There's a monster that lives in my head, He talks to me softly... He wants me dead...

He tells me this time.. I'll stay in control... He tells me to not let anyone know...

He convinces me that no one cares, He whispers the pain is too much to bear...

He tells me how wonderful I will feel... He tells me he loves me, and It's real...

He tells me not to call anyone, My heart starts racing, He tells me It will be fun...

He tells me not to think of the past times, He tells me I can doo this just one last time...

Who is this monster who calls me by my name...

RELAPSE...

He's waiting to start the game...

- This was one of the first poems I was given when I was in rehab, I was in a drug treatment facility because I lost control of my life and I desperatly needed help, This poem has really touched me because, This is real, This is how It feels in the mind of an addict, And I am one... I'm not trying to turn anyone away but this is who I am, and I like who I am and If you dont, It's your loss, you dont have to worry about me going back, I have way to much to lose and its not worth it, I've been clean for 60+ days.

This Is the daily battle I have to fight for the rest of my life, It sounds scary and rough, But believe me...

I'M NOT SCARED...

I will beat this without a question, but to the people that loves me the most, I could never let you down... I’m not the selfish David Falzone anymore... I just wanna feel accepted and loved for who I am and I'm now coming to terms with myself and for once in my life, I love myself. I'm looking for whatever, positive friends and maybe find a girlfriend.

I'm in the process of changing everything about my life. My life has significantly improved since I've been clean. I'm very family oriented, my family has been there for me when i needed them the most and the love that i have for them is unconditional. My 6 year old daughter Is alot closer to me cause before I chose my addiction over everything. I had to miss her 1st day of kindergarden b/c I was in rehab. That was something i needed to miss to really see what the hell this addiction has done to me. Rehab has significantly changed the way i think and has had a huge impact on my life, which is why im being so open. I'm not ashamed of who i am, I've learned to accept things i cannot change and I hope to meet people who are supportive and who are completly drug free, even weed. I'm staying away from all that is bad and I hope everyone can accept that.

Problem Solving, which is why i do tech support. I like helping people mostly, I get some satisifaction out of it espically if i make them happy, it may sound kinda concited but when you put your neck out there for someone to help them, It usually goes a long way. You never know when you may need a favor from someone, thats why its so important. Plus i liked to be liked by everone and for people to like you as well as respect you, it maybe the qualities that'll last a life time.

I'm also good at carrying a conversation. I can talk about anything, Though I may not be able to relate with everone, I can always see somthing in someones point of view. I love to talk about politics,mostly because im disgusted and appaled on the direction that this county is taking.

People often say that I'm itimaditing which in my opinion makes no sense, Im 5'4 with a bigger than average build ( I dont think I'm that fat) I have been excerising and would like to meet people who can help and encourage a healthy clean lifestyle.I know I could stand to lose some pounds but despite that I'm a nice person and dont just up and judge me for that..Be my friend and excerise with me, dont hate me for it. People say I look very handsome and I'm very professional.

Well i love to watch all kinds of movies..really no specific genre and i think its pointless to make a list of movies. I doo download all the latest movies and give them all a shot as long as the quality Is good.. I dont really watch cable tv b/c im always busy watching movies. I hate that great shows have suggestive selling selling measures such as product placement and commercials.

As far as books go, I like self help books like the Power of Positive Thinking. I think everone should read that book or mandate that in school. It's really shaped the way I think, feel and act, and has tought me whats important in life. I know tat may sound stupid, but its 100% truth.

1. My Recovery, If I take my will back and put my recovery second, I'll lose everything or everyone else that i could never do without.
2. My personal happiness, I'm tired of hating my self and having low self esteem, I've fixed that and my goal is to be happy as much as i can be!!
3. My daughter
4. My Mom
5. Church, yeah I said Church, I'm very new to spirituality and It really makes me feel good, I'm really serious to my new way of life and hopefully god can fill the void.
6. My job, They helped me get into rehad and paid seventy thousand dollars cause thats how much they believe in me.

Mostly about my Past, Present and Future.

I'm not gonna lie, I've had one hell of a past (like everyone claims) but I dont blame anyone but myself as I'm the only one responsible for my actions and the path I took. I dont mind talking about it as, I'm not ashamed or embarassed of what i been through, or who I am. But I'd like to know who you are before I open myself up. I promise you wont be dissapointed!!

Probably hanging out with my family getting tipsy (legally of course). Every Friday night is different though. I could be taking you out on a date and getting to know you. Or i could be picking up My beautiful little girl taking her to chucky cheese or over her grandparents house to have dinner. I family is my best friends, alot of my so called friends did nothing good for me, only brought me down.

I'm a huge fan of Johnny Depp's Willy Wonka character. I dont know why, But I'd love to be just like willy wonka with a love life that is!! I also have a superman tattoo on my arm.

If you'd like to get to know me, I promise im not one of those crazy stalker types. Im a genuine person now and I only want to be around positive people, I've let too many people bring me down and I'm not having that anymore. I'm 100% changed man and If you like what you see and read. Holla @ me