Anything but down-to-earth; likely down-to-Mars or down-to-dance.

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Making mix tapes. Baking. Creating. Brooding. Begrudgingly working for a corporate restaurant to pay the bills.

Returning my grocery cart to its proper place.

Sighing. I'm not nearly as discontent as it makes me seem.

"I don't know what to make of you..."

Books: The Most Beautiful Woman in Town | Revolutionary Road | What Dreams May Come | Dune | The Shining | Heart of a Dog | No One Belongs Here More Than You | Dhammapada | Watership Down | We | Lolita | The Chronicles of Narnia

Film: Synecdoche, New York | The Place Beyond the Pines | Being John Malkovich | Altered States| Tideland | Videodrome | Blue Valentine | Blue Velvet | Pump Up the Volume | Dogfight | May | The Cranes are Flying | True Romance | Lost in Translation | Moon | The Dreamers | Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind | Magnolia | Hellraiser | Dirty Filthy Love | Drive | Chungking Express | 3-Iron | Fallen Angels | Valley Girl | Dead Ringers | Old Boy | Lady Vengeance | La Jetee | I'm a Cyborg, But That's Ok | Nightmare on Elm Street | Dust Devil | Sick Girl | Me and You and Everyone We Know | The Royal Tenenbaums

Television: King of the Hill | Bob's Burgers | Portlandia | Twin Peaks | The Twilight Zone | Tales from the Crypt | Tales from the Darkside | The Outer Limits | Dexter | The Monkees | The Marvelous Misadventures of Flapjack

Music: Placebo | Blonde Redhead | Portishead | CocoRosie | The White Stripes | The Polyphonic Spree | The Monkees | Radiohead | Beach House | Why? | Roxy Music | Klaus Nomi | The Dresden Dolls | The Cure | Koop | Iron & Wine | Cursive | Air | Pulp | Pnau | Okay | Windmill

http://8tracks.com/deadfink
http://www.last.fm/user/belispeak

those looks
those nights
those words
those hands
those songs
even those disagreements

or maybe
empathy. I mean, that's the most important
affection
kitsch
sleep
a good book
a journal

conscious creation, existence, the true nature of reality (what does that even mean -- you feel me?), metaphysics, performance art, mushroom flashbacks, extraterrestrials, the smell of the E.T. adventure ride at Universal Studios, romance, flesh, opening a used book store/bakery, everything I "should" be doing -- getting ready for work, fixing my chipped nail polish, saving money, being practical.

I can't fit in this skin it's worn and useless thin.

SYNECDOCHE, NEW YORK (2008)

"What was once before you, an exciting and mysterious future, is now behind you — lived, understood, disappointing. You realize you are not special. You have struggled into existence and are now slipping silently out of it. This is everyone’s experience. Every single one. The specifics hardly matter. Everyone is everyone. So you are Adele, Hazel, Claire, Olive. You are Ellen. All her meager sadnesses are yours. All her loneliness. The gray, straw-like hair. Her red, raw hands. It’s yours. It is time for you to understand this. Walk. As the people who adore you stop adoring you, as they die, as they move on, as you shed them, as you shed your beauty, your youth, as the world forgets you, as you recognize your transience, as you begin to lose your characteristics one by one as you learn there is no one watching you and there never was, you think only about driving. Not coming from anyplace, not arriving anyplace, just driving, counting off time. Now, you are here. It’s 7:43. Now, you are here. It’s 7:44. Now, you are… gone."

"Live a good life. If there are gods and they are just, then they will not care how devout you have been, but will welcome you based on the virtues you have lived by. If there are gods, but unjust, then you should not want to worship them. If there are no gods, then you will be gone, but will have lived a noble life that will live on in the memories of your loved ones."
-- Marcus Aurelius

working, reading (goodreads), or watching netflix.

For a minute there I lost myself.

...your log has something to tell me.

You're the Clarence to my Alabama, the Sailor to my Lula, the Troy to my Lelaina.

You're eclectic without being pretentious. You want to run away together.

You look like Agent Dale Cooper. Or if you're Charlie Kaufman.

I have a degree in Religious Studies. If you can't grasp the importance of religious literacy in fostering compassion and understanding between various groups with differing belief systems then you probably shouldn't bother.

You want to take me on a date and you won't mind that I say "goodness gracious" on a regular basis.

New friends are great but ultimately I am looking for a serious monogamous relationship.