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Figure Me Out

Aug 10, 2009

Maybe if everything turned upside down
and the world started spinning at a faster pace,
I'd fall off.
I don't understand me.
I wait and I wait for someone to unravel me
and the knots inside me I just don't get...
I'd do it myself, but I can't tell where I end
or begin.
I'm upside down and all around and cannot seem to find the ground.
I don't understand me.
I'm fighting thin air.
I'm talking silently.
I'm thinking about nothing.
I don't understand me.
But maybe you do.

I can't get any words to come out right lately. I can't write, I can't draw... I can't express what I'm feeling. GOD IT'S FRUSTRATING.
What was the point of this? Damn, who knows... I'm just frustrated with myself. I wish someone would figure me out. I've been trying for 18 years, and I'm still at square one.

Maybe if everything turned upside down
and the world started spinning at a faster pace,
I'd fall off.
I don't understand me.
I wait and I wait for someone to unravel me
and the knots inside me I just don't get...
I'd do it myself, but I can't tell where I end
or begin.
I'm upside down and all around and cannot seem to find theground.
I don't understand me.
I'm fighting thin air.
I'm talking silently.
I'm thinking about nothing.
I don't understand me.
But maybe you do.

I can't get any words to come out right lately. I can't write, Ican't draw... I can't express what I'm feeling. GOD IT'SFRUSTRATING.
What was the point of this? Damn, who knows... I'm just frustratedwith myself. I wish someone would figure me out. I've been tryingfor 18 years, and I'm still at square one.

Figure Me Out
Lithium. You've just described a bi-polar mixed episode. Lithium will straighten it all out. That will be a $!50.00 consultation fee. Visa? Mastercard? AMEX?

A former user commented on Aug 10, 2009

I wish life came with an instruction manual. I too am trying to figure out my purpose in life. Cary Grant said it best "My formula for living is quite simple. I get up in the morning and I go to bed at night. In between, I occupy myself as best I can. "

A former user commented on Aug 11, 2009

An image of gc7688 No, you can write that was a nice poem expressing your frustations that your feeling right now. It's hard to not be able to express emotions at times, but it is what is. They tend to be complicated, but yes it is complicated and incredibly frustrating. Sometimes square one is the best place to be. Someone will figure you out, you'll see.

gc7688 commented on Aug 11, 2009