Quote of the day, directed at self: "I'm funny, I have an extremely big penis, and I know how to put people at ease. I'm not sure why I'm not more popular!" Response to self: Asperger's, much? ;)
I admit it, I'm not pretty. But I'm strong as hell, and a bit of a demon lover, I have a nearly-200 IQ, and I'll make you laugh (and other things ;) like you've never laughed before. No man is an island, says John Donne... but I may be an archipelago. I'm just sort of figuring out that I may be rather attractive (like women do, I compare myself to underwear models, and when I don't match up I find myself lacking -- it's just that women (as opposed to underwear models) seem to really enjoy me in bed, so I figure I should just shut up and enjoy it ;)
Here's the thing. The easiest "bucket" I fall into is "casual sex," but that doesn't really capture what I want. Honestly, I would like a long-term, very loving, non-monogamous relationship with someone who understands that I'm sort of a strange, hyper-intelligent, radically self-sufficient, and slightly antisocial individual. Despite all that, I'm incredibly loving (and, dare I say, loveable), but I get that I'm a tough nut to crack.
I'm going to be living on the road, soon; I have this opportunity, since I'm a computer programmer and I can do my job anywhere. This means that our relationship will of necessity be sporadic.
Since I'm non-monogamous, I'm not looking for someone to "complete me" (in fact, this concept vaguely repulses me; I'm complete already and I hope you are, too...). There may be people I know with whom I have a mostly intellectual connection, some just fit too perfectly for snuggling, and some may just be incredible in bed. Some may be several of these. It's all good; you don't have to be "everything" to me, and I don't expect I'll be "everything" to you. That's okay -- I know my strengths (hideously intelligent, uproariously funny, amazing in bed, surprisingly kind) and my weaknesses (kind of a flake, a perpetual wanderer, never sure "what I want to be when I grow up," not monogamous at all). I'm not desperate for a partner(s), but I don't say "no" when I meet one I connect with...
Hmm. Don't feel like more soul-searching right now. I'll write more when I think of it/feel like it.
Aside: I seem to spend a lot of time cutting and welding steel, lately. If you message me and I don't respond, I'm probably down in my "shop" watching little trickles of molten metal flow and reshape themselves... It's hypnotizing, really.