Some events of late have inspired me to make some changes to my profile...
My mother died on April 10, 2009. This came just a few short hours after there being some real hope in the treatment of her cancer. Hope can be a horrible thing.
But this event has made me seriously re-evaluate my life and the things I am doing with it. My life needs change.
For the most part I am going to start treating myself better.
I want to be braver. I want to be healthier
I want to have more adventures.
I want to learn]] more about pretty much everything.
I want to [travel.
I want to jump out of airplanes, and ride (more) rapids, and see the grand canyon.
I want someone who wants to join, encourage and enable these adventure.
Starting simple? I have a pair of roller blades that have only been worn 3 times. Want to teach me how to use them?

Now, don't get me wrong, I don't want to be on the go all the time. I'm not as young as I used to be. I need naps. So after all this exercise and adventure I want someone to curl up on the couch with me to watch movies and edit pictures of our grand, silly, joyous times.

Life it short...too short. I don't want to waste any of it anymore.

I have so much I want to do with my life. I want to be a Scream Queen and that will mean I have to kick ass and take names. So that is what I am gonna do.

I am a broken romantic. I am a quirky little theater geek with horrible insomnia who wants a financially stable adult to indulge my whims. I am mentally and emotionally stable and want someone to complete the structure. I don't want to be saved. I am not a princess in the tower. But, I really want someone to hold me until I fall asleep. Oh, and I am very much a Limerent. If you don't know what it means look it up. It is very important to understanding me.

And something that I have decided to add here due to many of the messages I have received:
I am not going to have sex with you. Assume that is is going to be such a long time and such an in depth "getting to know you" process that it just isn't going to happen.
Along those same lines: I do not want to see your penis. Again you can assume this is an "ever" kind of deal. I do not know in what universe it became ok for a man to message a woman he has never met sending her graphic pictures and soliciting sex.
Maybe I am just too old fashioned for this fast-paced internet world. But I want to take things slow. I want to know that someone is in it for the long haul. I am not cheap. I am not easy. And I have no intention of ever changing that.

I just moved to Chicago... I want to be doing more theater, short films, commercials and trying to find my fame as a scream queen in horror films. Sadly, some things are on hold while I work a miserable job and keep a roof over my head. But I will get back to following my bliss very very soon. I spend quality time with my cats. I read but not enough and I spend too much time with my TV. I am trying to get deeper into yoga and generally exploring the city.

Talking, listening, finding the best and worst in anything and anyone and being able to work with it. I am also good at finding the humor in most things...no matter how inappropriate.

My smile (if they make me smile) my love for my cats, the theater and my friends. My tattoos also tend to get quite a few remarks.

Books- Anything by Mark Helprin, Tom Robbins, Jasper Fforde and tons of other stuff. Movies- Amelie, I Heart Huckabees, SAW, Anything from Dario Argento. Big Fish, Moulin Rouge, Shaun of the Dead, Most TROMA Films. The Harry Potter Films. Bruce Campbell's stuff. Eternal Sunshine. Science of Sleep. Food-Sushi, steak, microwave and movie theater popcorn, martinis, Guiness (not really a food but should be), cheese fries, bacon, chocolate, beef jerky- especially my own. I make amazing beef jerky.

My cats, my friends, cheese, microwave popcorn, books, words, coffee, language, ink...

The nature of life, love and the balance of the universe. How to build a better mousetrap. How to make myself better. How to like myself more. How to get others to see the strength and beauty in themselves that I see. What I need to do to get a Chinchilla Kit. How many spoons I have each day (there is a story behind that). Where to find my bliss.

At home watching TV or doing movie nights with friends. Karaoke can also lure me from my cave. What can I say? I'm a dork and I like myself that way.

This may be the winter of my discontent...but Winters pass. I rarely sleep or I sleep way to much. I am not as tough as people think. I want to be spoiled.

You want to have coffee, take me to the movies, amuse me with funny stories and shiny things, want to give me tattoos or piercings or can give me something to help me sleep...or have a Chinchilla that needs a new home. I promise to take good care of it. Oh, and if you take me to get tattooed or pierced, you can watch...as long as the shop permits it. :-)