i'm twenty-four years old.

i'm a visual artist, a poet, and a dreamer. i'm a fan of music. i have a handful of great friends, and i am lucky to have an amazing family. i am confused in specific and in general, and my mission may possibly be to confuse you as well. i might be wrong.

i like to cook, but i'm not particularly great at it. i have a pasta maker.

i have worked in and out of grocery stores for over four years. it isn't something i want to turn into a "career". i hate corporations, all the mission statements and empty bullshit they push on everyone, then expect you to smile and take it. or maybe this is my view of the world. have a scared you off yet?

i would really like to learn how to tattoo, and succeed on my own terms with my painting and music. someday i would like to run my own little record label. or be an art teacher. however, my idea of success isn't exactly normal.
maybe travel around the country trying to sell art and make music until i starve to death.

I LIVE WITH MY MOTHER. sorry.

making ceramic penguins (as well as grotesque or gory, sometimes surprisingly cute, ceramic heads) :-p
writing poetry.
being corny, but making people laugh when i'm not trying to be funny.
spacing out.
being here. or there. or in between.
being humble and opinionated at the same time.

i'm not always good at saying what i'm thinking. if you see i have looked at your profile, but haven't spoken to you, it isn't because you aren't interesting; i just don't always have the words.

i'm short, shy, and willfully awkward. and sometimes people say that i look like Pauly Shore. i don't know if that's good or not.

i've been randomly asked at least three times if i'm from new york.

books:

i'm a fan of e.e. cummings, Dr. Seuss, Charles Bukowski, Henry Rollins, Buddy Wakefield....
i like Hamlet, but not Macbeth.

i'm a slow reader. i enjoy big words, learning new ones, and using simple ones to say big things.

i also enjoy cookbooks, art books, and dictionaries. and some comics.

movies:

the shawshank redemption, fight club, edward scissorhands, donnie darko, the eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, being john malkovich, one flew over the cuckoo's nest, say anything, pirates of the caribbean, little miss sunshine, american history x, amelie, benny and joon, powder, finding neverland, pi, nòi, high art, better off dead, ghost world, me and you and everyone we know, grosse pointe blank, brick, back to the future, waking life, 28 days later, the iron giant, serenity, v for vendetta, reservoir dogs, juno, wall-e, high fidelity, clerks, chasing amy, rocky horror picture show, once, before sunrise....

music:

the beatles, tom waits, mike patton, richard d. james, john frusciante, brian eno, converge, ani difranco, slint, charles mingus, ornette coleman, polly jean harvey, rachel's, david bowie, tara jane o'neil, king crimson, the red hot chili peppers, motion city soundtrack, city and colour, fugazi, ben gibbard, regina spektor, sonic youth, the velvet underground, the mountain goats, coheed and cambria....
currently digging - melanie, tristeza, joni mitchell, fun., maps and atlases....

food: i'm not picky, but there are definitely some canned meets i refuse to eat and i don't like dijon mustard or pimento cheese.
i love spicy food, pasta, homemade guacamole, hot tea, coffee, and beer.
and i drink a lot of water.

i like superheroes. and Keith Haring.

i hate this damn question. i'm thankful for loneliness, thankful for people that i love. hygiene is important, music is constant food, food is necessary, and if i didn't have a(n odd) sense of humor i would have committed suicide by now. no shit.

what's going to happen tomorrow, in a year, in ten years.... how did i end up here....
how good it feels to be, how nothing is what i expected....
what could have been, what never will be. love and lack there of. death. god and the lack there of.

you.
music in my head.
everything.

trying to find something to do. any suggestions?

i understand that conversation is a two-way thing, but i don't like being told to speak. contrary to popular belief, i am not a goddamn pet.

i am probably more frustrating, illogical, and introspective than you would like your potential date/boyfriend to be. i'm pretty ok with that. i'm still figuring myself out, still creating myself, and i hope i never rest.

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Mike McGee
"The Waffle Truth"

If God presented
itself to you
in the form
of a waffle
and said

“Marty, I’ve got a plan for you!
Tell the world of my imminent return!”

Would you answer to the name Marty and
do as God commanded?

Or

Would you cover God in syrup and
finish your breakfast?

you would like to get to know me.
you have noticed that i write in lower case letters and it doesn't bother you (it's not due to laziness, i practiced doing it on purpose; i actually love grammar).
you think dogs can smile back.
you have/like tattoos.
you have something to say.
you like the Muppets.
you think you can bring the better out of me.
you're patient.
you like the word "fuck" and all of it's many grammatical functions.
you can "sit me down, shut me up, tell me ten things I don't already know, and make me laugh...."