A huge part of me wants to delete all these walls of text and have fun rewriting a shorter profile, but with all the time I put into writing errythang, it feels like it would be a colossal waste. For now, you'll have to cope with TOO MANY WORDS.

I'm a nice, normal guy, so long as one turns a blind eye to my abnormal tendencies. Like reading too much sci-fi and wishing the world was just a little more cyberpunk.

Knowledge and its pursuit, along with a constant drive to better myself, are what keep me going every day, because stagnation is as good as death. I know a little bit about a lot of things, and a lot about some things. I am a geek in many ways and about many things, and proud of it. I will quote things you've never heard of in normal conversation, but if you ask I will explain it with a smile and without hesitation. I enjoy paying attention to the subtle intricacies that make life so beautiful, and I find it fascinating to think about the incredible feats mankind has accomplished and the future of our species and society. Whereas many people enjoy watching nature, I've always preferred to watch the urban jungle and the interactions of its inhabitants.

I am terrible at starting a conversation out of the blue, but am great at holding a conversation once one is started. I don't have much "game" in the conventional sense and I'm terrible at making a move, because I tend to be too busy having a conversation with the girl and worrying that if I try to initiate anything she'll immediately be offended. I probably think you're too cool to talk to me, even if I really want you to.

I am kind, reserved, and very easygoing. I rarely if ever get angry, and I love meeting people of all sorts. I will always listen to you, no matter what the topic is.

I frequently feel as though I've said too much, yet worry about the fact that so much seems to go unsaid. My speech is overly elaborate online, but I'm a lot more fun to talk to in real life.

I know when I'm wrong and accept it.

In case it hasn't made itself apparent, I also have a bad habit of being terribly long-winded. Oh, and for the record, I'm not as straightforward and boring as I feel like I come off in this profile, I'm just doing my best to provide information about myself which seemingly doesn't leave much room for humor.

Currently I'm hard at work building the foundations for the life I'd like to one day have. I work as a cashier at Panera, and I live in Logan Square with a goth chick and a riot grrl. We spend our days being ridiculously loud, drinking and dancing in the kitchen, crafting, and being the most awesome dysfunctional family ever. Once I figure out the logistics of doing so, I'm going back to school for fashion design.

I'm great with anything relating to computers and technology, it all comes naturally to me. I'm a pretty decent singer, though sadly I'm a terrible lyricist so I haven't done much with it. My taste in music is hugely varied, so I'm great at recommending music to people and enjoy the hell out of doing so. I'm told that I'm good at lightening the mood in a tense situation, or bringing a smile to somebody's face if they're feeling down. Also, I'm pretty good at sewing (though not hand-sewing), and I can put both of my legs behind my head though I'll probably lose balance and roll onto my side.

I am not, however, good at complimenting myself, so if you figure out something *noteworthy* that I'm good at, I'm all ears.

I talk either constantly or barely at all, I dress pretty oddly, and I'm pretty "metro" so I'm often mistaken for being gay. My lips / smile also seem to get noticed quickly, though I haven't the foggiest as to why.

Oh-ho, this is a difficult one for me. Food's an easy one at least; my favorite food by far is sushi and Japanese food in general. As far as books, I'm primarily a fan of science-fiction, especially cyberpunk, post-apocalyptic and dystopian works (which goes for all other media as well; I'm a big fan, if my username didn't provide a clue) and speculative future fiction, but I'm very open to good literature in general. I'm also absolutely engrossed in the Song of Ice and Fire series at the moment. For movies and shows I'm very open, but I tend to enjoy comedy that is witty, awkward, or dry, schlocky horror flicks, sci-fi, Adult Swim shows (especially Frisky Dingo, if I've got nothing to do for a day at all I'll just put it on and watch the whole damn series again), and things with interesting or noteworthy direction. I admit, I do enjoy anime, though I rarely have time to watch it nowadays and I'm pretty picky. Though truth be told, if it involves giant robots kicking the shit out of each other, chances are I'll watch it. And it doesn't mention video games, but I play a lot of those. I grew up a gamer, then kinda stopped for a while, but ever since I built my new PC a few months back I've gotten back into it pretty heavily. I'm a big RPG fan, both Western and Japanese, and I'm currently tackling The Witcher 2, Dark Souls, Borderlands 2, and a few Shin Megami Tensei games that I'm replaying (among many, many others).

But music... well there's the kicker. I pride myself on the sheer variety of music that I listen to; I could never hope to pick one umbrella genre and say "this is what I listen to." My favorite hobby is finding music that I haven't heard and exploring genres that I'm unfamiliar with, which tends to come in handy because I have something in common musically with just about everybody I meet. If I'm not careful, I'll end up going on for pages about this, so at the very least, some of my favorite artists are:

Astronautalis, BATS, Bauhaus, Bohren & Der Club of Gore, Children of Nova, Cinema Strange, Coheed and Cambria, Danger, The Dead Kennedys, The Dear Hunter, Depeche Mode, Deru, edIT, The Faint, The Felix Culpa, Fest Vainqueur, Forgive Durden, Gazillion, The Gentle Guest, Janne Da Arc, JAM Project, Joy Division, Kaizers Orchestra, Kashiwa Daisuke, Lillies and Remains, Miyavi, Monzano, Burial, Protest the Hero, The Protomen, Sex Gang Children, The Sisters of Mercy, Skinny Puppy, This Town Needs Guns, Unexpect, The Venetia Fair, Venetian Snares, World's End Girlfriend

...and that's with a quick scan for absolute favorites through my MP3 player. Heaven forbid if I were to actually pull up Winamp for this.

To sum everything up, I just love media.

-Some sort of computer, preferably with an internet connection
-My music collection
-Decent quality headphones or speakers. I can't stand poor audio quality, it drives me crazy.
-My e-cig. I "quit" smoking and switched to it a few months ago, and I absolutely love it. I still get my nicotine but without all the other toxins, and it's a whole lot tastier. It's kinda strange being the only person I know that has one though.
-The CTA
-Passion and drive

My standing in life, how to improve it, how much nicer things will be when I get to that point, etc. I worry a lot about the future I suppose. A friend of mine once put my thoughts into words pretty aptly; "I'm not scared of death, because once you're dead, that's that. But I'm scared as fuck of the future, because if shit goes bad, you have to keep living with it and figuring out how to fix it. That's way harder than just being dead."

Outside of that though, I tend to think about:
-Music
-Fashion
-How cool it would be to not have to worry about money
-How awesome my closet would be if that were the case
-How gender roles are bullshit and a certain type of clothing should not be relegated to any particular gender, and how to break down those walls in society
-What motivates other people to do what they do in their daily lives (I love to people watch)
-Why in the world this site lists my personality as being so strikingly unkind, which boggles my mind.
-What questions I answered on here and how I answered them, because I honestly can't remember and that was months ago.
-How to rephrase or word things better, especially if I can find a way to weasel in some added alliteration
-How much of my ridiculously long profile people actually read
-Whether I keep adding to this profile because I want people to know about me, or if it's a half-conscious exercise in self-discovery and evaluation
-How to subtly convince people to take pictures of me so I can have pictures of myself that aren't goddamn mirror shots and stupid webcam pictures (I haven't solved this one yet)

Nowadays it could be anything. Out on the town with friends? Hanging out with the roommates? Exploring and people watching? Playing vidyagames / reading / whatever on my own? All of the above? Whatever the case, it probably involves wine, cheap malt liquor, whiskey, or sake. Or all of the above.

I lost a lot of weight, so I've got some loose skin I'm super self conscious about. It'll go away over time, but for now it is what it is.

I think androgyny / gender ambiguity / whatever you want to call it is the bee's knees. I've had people tell me before that from behind they thought I was a short-haired girl (I was sitting down, so they didn't notice my height), and I take that as a compliment. I don't buy into the whole LOOK MANLY AND MACHO thing, I like the mystery of being more easily described as "pretty" than handsome. Unsurprisingly, a lot of people think I'm gay, but it doesn't bother me.

On a more light-hearted note, I uh... I also build model kits of robots as a hobby. They're kinda like those little plastic airplane models you find at hobby shops, only, y'know, robots. It's pretty much the dorkiest hobby I have.

Oh, and even though it's been a few years since I watched it, I loved The Gilmore Girls. Judge if you please, but any show that quick-witted that also manages to drop a subtle reference to Bauhaus in an episode is solid in my book.

-You've got passion, you've got drive, and you're killing time to keep the dream alive.
-If you find me intriguing, appealing, attractive, or whatever positive adjective it might be that happens to spark something inside you; be that your heart, head, or loins.
-If none of the above apply to you and you want to tell me how much my profile has made you dislike me
-If you want to start a post-punk band with me.
-If you understand that my checking every box in the "I'm looking for" section is indicative of the fact that I'm not looking for anything in particular and I simply like people
-If you actually read my entire profile, because it's goddamn LONG
-If you will take pictures of me so I can replace these stupid mirror shots and webcam pictures. I can't find a way to make that not sound creepy, but I damn sure tried.
-If you want to hang out in a casual situation; I'm a lot more fun in real life, I promise, and I'm open to meet just about anybody
at the drop of a hat
-If you want to go shopping sometime. Dead serious, I'm a great shopping partner. I've been told I'm like the best parts of a gay best friend and a boyfriend all in one.
-If you can send me something worth responding to, which should be something beyond "Hey, what's up?". It should be obvious that I like to talk, so at least give me something to talk about.
-If you won't be offended by the fact that I have a terrible habit of reading a message, intending to respond to it when I get more time, and subsequently forgetting to do so entirely. If you catch me when I'm online, I welcome you to use the chat system on here so that I don't forget, or you can feel free to ask for my phone number / Facebook so we can text or chat or whatever.
-This last one is FAR beyond a long shot, but if you are both attractive and recognize the phrase "Dividing Driver" or "Gutsy Galaxy Guard", message me now so I can profess my undying love to you.

Having trouble getting ahold of me? Yeah, that kinda happens a lot. If you feel so inclined, feel free to message me via Kik! My username is dystopiate.