I've given up on love...Because it really kinda sucks....

Ok, so I'm Brian and I have no idea really what to put in here. How can someone possibly let people know what they are like through words. Yea, sure, i can write a descriptive essay about how i like to work out, work on cars, cook, read, spend time with my friends and just overall have a good time, but what would that really allow you to see about me? I believe that people can get to know each other in a variety of ways, but body language and basic communication is probably the best and easiest way to. If you do take the time to get to know me, you will learn that i am unlike any other guy that you probably will ever meet. I am caring, funny, sweet, and a bit of a hopeless romantic. I put my friends and loved ones before my self. I can be a bit obnoxious and an asshole at times too, so yea, it really just depends on the day that you catch me on and how you approach me and all. I don't know. I love running even though I never do it anymore. I love working out and working on cars and stuff. I like to hang out with my friends and drink beer and shoot the shit. I am incredibly passionate about music and I love my job. I hate lies. My favorite foods are anything italian or asian probably. I don't like tomatoes, mushroom's or squash. I'll try almost anything once. The only thing I find more relaxing than laying next to my girl while she's playing with my skin is a tattoo. Self confidence is a huge turn on, but arrogance is a turn off. Tattoo's and piercing's is probably the sexiest thing I know of other than the look the girl that I am absolutly crazy about gives me after not having seen me in a while and before she kisses me. I guess this is me in a nutshell. If i have even spiked your interest in the slightest, feel free to send me a message.

I am tall, funny, and outgoing

I'm currently the assistant manager of Buckle. So yes, ladies, I know how to dress and dress you. lol I am also in the US Army Guard and I recently was assigned to be a part of a specialized urban search and rescue/recovery team for the state. Considering that only 70 people from the entire state were selected for the team, and there are only 16 other teams like it in the entire country, I'm pretty honored to be apart of it.

Finding humor in almost anything, making people laugh, shooting cooking, and anything i really want to put my mind to, or thats what i've heard.

Apparently I am also really good at becoming just the friend or establishing amazing connections with women that live apparently too far away. I don't see what distance really has to do with anything. That is one of the few variables in a relationship that can be easily changed. Well, easier than most of the others. If being a hundred, or two hundred miles away is an issue, then what would happen if we did close that gap and find out that we in fact would have had an amazing, perfect loving relationship, but then i get re deployed? True love, trust, and compassion know no bounds in distance. It doesn't matter if you are ten feet, ten miles, or 10000 miles from someone you care about. The feelings are there, and they're not going to change.

My eyes, my tattoos, sense of humor, smile, honesty, and that i spend a bit of my time writing.

I love all kinds of music, seriously, I've got over 25,000 songs in my iTunes, and any movie will probably catch my interest in some way or another. I try to keep an open mind about everything.

This is something that i found online and it is very very true:

If you're not in love with a soldier, you can't know adventure. You don't know smelly gray PT uniforms that require a daily washing. You can't understand green and brown camouflaged bags flooding your bedroom floor.

If you're not in love with a soldier, you can't understand the meaning of the phrase "going to the field" and the weeks you spend away from each other.

If you're not in love with a soldier, you can never imagine the hole in your heart when that phone call comes? "Honey, I am leaving tomorrow to go overseas. I don't know how long I will be gone or exactly where I am going, but I want you to know that I love you - always!"

If you're not in love with a soldier, you don't know what it's like to say that final good-bye. You don't know what it really means to be glued to the television. You don't understand fear and you can't possibly understand the sleepless nights of endless crying wondering if you will ever see the love of your life alive again.

If you're not in love with a soldier, you can't know the immense joy, the uncontrollable smile, or the butterflies in your stomach when you see your soldier march into the family waiting area upon redeployment. You can't understand the self-control it takes to stand on the other side of the room as some higher-up gives a seemingly endless welcome home speech while all the soldiers stand in formation. You don't know what it's like to have that second first kiss or what it's like to experience puppy love all over.

If you're not in love with a soldier, you can't truly understand how to make every moment count because you never know when that phone call may come again.

If you're not in love with a soldier, you can never really understand how very delicate life is!

Friends
My computer
Water
cell phone
my dog
A gym

my friends problems and how to help them or just random ass stuff, and here lately that I'm getting to that point in my life where I just want to settle down and start a family.

And as bad as it seems, here lately, I cant help but think about my past and the decisions that I've made in my life and the things that I've done. I guess it comes with not being able to sleep well at night. IDK.

Nobody wins the lottery the first, second, or third time they play-sometimes it takes a few years. But how do you know that "last ticket" is "the one" if you never take that chance and play it. The proof is in the pudding. You just have to pull the foil back and see for yourself

Either working, or chilling with some friends at a concert or bar. Being that football season is upon us, I will be spending a majority of my weekend nights that are not spent in the studio broadcasting games, I will be down in Auburn cheering on my boys and rolling the trees. WDE!

I'm almost at the point of giving up on finding anything. I've been hurt too much in the past and I'm sick of it. I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve and because of that i get hurt a lot. I long to be loved by someone the way that i love them and one day settle down and start a family. And that i'm honestly a shy person. You put me around a group of people that I don't know, and I get pretty quiet and reserved.

Another thing...and this has been on my mind for a while, I just finally figured out how to put it into words...

You know, I don’t know what is worse about being a Veteran, the idea that people pity me, or that they fear me. Neither is appropriate and yet I get both, sometimes from the same person when I admit to being a Veteran. I can deal with being thanked, it’s awkward, because I really don’t think I’ve done anything more than any EMT, Fireman or Policeman, but even with my usual flippant reply “No, thank you”, I always make sure to leave the citizen with the impression that it is appreciated.

But how am I supposed to respond to questions about Post Traumatic Stress? PTSD has become so much of a catch phrase that the VA and AMEDD are actually thinking of changing the terminology. Doesn’t matter what they call it, I saw friends, in some cases good friends, killed or wounded. It wasn’t like a John Wayne movie where they clutch their gut and fall over. It was more graphic, more painful to watch, and more gut wrenching to keep my wits and treat them. This is usually the point that someone will say “I could never do that”. Yes you could. I did it, so can you.

There is no special gene that makes a soldier able to function in combat. There is no family background, or economic class that says that you can or cannot perform in combat. It doesn’t matter if you are stupid or smart, poor or rich. The truth about soldiers is that the only thing that makes us special is that we volunteered to do it.

In my life I have made many choices, some I regret, but enlisting then reenlisting was never one of them. I was pushed to my physical, mental and spiritual limits as a Soldier then pushed beyond them. I felt pain as one would not believe, and it did not break me. I have endured sweltering heat and freezing cold, and now I can say that such things do not faze me anymore. Through all the adversity I have learned who I am, on a level most people never dream of. This is not something you should pity, but rather envy, for if you do not know yourself how can you possibly find fulfillment in life?

Yes, I had an Acute Stress Reaction. Is that Post Traumatic Stress? Not according to the VA. Doesn’t matter if it does, it is what it is. Have I thought about committing suicide? Yes, I almost did twice. Once I was going to take my car as fast as it would go and ram a wall. The other time I was going to charge oncoming traffic. It took a long time, but I found the will to live, and to keep fighting daily for my wonderfully screwed up life.

I am a Veteran. I served this country faithfully and honorably. I am not a victim; you cannot be a “victim” if you are a willing participant. I have Post Traumatic Stress, but I do not “suffer” from it, it is a condition like any other that can be overcome. I am not a ticking time bomb, nor am I a blood thirsty psychopath. If some days are harder than others that simply means the good days will be that much better. So to every American out there I say, thank me if you must, but do not ever pity me.

Any of this catches your interest, you think i'm attractive, you live near me, for anyone of a multitude of reasons. I am looking for someone who will not lie or cheat, that will love me as whole heartedly as I love them. Someone that will not take advantage of the broken pieces of my heart. I've been single for a long time, and I'm ready to settle down, have a family, ready to find the kind of love that you see when you look at your grandparents, but also want to have fun along the way.

You should not message me if you're going to lie. I notice alot more than you think and I will either catch you in it or find out eventually. Do not message me if you're going to hold me to the same light as every other guy out there. I understand that chance's are you've been done wrong by a few guys. I've been done wrong by a few women myself. I promise you that i'm one of the most unique guys you'll ever meet and I am different, but if you're going to hold me to the same light as the last guy that broke your heart or whatever, then how do you expect to get to know the real me? I'm not going to do it to you. Every person is different. You've just gotta be willing to give them a chance sometimes.