noticed that even women who have gay children and women who have transgender children spurn me; yet, I have been active in gay rights since 1985 and transgender rights since 1989. I am a member of Seattle PFLAG, and have been so since 1985. Don’t forget: both homophobia and transphobia have their origins in the gender-b inary and are forms os sexism.
I have done the near impossible: I can now interact with people with nary a trace of Asperger’s syndrome. This has followed years of social disability, a good marriage, tragedy, and my Buddhist meditation practice. However, I have traded one social niche for another. I have been attempting to create a mainstream identity all my life. I have achieved this, but it is a culturally wrong gender.
MY SEXUAL ORIENTATION
Unlike most Asperger males, I understand flirting and eroticism. I like women, and I want a woman in my life. I operate as a heterosexual male in bed, but my waking hours are spent in my female-identity. This shatters the cultural, role-playing myth of romantic love, especially since I really can’t pass any dating chemistry tests. My college chemistry tests were much easier. I am a hopeless romantic. My intention is to be a good partner, not a good dater. I am trying to tone down my intensity; I realize that I must look ludicrous pursuing women while dressed as a woman.
MY GENDER IDENTITY
I have had a lot of insight how gender works, and my life is proof for my theories. We all have a male-identity and a female-identity. Women have long been exploring their male-identities, but it has been forbidden for men to explore there female-identity, until now. Gender-bending is the rage among men, mostly in the younger generation. Women in my generation are baffled by this pursuit of some of their male peers.
It has come to my attention that the majority of transgender women and transsexual women (subset of transgender women) have some form of Asperger’s syndrome. It is not about the clothing or perversion after all, but about being able to function. It may seem strange that our wives come to embrace our transgender identity, but it is really a vacation from years of dealing with Asperger ticks.
I am much better at my alternate gender expression than other transgender women, because I have not fear, plus I have over seven years of experience. My body language now says “female.” I am told that my expert shopping at thrift stores is something that only a woman can do.
OUR GENDER CULTURE
Gender separation has been maximized in our current culture. Because of this imbalance, men have no ready access to their feminine sides, and so create 95% of the violence in the world. My gender-bending constantly leads to knee-jerk reactions. My therapist and many like him, say there is really no significance to my gender identity. When I get up in the morning, I transform from my male-identity to my female-identity, without any awe-inspiring surgeries. I have even offered women the chance to see me do this. I am not really an awful woman who steals a nice-looking guy. I am scarcely aware of any difference, but it is mind-blowing for everyone else.
MY BUDDHIST PRACTICE
I have experienced a lot of insight during meditation, and have come to a basic understanding how karma and reality work. I now approach situations with calm abiding and discriminating awareness. I can see that the people I meet are not there accidentally. My basic belief is that I must meditate to deal with my subconscious habitual patterns; that no one is going to save me; that everything happens for a reason; and that my karma will be reborn in another person when I die. I do not fear death.
WHAT IF YOU WERE TO MEET ME?
It’s ridiculous for me to dress as a man, since I always get rejected. I will be dressed as a classy woman. Hopefully, everything will match, but I can have fashion snafus. I may or may not wear heels, depending on my mood and the circumstances. I will always get a manicure before a meet-up. I will greet you like a woman, not a man. I may be a brunette, a blond, or sometimes a redhead. Often, I will be showing off my great thrift store purchases. People will stare at me because they see an attractive women, not a man dressed as a woman.