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NOTICE: If you have received a "Message of Cosmic Love" from me, it just means that at some point I bounced across your profile and something in it made me pause and think you are a really cool person. You really don't have to feel obliged to respond, I really just wanted to give you a compliment.

Likewise, if I have viewed your profile, please don't be offended if it doesn't result in a Message of Cosmic Love. I frequently go on Profile Walkabout(tm) where I look at someone's "Similar Users" list and view a new profile. I then go to one of THEIR similar users and so on and so forth just to see where it takes me.

Everyone is welcome to message me back if I've viewed your profile or sent you a Message of Cosmic Love, but I'd be perfectly happy if you just smiled at a random stranger. We all could use a little more love in the world and you never know how much it could mean to someone that's unhappy (which is depressingly frequent it seems).

We now return you to your regularly scheduled Self-Summary, already in progress....
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I am a man and a boy and a father. I am human and I am flawed and perfect at the same time.

Every day is a good day until proven otherwise, because I choose to make it so. If I just woke up and nothing terrible has happened, I'm likely to respond to "how's it going?" with "Fantastic, as always." Even if I haven't had my coffee (and trust me, I'm not a morning person). I smile a lot because I am happy in my life, busy and stressful as it is. I adore my friends, even when they frustrate the hell out of me. I think perhaps I'm too judgmental of people though, including myself.

I am sarcastic, rambunctious, and teasing. I am also quiet and listen not just to words but to meaning. I hear what people's eyes say. I'm probably too clever for my own good, and not clever enough to have avoided that hubris. Sometimes though I'm fooled into thinking the banana is of the Freudian kind.

I am addicted to touch. I have found over the years that I crave and need hugs and physical contact. Not just from a lover, but from friends and family too. Perhaps that's why my cat doesn't like belly rubs? Because he thought I was a petting whore?

There are times I feel I am too filled with pride. Other times I am disgusted with myself. I like who I am though and hope to be an even better person in the future. I want to be worthy of my daughter's love and of a woman's love. I am a romantic at heart, but I learned to be jaded. I'm hoping to find it's a facade though.

I find that I frequently will say things tailored more for their amusement factor rather than 100% adherence to the truth. Many of my stories I tell about myself take on a grander scope. I still haven't included a blue ox yet, but I'm looking for an opportunity to.

I like words, a lot. Seriously. I have been known to send really long messages to complete strangers on here. I aspire to be a good raconteur but consider it a failure to use words that people have to look up. I amuse myself with the irony of the last sentence.

This is your warning. I am a nerd/geek/dork. I enjoy and am knowledgeable in non-mainstream subjects. I enjoy video games. I watch anime. I have geek related t-shirts that I have purchased at a convention. I was reading college level texts on sharks when I was in third grade and Shark Week is almost cause for taking time off work. If I had cable, Discovery Channel would be on constantly.

By now, you should have a pretty good start on understanding the public me. That should also provide at least a couple of conversation seeds if you want to message me.

What I'm doing with my life Propose an edit

Recently I've been doing a lot of reading about the philosophy of horror and psychology of how normally good people do terrible things. I'm starting to think more seriously about trying to write horror and so I'm consuming a number of books about it at an alarming rate. I just finished one the other night, so now I'm only reading five books simultaneously. That sounds impressive to some people, but anthologies are easy to mix up with other meatier books. Though I highly recommend The Dark Descent.

Sometimes I feel like I need to get out of my comfort zone that I've built here. Turn my world upside down and start over again to shake the dust from my spirit. Those times usually result in very good embarrassing stories.

I have a black belt in Aikido that I am very proud of.

From time to time, I kick myself and resume teaching myself Japanese.

I'm really good at Propose an edit

Understanding the way different people think and feel. I think I can usually understand someone else's point of view even on things I don't agree with. I have been accused of having an uncanny ability to know what people are thinking, but I think I'm just good at reading people's body language.

I feel I learn things quickly.

Recently I discovered that I can follow my grandfather's recipe for oatmeal raisin cookies very well. I am now challenging the female dominated domestic role. Hear me roar!

The first thing(s) people usually notice about me Propose an edit

That my hair hangs down past my waist. It frequently garners attention and starts jealous conversations from random people in elevators.

I smile a lot. But if I know there is a camera about, I have trouble keeping it. It's a struggle to resist giving the lens the stink eye.

Spend any amount of time with me away from work and people quickly find out I act shameless. Maybe it's because of when that accident happened at the chemical factory, when me and some other guy got attacked by a super villain and knocked into that vat of toxic waste. I kinda feel gypped because the other guy got super powers and apparently I only lost my shame gland. Actually, don't believe that it's because I have no shame, but it's really because I defy shame from subduing my actions. Or I try to.

My favorite books, movies, music, and food Propose an edit

This is probably my least liked essay question on OKC, so I confess I copped out and just put up a quote from The Prophet. I've come to realize that people's tastes in their preferred form of entertainment really does give clues into that person's personality though, so I'll concede and put up some of mine.

Books
The Lucifer Effect by Dr. Philip Zimbardo (that crazy man that brought us the Stanford Prison Experiment), The Song of Ice and Fire series by George R.R. Martin, Mistborn by Brandon Sanderson, numerous horror stories both short and long by numerous authors.

Movies
Oscar, The Pirates of Penzance, Mazes and Monsters, Deep Blue Sea, The Ring series (both the American and Japanese series, though the Ring 2 sucked), Predator, Real Genius, The Fifth Element, Stardust, Secondhand Lions, Steel Magnolias, Men of Honor, Kiki's Delivery Service, I can quote nearly all of Big Trouble in Little China.

Music
That 1 Guy, Frou Frou, Zero7, Louis Armstrong, Lenny Kravitz, Orbital, Adema, KT Tunstall, Garbage, Massive Attack, Rick Astley, The Yoshida Brothers, Old school Stevie Wonder, Christina Aquilera, Andrea Bocelli, Word Up by Cameo

Food
I am a great lover of a wide range of foods. It's easier to identify what I don't like than the long list of what I really enjoy. Needless to say, I can find something enjoyable just about anywhere I go to eat, and am usually quite adventurous in trying new things. Japanese and Italian cuisine do hold a special place in my heart though.

I now wonder what people will get from all that.

The six things I could never do without Propose an edit

Love, friends, the Internet (ugh, that one hurts to admit), private moments, laughing, and mental stimulation.

I spend a lot of time thinking about Propose an edit

I often wonder why time seems to go by so much faster nowadays but I don't feel much older or wiser.

I wonder what I would do if I lived in a primitive hunter/gatherer society.

Sometimes I'm curious about if I'll notice if I get old enough that my memory goes.

I wonder what data I am skewing by emphasizing seemingly random words.

Right now I'm pondering the fine nuances of the words "horror" and "terror."

On a typical Friday night I am Propose an edit

I usually spend my Friday nights at home with my daughter. I have her every weekend and Fridays are when we catch up on our time together.

The most private thing I'm willing to admit here Propose an edit

I once tongue kissed a black drag queen after giving her a $5 tip. But that's an old story and not too terribly private I suppose. How about, I sometimes cry at movies? I have watched soap operas? Hmm. None of these seems really private.

Here's a good one... secretly, I really enjoy it when strange women touch my hair. If they run their fingers through it, I'm usually putty pretty quickly. A friend of mine once brushed my hair for a half hour. It seriously reduced me to incoherent drooling. It's quite sad.

And also, I'm weary of short term relationships. I want to find someone fantastic that I can share with for years to come. I'm lonely for a deep relationship, but not desperate enough to settle.

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You should message me if Propose an edit

If you believe in the contagiousness of smiles.

If you have a unique flavor of quirky individualism.

If you know how to play Go. Or if you want to learn to play Go.

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