You can't offend me. I am typically only offended by stupidity or cruelty. And even then..... I can get cruel every now and then.....if you ask me nicely enough.

ANGEL: (It doesn't) Mean anything. In the greater scheme or the big picture, nothing we do matters. There's no grand plan, no big win.

KATE: You seem kind of chipper about that.

ANGEL: Well, I guess I kinda worked it out. If there is no great glorious end to all this, if nothing we do matters, then all that matters is what we do. 'cause that's all there is. What we do, now, today. - I fought for so long. For redemption, for a reward, finally just to beat the other guy, but... I never got it.

KATE: And now you do?

ANGEL: Not all of it. All I wanna do is help. I wanna help because I don't think people should suffer, as they do. Because, if there is no bigger meaning, then the smallest act of kindness is the greatest thing in the world.

Geeky, I know. And I always repeat it and bring it up. But honestly, I do everything I can to live by this. I really don't believe in a greater end. I don't believe in a sentient third party. I don't believe in a higher definition of right and wrong that will find justice metered in the end. I don't think right and wrong exists outside of how we each define it. Or how we definie it as a group.

Now.... that's not to say that I don't believe so strongly that some things are wrong that I am sickened by them.... I just mean that I don't think those definitions exist on some cosmic scale. There is no moral absolute.

Therefore, my empathy for anyone suffering IS my moral compass. And the only one I truly rely on. I will judge myself on how I treat others.

It's why I consider myself arrogant as fuck. But ::shrug:: I am what I am. =) It's not my fault that I was born with superior intellect, emotional IQ, and wisdom. heh heh heh heh.

While I take a passing interest in global politics, and while I can be worked up into a mild frenzy regarding the big decisions of world leaders.... for the most part I am only vaguely amused by the frantic scurrying of humans to collect power and money. Further... I think that the destruction of religion as a moral compass for those who can't understand the concept of the above quote has a HUGE potential to lead us into the hell on earth that Xtians are so afraid of. For most humans, the lack of threat of punishment from on high....ETERNAL punishment....robs them of all ability or compulsion to act in an ethical or moral manner.

But this doesn't concern me. I guess maybe that's super selfish. But I don't believe it is stoppable. I think in the history of the earth, every animal at the top of the food chain has killed themselves off. We're no exception. We will do it in our own way. And then the earth will recover and start over. Maybe with dolphins. Who knows?

So war? I don't like it. But the larger machinations may be working in our species' favour if we're up in every one else's bidniz and keeping a handle on nuclear technology in the hands of fascists and fundamentalists. Maybe. But meanwhile..... it is, as I said, individuals that suffer. And THAT is what interests me.THAT is what compels me.

I dig clever, quick witted, dark humoured, intelligent people. I like hanging out with people that can watch a gory horror movie and laugh with appreciation. I enjoy pop culture references and frequently breaking out into song. I am usually with the loud obnoxious group discussing and laughing about last night's adventures at brunch.

I have a low tolerance for prudishness. I have done my time in the kink and sex positive community and certainly one thing that drew me to it in the first place was a general disdain for taboo.

I do a lot of camping and day trips. I am a planner and an organizer. I like kayaking, hiking, horseback riding, canoeing, tubing, rafting, and just sitting around the campfire drinking and laughing on the weekends. I also enjoy having movie nights and a pub crawl once in awhile. But I am pretty over the partying every night phase of life. I enjoy staying in on the weeknights and reading, watching a movie or a good TV show, and sometimes working on a project.

I smoke cloves.

I live on the Hill, I work on the Hill, I socialize on the Hill. I am not opposed to leaving the Hill... I just don't drive so it's really more convienent this way.

I am just trying to figure out the how and why of this life. It seems like I am ever-questing to BECOME someone. But if life is change, then how would I ever accomplish such a task and why?

I am walking a thin line between the craving for stability and the idealistic belief in freedom from the contraints of socially accpetable and practical behavior.

"Be kind to me, or treat me mean. I'll make the most of it, I'm an extraordinary machine." ~Fiona Apple

I am quite good at discussing things and listening to your opinion. I am also pretty good at giving mine. Though I am more than a little likely to play the Devil's Advocate just because I think Satan is sadly misunderstood and a bit of a tragic figure. It's the Rabbit in me, I guess.

I am also a damn good cook, and I can kick your ass in Buffy, Angel, or Firefly trivia.

Also, I can just about quote The Princess Bride in it's entirety by heart.

To be honest, I have no idea what people notice about me first. Probably that I look very closely at things. My eyesight is for crap. I don't know that anything really stands out about me. Maybe I should start polling people....

Can I just make a straight up list here? Obviously. It's my keyboard and screen and I can do as I like with it.

Stephen King, Indian food, The Princess Bride, Harry Potter, Tolkein, Quills, Labrynth, The Dark Crystal, Hitchiker's Guide To The Galaxy, Thai food, ice cream, The White Stripes, Cold War Kids, Leonard Cohen, Tom Waits, Van Morrison, fish and chips, Powder, Magnolia, A Knight's Tale, Son of a Witch, Wicked, pickles, Ghostland Observatory, Cyndi Lauper, Serenity, Joss Whedon, The Outsiders, A Wrinkle in Time, tacos, chocolate, Michael Franti, Smallville, knitting and crochet, Pinot Grigio, Ethiopian, California rolls, horror movies, His Dark Materials, The Master and Margarita, The Watership Down, Hummus, Leverage, Rescue Me, Kings of Leon, blues, Quills, 80's butt rock, Big Bang Theory, CHEESE!!! and a million more things I can't think of at this moment.

Texting, NetFlix, ice cream, fuzzy socks, a DVD player, and my Zune.

I spend tons of time thinking about the nature of the universe and what this all means, if it means anything. I think about the people in my life and what they might be up to. And I sepnd plenty of time in fantasies and dreams of personal utopia. I daydream about running off to The Congo to do volunteer work, or becoming one of those stinky travelling hippies with no personal belongings and dreads that have picked up travelling karma and can't be washed. =)

Fridays will usually find me hanging out with friends. Either making people dinner and playing cards at my place, or out carousing, drinking, and engaging in general debauchery. In summer, it is bound to find me leaving for camping, or somewhere setting up camp.

Sometimes I am convinced that I just don't know anything about anything.

Message me if you think you have something to say, if you are a fellow Whedonphile, or if you just don't have anything better to do.

Also, if you DO want to write, or talk, or go out.... or anything... message me. It isn't that I am rude.... but I DO delete messages that advise me that someone has added me as a favorite or sent me a woo, or taken a MatchMe test. It isn't that I don't want people to do those things... feel free. But send me a message if you want to make contact.