MY NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCE
I was 12 years old, and, I Was Being Murdered:
Physically Drowned BY a Lifeguard.
Having had all the oxygen forced out of my body, water rushed into
my lungs; I flailed wildly, fighting for my young life and air;
being held down, held underwater by the lifeguard. He was 21, I was
I was amazed that no one helped. There were motel guests all around
the pool, and some were even in the pool. They must have thought my
screams, gasps for, 'HELP!', were just kids playing; and, they did
nothing. I was being murdered in plain sight.
The lifeguard let go of me and I floated softly, sank to the bottom
of the pool with a water filled body. I never passed out or lost
consciousness. My eyes were open and I was on my stomach, facing
forward. My friend dived in to the bottom and faced me, "GET UP!!",
He screamed under water and I heard him; but, I could do nothing; a
water filled body is immobilized, unable to move at all; Which, was
fine by me; I was out of pain. I screamed inside me, "DON'T TOUCH
ME!!". But, all my friend heard was nothing and all he saw was a
nonmoving object. He left the pool to get help. "Where ya
goin?!!!!" I screamed, cried inside myself to no avail.
I wondered about dying and certainly I thought this was it. I
wondered what would happen next; why was I not seeing a bright
light or whatever I was supposed to see? I did figure that my life
would pass before my eyes at some point; even at 12 years old I
guess I knew that much. And, it came true; my life passed before my
eyes. Important scenes and very mundane scenes from my life flashed
before me like a video screen. I was amazed, shocked that as I was
dying, that I would waste time viewing very ordinary events from my
young life of 12 years. There were scenes of me sleeping and even
scenes of me just staring at the television. Annnnd, not All of the
important events of my young life were represented during my life
review. It (Death, dying) Is An Amazing, NATURAL Process.
Still feeling at ease and peaceful, I noticed, and started to see a
gathering of Angels around me on the bottom of the pool; although,
they were not getting wet. Seven Angels. "Be Not Afraid". They
lifted me out of my body. Immediately, I was 30 feet above the
pool; I thought about my being afraid of heights and why it was not
bothering me right now; why was I not afraid? I KNEW The Answer as
quickly as I asked the question. I looked down to see my friend
diving in; I kept going up. I thought of my family, my friends,
everyone. What would happen to them?
"They'll be okay", was the Comforted Response I Recieved; and, I
As I was being lifted by my Angels, I saw other souls being lifted
by other Angels. I saw Great Orbs of Pure Love with silouettes of
souls in them. I looked down to see a brown earth, also with
silouettes of souls. I was brought up to a gathering of clouds; a
level, a flat. Everything here was bright white; beyond was
On this level of clouds stood four Angels with Vine Covered,
Romanesque White Pillars on either side of them, with a connecting
archway in the back. Through the archway, I could see a Gold
To the left of these Romanesque white pillars was, The Pearly
"I do not want to go back down there! It's Painful!!" I shouted to
the four Angels. Except, it was done by thought, not by mouth.
Neither my, nor the Angels' mouths moved, but their hands and arms
did. They were ordinary humans once; now donning a white robe. The
Four Angels were older men. At least one of the Angels holding me
aloft was female.
"YOU MUST!! YOUR MISSION IS NOT YET COMPLETE!!", Was The Angels'
As they consulted with one another on how to get me back down to my
body, I floated up the path, and was drawn to, the Pearly Gates.
Dressed in a white robe, wondering how do I physically get into
Heaven, I thought that I would kneel down, but instead, I
prostrated myself across The Threshold of Heaven. Laying flat on my
stomach I Opened my eyes to see a Pair of Sandeled Feet and I Knew
To Whom They Belonged.
I Was Lifted by the scruff of my neck By JESUS.
HE LOOKED Me In The Eyes.
"Welcome, My Son".
HE SMILED and I Felt LOVED, Forgiven, Lucky.
(Yes,) It Was An AWE Inspired Love:
Encompassing Everything Wonderfully!!!
I wandered into Heaven; GRACED.
I Played Drums in Heaven!!!
A Beautiful White Drumset with Gold Hardware.
I noticed I was not wearing glasses in Heaven;
I wore glasses when I was alive, here on Earth.
It was given to me that We Are Perfect in Heaven.
I took a walk down a long path in a Beautiful Green Meadow; Angels
flew about; It Was Beautiful and Joyous! Down the path I saw a
rectangle shaped, Gold Temple. There were two entrances on the side
facing me; I entered. On my left, I saw a MAN sitting in a huge
chair; I came up to his knees. HE patted me on the head and I took
a walk around the Temple. Pictures of (I'm Guessing) famous
religious figures hung on the walls; not that I knew any of
I don't remember leaving Heaven, but, all of a sudden, I was back
at the level of clouds with the Four Angels. It was given to me
that the Angels appeared to me at the age in which they passed
away. Three of the Angels stood in back while the fourth Angel kept
me company. He listened to my thoughts with bemusement; I was
cursing; I was 12 years old and had just been drowned. It was given
that this Angel who kept me company had not been to earth in a
while. He had a kind gentle face. The other Three Angels in back,
pondered my fate; how to get me back down to my body, "We Need To
Seek Permission!" I heard them say.
All of a Sudden, the clouds above them lit up.
A Booming Voice We Heard, and ALL Shuddered. We Cowered.
Immediately, Immensely, I Was Sorrowful, Ashamed;
I Had Taken Gods' Gift of Life For Granted;
I Was Not Grateful That I HAD a Life.
NOW, Here I Was, Literally Shaming Myself Before GOD.
Upon the Angels and myself hearing, "SHOW HIM!!",
and seeing the clouds light up, I cried out,
"Don't Show Me! I'll Go Back! I Want TO Live!"
But instead, I was flown to the
Right side of the Romanesque White, Vine Covered Pillars.
THERE, I saw a huge book; about 3 feet thick.
It Was/IS, My Book of Life.
Being held aloft by Angels, over the book,
the pages flew open and I saw scenes from my future life.
I saw things that were YET TO BE, and, NOW ARE.
Things and events that were completely out of my control,
and or manipulation, have since come true; The Prophecies.
Within milliseconds of being shown scenes from my future
I was flown back down to my body.
My Friend and an adult dove in to save me; they picked up my water
filled body and plodded me onto the concrete decking surrounding
the motels' built-in pool. My stomach was pumped and a red-pinkish
blood goo came out as air rushed back into my system. I coughed and
gagged our oxygen again.
The lifeguard walked over to wash away the blood.
"I'm sorry." He offered.
If I did not mention it before,
the lifeguards eyes' were RED when he was drowning me,
while his hands were around my throat. PURE EVIL EXISTS.
My Response To The Lifeguard Was, "F**k You".
The REDNESS Returned To His Eyes
and I knew if no one was there,
I would have gotten drowned by him, again.
1)...There are no bad thoughts in Heaven.
2)...Music is Made in Heaven:
Every Second of Music You Have Ever Heard and or Played, and Ever
IS Being Played By Angels In Heaven, At That Exact Moment.
3)...EVERYTHING GOOD COMES FROM HEAVEN.
4)...EVERYTHING is Made of Soul...Spirit.
5)...You can be Reincarnated into - anything.
6)...You can go to Heaven.
7)...You can go to hell.
8)...You can go to other dimensions, some of higher learning.
9)...Life, is Written, long before you were born.
10)...There is no such thing as coincidence.
11)...Be Grateful That You Have A Life:
No Matter The Event (Good, Great, Horrific), LIFE IS A Blessing; A
12)...We Will All Be Okay. GOD LOVES YOU.
REST ASSURED, GOD IS WITH US; ALWAYS.
GOD LOVES YOU, ME, US.
1)...If God Now Told Me that in order for me to have life
I would have to be drowned every day, and live,
I would gratefully accept that mission.
2)...I am not mad or angry at the lifeguard who drowned me;
I cannot waste time hating;
that would be a shameful act against
The Great Gift of Life That GOD Has Given Back To Me.
3)...This drowning is one of several traumatic events in my
I had an abusive father who used me as a physical punching bag and
a verbal dartboard; telling me I deserved to be drowned. I was also
molested four times by women before I was 10 years old. Yet, I
Persevere. I am hungry as I type and overwhelmed trying to care for
myself, and digging a deeper hole financially. I eat from food
banks and my sneakers have holes in them. I have no luxuries like
cable tv, nor can I afford home internet access, or snacks, or
complete, healthy meals.