not gonna lie it's kind of hard to describe yourself when you're still trying to figure out who you even are, it's kind of like an uphill battle at the moment and the hill is steep and made of sand and i'm wearing rollerblades, just kidding it's not thaaat bad but i'll let you know when i get to the top, for now though i'm just takin' it slow, if it means anything i'm a total isfj (personalitypage.com/ISFJ.html) with a 97/100 on the introversion scale which might give you some insight as to how socially awkward i am

i am the music from your mouth and the feelings in your fingers.

you mean aside from creating and then deleting accounts on okcupid every other week? well hm, i take in stray animals and then become emotionally attached to them very quickly so when my parents freak out and tell me that the cat or dog or ferret or whatever said stray may be can't stay with us i kind of hyperventilate because i find that i often relate better to animals than i do to human beings, i also like riding my bikes (only one at a time though, i ain't THAT big of a balla) even though i'm incredibly out of shape and eating's great too, as for big and important things though all i've got is that i'm just going to school without the slightest clue about what i want to do for the rest of my life in terms of a career. i do know though that i want to live simply while exploring the world around me and the people in it, i want to develop a sense of spirtuality and make greater my sense of appreciation for all i have and i just want to keep on learning until my time's up 'cause if i could afford it i would just go to school for the rest of my life and learn the things i want to understand instead of paying thousands of dollars for required math courses that i don't even care about, basically i just want to live without being held back by my fears or insecurities or the restrictions i'm under now and someone to keep me company along the way would be nice, eh?

- wanting not and wasting not!
- beating time to death
- talking too much or speaking too little (there really is no in between with me)
- separating myself physically and mentally
- forgetting to zip my fly
- self-deprecation
- not knowing the words to any song in the world (i am not joking here, not even the star spangled banner nope, try me)
- avoiding four-way stops at all costs because i do not get them and i will kill the flow

i would say my posture or probably my height or the fact that my jaw doesn't open up the right way, it goes to the side a lot and makes me feel uncomfortable and i almost always have my hands by my mouth to hide my teeth, if we're talking about the 'nets though i'm gonna have to assume that some people might be annoyed by my improper grammar and punctuation usage, i promise though that i know how to form sentences correctly because i mean english has always been my best subject hands down but when i'm just chatting or writing tidbits online i find that this method of typing allows my thoughts and ideas to flow more freely, you'll get used to it

i think it'd be an understatement if i said i'm not exactly on top of things when it comes to the latest music and movies (even though i love them both), movies especially because i have a hard time sitting through them and usually have to get up and walk around for a bit although i guess the same goes with music, i'm one of those people who can't listen to a song in its entirety so i'm constantly hitting the next button but i like pretty much things all across the board with the exception of some classic rock and stuff like avenged sevenfold and this one band i heard on q101 that just bitched the entire time about their wife and job, i'm also not big on christian stuff although i did hear this one really catchy tune once that went something like "i love the lord and he loves me" and then the lady went into a whole scat thing, not gonna lie i almost listened to the whole thing before the scat got to be a little much and then i changed the station as is to be expected of me but if you know where i can find that song online holla atcho gurl aight (i'm serious)

well technically speaking i really only need food and water, shelter too and bug spray and / or allergy medication if i'm going to be outside or around burmese cats, stuff i don't WANT to live without on the other hand would be things like my dog first and foremost (my best friend and my protector), then the internet because i spend excessive amounts of time surfin' the web, art and by that i mean basically anything because art is everywhere, in books and music and architecture and nature and everything!, i also adore the warmth so if i was living in an environment that was constantly cold i would probably become too depressed to function, fifth would be salt which i know can fall under the food category but i am so addicted to sodium that i feel the need to carry little packets of it around with me everywhere i go, i mean what? yeah that's not weird or anything, lastly i'm gonna go with pants that are at least knee-length, these legs need to stay hidden trust me on that one

where things went wrong, my past (no matter how hard i try not to), my present, my future (even though it scares the shit out of me), how i'll probably end up just like the rest of 'em and my lack of concern over my lack of concern regarding it all, why men are constantly looking at my profile, where the hell my clue boardgame disappeared to and also how mary kate and ashley crushed soda cans on their heads in our lips are sealed, those things had to have been fake

at a party with fifteen thousand people, jukin' and gettin' crunk up in this bitch just kidding i'm probably sitting at home rearranging my bookshelves 'er somethin'

i'm an open book. i am nineteen years old and am just now learning to use roman numerals, know nothing about art or literature or sex or music or philosophy and am okay with that, i'm inarticulate (i stutter) and don't wash my pants (or self) as often as i should, i recently threw an "lmao" into real conversation, i used to pretend i had my own cooking show every time i prepared a meal for myself (i haven't cooked for myself in a while but i'd probably still do this), i asked for and received the latest backstreet boys album as a christmas present (yeah i've got the books and shirts and ticket stubs and totally plan on seeing them in 2010 and what), i make noises in my sleep and wet the bed when i was fifteen years old, and i totally had a crush on elisabeth hasselback when i was eleven. also, i'm pretty sure i'm lactose intolerant and i cannot read a map to save my life, lastly even after all the time that's passed i still cannot come to terms with the fact that anna nicole smith is dead (even though i really only knew her from the trimspa commercials)

oh, and i think about you every day.
and i am a total genophobe.
(and i'm not really 'jacked'...)

- you are funny (or at least think you are even though people tell you otherwise, hey it happens to the best of us)
- you have the tools and know-how to teach me how to true a tire or change the oil in a car or you can teach me anything else relating to bicycle and / or car mechanics, heck even if you don't know anything about either chances are you still know a trade i'd like to learn or maybe we can learn together 'cause i like learning and uh, i also want to study sign language and botany and bird calls, whattya say?
- you'd prefer a paddle boat ride or a chalk-drawing session over a night at the bar
- we have the same birthday! i'm always looking and never finding
- you can teach me how to play an instrument (pleeease?)
- you will pick up trash with me! and stuff
- you are a girl with short hair
- you are neither girl nor boy
- you've got an artist's hands and a soldier's feet
- your clothes are also full of holes!
- you have stretchmarks, AKA YOU ARE REAL and i don't know, i just think stretchmarks are cool, is that weird?
- you has mad luv for the momma earth
- you need someone to watch yo' pets!
- you can teach me to appreciate wine (this is a challenge, ready go!)
- you will accompany me on destinationless car rides and sing along to some of the world's greatest songs at the top of your lungs with me (lyrical knowledge and vocal talent not necessary)
- our turn signals align, does this ever happen?
- you are as navigationally challenged as i am, mainly because i do not believe such a person actually exists and i would like to be proven wrong

BUT! i'm not gonna lie, i will probably not respond to most messages i get (or it will take me a REALLY long time to get back to you) seeing as i have a tendency to join this site when i'm feeling particularly lonely and then when that feeling passes i usually find myself asking "what am i doooing?" but if you'd like to give it a shot go for it, just know that i am not looking for a relationship and certainly no nsa fun 'cause homie don't play that, oh also if we can skip the awkward introductory conversation and can just pretend we've known each other our whole lives that'll probably make things a whole lot easier