I learned how to meditate when I was 21 years old, and that has
been the biggest turning point in my life thus far. When meditation
just happened to me, I found that I could finally feel
self-confidence about who I was. Needless to say, I felt relieved
to the core of my being. Once I discovered that I could consciously
be in a place of peace and ease, a place where I was unfolding and
unraveling, all I wanted to do was be in that place. I became
driven about feeling present, because really being present felt
like my only salvation.
So, my next big thing was finding bodytalk and being healed by a
bodytalk practioner. I found bodytalk when I was 23, and even
though I could meditate it helped me become aware of so much more
Bodytalk is a form of energy medicine and a very powerful healing
technique. I immensely look forward to the regular bodytalk
sessions that I get. They are the highlight of any week. I treasure
all the realizations that I have had as a result of this work. I
have reached a deeper level of happiness then I could have reached
on my own.
Some keywords that relate to my lifestyle: eco conscious,
environmentally friendly, awareness, intentional, spiritual,
sustainable, sustainability, authenticity, spiritual awakening,
centered, equanimity, mindful, earthships (a little something that
inspires me), ecovillages (because it is nice to find ways to honor
our inter-connectedness), empowered, and empowerment.
Some thoughts on being a good human: To be available to people not
with your time but with your heart takes an openness, an
acknowledgment of our human connection as equals. This openness
creates a palpable space and is possible when the mind chooses not
to accept or reject anything. This openness is the foundation of
kindness, patience, and being humble. It makes me feel like a good
human to offer this kind of space to another.
I am passionate, trustworthy, and honest
What I’m doing with my life
To me, living in this world is living with dysfunction. I know
there is no reason to resent, complain, or make this truth
But I am confronted with the knowing that few have
reached the level of consciousness or awareness it takes to remedy
all the destruction we are causing.
So, I want to be of service and am working towards that end.
Becoming an elementary school teacher is my goal, but I dislike
much of the process. I think that the most important thing for kids
to learn is how to meditate
, but I know that this
is something we have yet learned how to successfully teach in
schools. So, I have to find a way to fit into this culture to make
a livelihood. What keeps me going is knowing that I am meant to
pursue this calling. The recognition alone does bring happiness,
even while facing all the challenges. (And it is a challenge to
know that many more people will have to awaken to themselves to
embrace the simplicity of a different lifestyle. Inner awareness is
the only real remedy to societies problems.)
I mostly enjoy walking
and bike riding
but I also
occasionally go skiing
, white water rafting
, and rock
. I play a little guitar but do not consider myself a
musician. I like to sing but do not consider myself a singer. I
enjoy many things.
I’m really good at
I am good at being a positive thinker, it was something that I had
to learn. Positive thinking has its limitations but at the time I
learned how to do it it represented a giant leap forward in my
evolution, as I found I was no longer as depressed and full of
The first things people usually notice about me
So much of what people look for only really reflects their own
values and filters. Taking pause during a conversation to close my
eyes and center myself can to some may be a sign that I am not
being myself, maybe that I don't want to be myself around them. So
there are many interpretations and often we let how other people
view us merge with our own view of ourselves. This is a painful
process that is ego driven and doesn't have anything to do with who
I have been told that I have a small ego, that I haven't formed a
lot of beliefs, and that I am present. But none of these thoughts
should become part of my identity.
Favorite books, movies, shows, music, and food
I usually prefer silence to music; I like the
stillness of just being aware of my thoughts and my
surroundings. When I do listen to music I like it to energize
me---I like it when it celebrates life, when it is happy music.
Krishna Das makes me happy. I like eating organic, whole foods. I
read books like "The Power of Now" by Eckhart Tolle and anything by
Byron Katie. I especially like movies that are true stories and
documentaries that educate me. I recently saw "Food, Inc." and
found it to be enlightening.
The six things I could never do without
I have spent time out in the wilderness without a lot (i.e. heat,
electricity, tv, etc.) and know that it can be quite liberating. I
like being rugged with nothing but the essentials. It can
make me feel alive to weather the elements. I feel like I get in
touch with myself when things are stripped down to the bare
necessities. I love the wilderness. What I don't want to
live without is a healthy mind---that is why I find it so important
to be present. When I am present it feels like my mind is healing.
Once you've tasted that healing space I find you just want more of
I spend a lot of time thinking about
I like to contemplate those things that bring me joy, usually
things that help me to enlighten up. Recently, I have been
contemplating some ancient Tibetan Buddhist teachings on happiness.
Its called "The 16 Guidelines for Living a Happy and Meaningful
Life." Finding spiritually alive material makes me happy.
On a typical Friday night I am
I like finding events/info on people who are making this world a
better place. I like entertainment that educates me. Most of the
time, I am pretty frugile and take care to think about what to
spend money on. I find that I live abundantly without a lot of
money because I am only interested in healthy venues.
The most private thing I’m willing to admit
I came out of the closet as a lesbian when I was 17 years old. This
is not a private thing. Private things should be a way of
respecting the ego, not reinforcing it. Unfortunately, my sexual
orientation felt like a secret, a way of feeling inferior. It
wasn't until I went to an all women's college and stopped feeling
like a minority, that I overcame my feelings of being alone. By
being willing to share those things that would otherwise keep
people's unconscious beliefs alive we reach deeper levels of
honesty with ourselves. There is no such thing as gaydar so it now
feels good to feel comfortable asking someone if they are
Eventually I realized I was bisexual but I have a preference for
You should message me if
You should message me if you are interested and think that we have
something in common. Feel free to email me, I like to chat with new
So that is the end of my profile. Below are some added thoughts
that I just didn't feel like deleting.
I consider myself a peaceful person, someone who knows that living
with an awareness of the ego, the false self, means that you have
awakened to the problem of misidentification. For example, when you
are aware of your ego you find serenity in allowing yourself to
feel anger but not BE angry---knowing that not
making your anger an identity brings peace. In a world dominated by
the ego, I know that sometimes the only peace to be found is the
peace that comes from inside.