I consider myself intelligent, but every once in awhile I have my doubts. I'm not a genius, mind you. And my drifting attention span doesn't help anything. Neither does my SEVERE deficiency in even basic math skills. I'm not that good in an in-person debate either. I take a bit to register what was said to me. I take even longer formulating a response.

Anyway, I'm shy. I've been a shut-in for the last seven years, though recently I've gone out a lot more. Once I can afford a car, I'm going to try to abandon the reclusive lifestyle. I don't really want to subject my head to any more of that. Don't be offended if I don't look you in the eye. Sometimes I will, but sometimes I won't. The natural inclination to hide is pretty freaking strong, especially when slipping in unnoticed. I can act 'not shy' if I can catch it beforehand and force myself, though. To an extent.

I like videogames. I see most of them as a group-effort work of art. I get a bit angry when people condemn them. These are usually older people who are afraid of anything that didn't exist before they were born. They'll readily believe the media when it's said "Violence in video games cause real violence" I've got a newsflash for you, Folks: That's just plain fucking stupid. You know what causes violence? A corrupt mind with evil thoughts finding any means to hurt another person. Granted, that toddlers are not old enough to know the difference between fantasy violence and real violence. Teenagers are, however. Teen-aged Murderers aren't the victims of videogames....they're just evil, whiny-ass little bastards and the media LOVES their scapegoats.

My dream job would involve videogames in some way. The runner up would be to actually get some writings finished and published.

I generally try to love everyone. Nearly the closest I am to 'hating' anyone is to tolerate their existence. Though there are just some people in this world that aren't even going to get that from me. I'd much rather see an 'evil' person redeem them self rather than see them fall into misfortune, though I can't say I'd feel the same in all situations. I just don't know.

I'm looking for my soul mate, even though I haven't really even had a chance to date in the real world. I don't see my social failures as a completely raw deal. I think that I have a chance, at my age, to get it right the first time. I've had a couple of 'online' relationships. Didn't work out to well, but not really because they were online. It amazes me how someone I never met in real life can make me feel extreme joy and the worst of pains. Of course, usually only people I've talked to online for over a year or so tend to affect me like that. ....nah, that's not really true either. I can fall quickly and hard. It's a fault that needs correcting, I guess.

Right now I'm trying to make a video rental store work in a town far too small to expect any business on luxary items. We've got a few PS3s sold and we don't even have any in stock yet (In other words they're reserved). Found them for extraordinarily cheap. I can sell them for cheap and still make some money. Faster that way, too.

I'm also writing a novel. I think I let myself get distracted too easily, though.

-Headshots in most videogames
-Message Board Debates (though I don't feel like entering one any time soon)
-Talking some women out of their bras on webcam in less than an hour.(others take a day or two, and still yet a lot are unmovable)
-Making certain people orgasm from halfway around the world with just text. (not everyone is imaginative enough to be affected, unfortunately)
-Fiction Writing. (Though I've never actually finished anything)

The first thing that people notice about me in real life? Nothing that I see a point in mentioning on the internet where I can escape most of the bullshit.

The first thing people notice about me on the net? Ok, I'm a bit of a pervert. The distance and lack of having to look into a person's eyes and actually speak to them let's me be a bit freer and get over my shyness..and you can't really do any harm with text. People also tend to notice quickly that I can be an asshole at times. I'm trying to change that, but it's genetic and that's hard to fight against.

Books: Left Behind, Lord of The Rings, Bioblast, Time Storm, Pirate's Promise, Jurassic Park

Movies: Batman Begins, Dark Knight, Unbreakable, FF7:Advent Children, all six episodes of Star Wars, Rush Hour 1 & 2, Shanghai Noon

Music: System of a Down, Disturbed, Drowning Pool, AC/DC, Lynnyrd Skynnyrd,Pink Floyd, Bob Dylan, Neil Young, Grateful Dead, FF7 soundtrack, FF8 Soundtrack, FF9 Soundtrack, FF10 Soundtrack, Metal Gear Solid Soundtrack, several videogame theme songs.

Food: Ice Cream, submarine sandwiches stacked with most of what might be found on a sandwich, salads packed with a variety of meats and greens and topped with poppy seed dressing, BBQ ribs (Though only if the meat's falling right off the bone), Americanized Chinese(particularly because I've never had real Chinese), almost any sort of cake or pie.

Videogames: Final Fantasy VII, Final Fantasy VIII, Final Fantasy IX, Final Fantasy X, Metal Gear Solid, Silent Hill, Silent Hill 2, Silent Hill 2, Silent Hill 4, Resident Evil, Resident Evil 2, Resident Evil 3, Resident Evil 4, Metal Gear Solid: The Twin Snakes, Syphon Filter 2, Zone of the Enders, Zone of the Enders 2: The Second Runner, Legend of Zelda, Legend of Zelda: Windwaker(unfinished), Legend of Zelda Twightlight Princess (barely started), Devil May Cry, Devil May Cry 3 (barely started), Blood Omen: Legacy of Kain, Legacy of Kain: Soul Reaver, Soul Reaver 2, Legacy of Kain: Defiance.

Air
Water
Food
Love
Imagination
Videogames

I spend a lot of time daydreaming. I rarely know what I was thinking once I snap out of it. People tell me that it's hard to bring me out of it, hard to keep me out of it, and it's something I do a lot. I don't mean to do it. I'll be listening to a person once second, and then the next I'm dragged out of random, usually absurd thoughts. I run conversations in my head that never take place, and the people that I imagine talking to tend to play the part of a personified part of myself (in the form of someone I know), reassuring me about a decision, or suggesting one. Sometimes I think about things like how cool it would be to have assault weapons strapped to everyday vehicles, sometimes I just sit and watch animals and ponder our similarities to them, and I end up trying to define concepts that are never really nailed down to their very core definition and purpose (love, comedy.) I constantly re-evaluate my concept of write and wrong, and that gets me thinking about politics. I think about 'Is god really out there, or am I just afraid to die?'

Here, at home, probably. For now. I'll update this as soon as my life picks up.

I'm twenty-four years old and still don't consider myself a man. I'm still trying to get there. I think I'd like to leave those immature, outdated parts of myself behind.

Don't message me if you see the "Is a Christian" part and think you can get into a discussion about Republican viewpoints with me. I'm an ANARCHIST, people! I don't want to hear 'Praise Bush' or any sort of positive remarks about the Fascists, bigots, liars, and murderers running The United States.

You should message me if you're into videogames.
You should message me if you're a Liberal Christian
You should message me if you're a young woman who just likes filling nice guys' inboxes with nude photos of yourself.
You should message me if you have a decent sense of humor about the last comment.
You should message me if you want my children. ;)
You should message me if you want me to be your first lay. (I should probably say 'women only' for that one, but I suppose ANYONE can message me. Now whether they have any luck is their own problem :P)

You should message me when hell freezes over, just to warn me about the possible climate affects it might have on Earth.

You should message me if you stubbed your toe and you just need someone to whine to.

You should message me if you want to. Just don't message me to insult me. I can't actually do anything about that, but come on...I really don't need to feel pissy after going through my inbox. :)