Speaking of goals, I have many of them. Yet, I have a tendency to make big changes (always for the good) somewhat impulsively. I decided at random one day to see if switching to an e-cigarette would actually work, and I've now been a “non-smoker” for 6 weeks with zero temptation or homicide. I did the same thing with my initial jump into weight loss. I decided to see if it would work, and it did. Within 6 months I had lost 70 lbs. Fortunately, the vast majority has stayed off, despite my own personal derailment(lookin at you, work stress), and I'm hoping to head back onto the path of my journey.
I'm incredibly sweet, caring and considerate, once you're in my good books. You could say I'm somewhat damaged and have mild trust issues—but I think this is all normal. Nope, I'm not gonna meet some random internet stranger on some deserted range road, this isn't trust issues, it's common sense. Common sense being one of the more rare, and most valuable traits I exhibit. I have an offbeat, crude sense of humour, can take as good as I can give, and making me laugh is one of the surest ways to my heart.
I've been single for quite some time, and happily so. I've learned how to be selfish, which is amazing after so many years of being selfless. I can easily keep myself content, happy and entertained, which may be one of the reasons it's taken me so long to jump back into the pond, so to speak. I guess I still haven't fully jumped it, I still have my floaties on, and I'm slowly wading in. It's not that I'm not looking for a relationship, I guess it's just hard to get me engaged. Please, please don't be boring. I know I can come across as boring, hell I regard myself as such, but if you are interesting and engaging, I'll push right back. If you're boring, if the conversation dies out, if you don't have anything more to ask other than how I'm doing, and what I look for in a guy, than save yourself the time. I'm really not a bitch, but you're competing with the constant over-stimulation of technology. Hmmm, answer to “What's up?” or kill some hookers on GTA, what would your answer be?
To get it out in the open, what I look for in a guy: Kind, considerate, has goals, has passions. Is HILARIOUS and in turn, has a great sense of humour. Has a thick skin, but can be open about emotions. Intelligent, driven, has a job! Opens doors for people, not just the ladeez, but people in general. Has the ability to put others first (and usually does), but is definitely able to communicate his needs and some selfish desires. Is easily entertained. Seriously, while I complain about the attention disorder I seem to have, I can have a great time doing anything depending on the other party. Be incredibly supportive and encouraging of my goals, but still able to make me feel beautiful (this is a fine line men-friends, a fine line). I want someone to push me to do new things, to get me out of the house, to do something other go out to eat and watch movies. I'm willing to try a lot of things, go outside of my comfort zone if the support is there. Also, I'm a big believer in adult literacy, and information retention. You'll note I put this at the end (there may be a test later, folks!). Yeah, there's a lot listed there, and maybe you're wondering why some fat, damaged, seemingly bitchy chick is asking for so much. It's because I'm awesome. Like make you cookies just because awesome. Like believes in the giving of regular oral sex awesome. Of course, I'll have to really like you to do pass on that awesomeness, but the fun is in the challenge, isn't it?