I am your greatest dream and your worst nightmare, all concealed within one tiny little person. For the record, you'd be much better off getting to know me if you looked @ the other questions; no person worth knowing can be condensed into a single text box. So, that having been said, I'm never really too sure what to write on these things but here we go�
I am constantly oblivious to the real world�alone in my dreams.
First of all, I'm a Pisces and therefore I spend about 70% of my time w/my head up in the clouds, wandering around with all the butterflies and zebras and moonbeams, LOL. "Many people associate Pisceans with dreams and secrets, and it's a fair association, since those born under this Sign feel comfortable in an illusory world. At times, however, Pisceans can have difficulty distinguishing fact from fantasy: they tend to get caught up in their dreams and views of how things should be. To say they wear rose-colored glasses isn't much of a stretch." This is very, very true.
I am a walking contradiction a lot of the time. Outgoing but quiet. Sweet but sassy. Loving but hateful. Complicating things as I try to simplify them�that's a particular talent of mine. Smiling but screaming inside. Sexy but semi-modest. Bizarre but typical. Giving but selfish. I could go on for a while..
I wake up every day of my life and put my mask on�why? Because that's what makes me thru the day. A different mask for different ppl. I try to make everyone happy but sometimes it just isn't meant to be. So if I disappoint you, I apologize in advance. I am a very complex person�but so very simple as well. (See, contradictory) The simplest of things can make me smile and make my whole world a better place in general.
Over the years, I have come to see myself as a constant victim of bad relationships and friendships. I hate that. That pity that I have for myself. Why? Because the more I think about it, the more I come to realize that I have put myself into fucked off situations w/jackasses that don't deserve me and therefore, I am making myself a victim. I don't want to be that girl anymore�
I miss being happy all the time (or at least most of the time) and I wish that more people loved people for (or at least w/) their imperfections. Because it is truly our own imperfections and quirks that make us perfect. Appreciate uniqueness, don't ridicule it.
Love is often my inspiration. "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails." I aspire to make that kind of love a part of my life. I am also polyamorous...I have one serious partner that is NOT going anywhere but we're both open and honest w/each other so it's not that big a deal. I definitely prefer females to males, however. Women are just so much more beautiful to me. Oh yeah, JUST B/C I'M POLYAMOROUS DOES NOT MEAN THAT I'M GOING TO HAVE SEX W/JUST ANYONE!!! Come on ppl, I do have a little class.
I try to be as imperfect as possible b/c I am only a person. We are all, each of us, just people. Not Gods and Goddesses, not Kings or Queens..not a single one of us is the true definition of 'perfect.' The world is all made up of gray shades--there is no true black and white."We are all liars�and if we think otherwise, we're the worst kind of all�we're lying to ourselves."--T. Ojeda
I like just about anything that can retain my interest for any amount of time. I love laughing. Especially when I'm crying. If you can make me laugh, I will adore you and you will have taken the first step towards climbing the walls around my heart.
I love the ocean�so peaceful and yet so devastatingly powerful. I feel so small and insignificant standing on the shore, looking out at this infinite but entirely different world. From the beginning of time, the sea has eroded the shores w/it's tides, never pausing in its cycle, always steady. It never stops to consider the problems of the world, does it? No it does not..so since you're standing on the edge of this different universe, you should be thankful that your problems aren't as significant as, well�getting eaten by a bigger fish or something. I don't know quite how to explain it but standing on the shore makes me feel like my problems are tiny little specs compared to the vastness of this beautiful thing in front of me.
I love good food�feed me good food and I will be much more inclined to like you. Thai is good, la Madeline is divine, Waffle House is most excellent!!! "Can I get some chunky peanut butter w/that please?" *snicker*
I like people who aren't afraid to tell me the truth, even when it's going to hurt me. People who don't fuck with my emotions--yes, I do have them believe it or not. People who don't lie to my face then lie again to get out of that. (I know all the god-damn excuses and reasons and bullshit, please spare us both the time) People who are nice. People who are sweet and kind and giving and trusting. I try to trust you until you fuck me over. People who don't play mind games. People who don't bring needless fucking drama into my life. People who will be open-minded enough to like me for me.
If you can simultaneously appreciate chaos and logical order, we should get along just fine, LOL.
I hate liars and hypocrites. And I especially hate being put second. To anyone�for any reason. (But I willingly tolerate it for some reason?) When am I going to be put first w/someone? (Haha, don't I sound like a whiny bitch?? I know!)
I don't like the way that a lot of ppl think that they can use me just b/c I'm nice to them and try to understand their point of view. DAMN, you give ppl in general a bad fucking name. GRR!
I hate the wintertime�b/c it's so cold and I usually have no cuddle partner to keep me warm. And I hate the holidays�family, ugh�ppl everywhere, ugh. BAH HUMBUG, for real!
I hate it when ppl are like Dr. Jekkyl and Mr. Jackass (this can totally apply to a female too!!) My God, fuckin pick a personality and stick w/it please!!!!!!
I am really just a big dork �I sit around watching Cartoon Network all day long and talking to my cats, LOL. Obsessed w/LOTR�I know random little geekish tidbits about the movies and books that no "normal" person should really know. I mean seriously, no one cares but me, I'm sure!
And I know that I'm smart enuf to qualify for the dork/geek club cuz I stuff my brain full of useful and useless information all day long. *grin* But to me�smartness=sexyness.
I'd rather talk to someone I can have an at least semi-intelligent conversation and him/her be not quite as physically attractive as some model that has nothing to talk about but themselves.
So on that note, if you're not capable of carrying on a decent conversation, don't even bother trying.
I am smartassed, sweet, and a total cuddleslut