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My self-summary Propose an edit

It has been a long time coming. The most concise way I can describe my life so far is that I've thrown away all the things I thought I should be and I just am.
It has taken a lot of pain (physical and emotional) to get to this point of relief, but it has all been worth it to take that first step towards what was first unknown. I never thought I'd be here, but if this is what it takes it's worth it.
I grew up in Louisiana but never felt like I belonged here. I still don't know why I moved back, but I'm finishing up school and working towards a career. I've lived in Canada and Minneapolis, MN and loved both places. I learned so much about myself and others and those experiences have helped me come out of my shell. (Who knew there was so MUCH in there?!)
I used to be really quiet and shy (though some still say I'm quiet but I think they're just not listening or paying attention) but I'm more outgoing and silly. My life experiences have also given me the capacity for greater compassion for all people even if I can't completely understand. I know more than anything what it's like to be misunderstood. I also have this thing for beautiful disasters. Maybe it's just my narcissism.
My greatest strength (and I think this goes for everyone) is my greatest weakness. I'm a sensitive person, and I consider that something powerful. That doesn't mean I cry all the time or take people the wrong way or am super clingy. It just means I'm highly aware of others and myself. Over the years I've learned to control it and make it work in my favor instead of getting out of control. But I care deeply about people, especially the ones closest to me.
My interests and talents heavily lie in the fine arts and liberal arts/humanities. I think a lot, love to understand people (get to know people and hear their stories), and I have a bit of a creative side which can be expressed in music and performance(which I haven't done in years, but I've been told I'm a kick ass actor). I do a little creative photo editing too as a hobby.
Anything else you want to know, just ask. I'm an open book and very honest about myself. I'm super easy...to get to know and talk to. I love to make friends and I take care of my people.
I'm also seeing a really great guy financefreak.

What I'm doing with my life Propose an edit

I am currently going to school, majoring in Political Science Pre Law and minoring in Philosophy. I'll be graduating in May. FINALLY!
I'm hoping to move in about 9 months to northern California (either there or the Northeast or if the chance so happens somewhere out of the US)
I'm trying to discover my passion. My life has changed so much it seems rather empty. Every foundation I had has crumbled, so to speak. So, I'm trying to find a meaning to life.
Not doing much other than that. Just keeping my eyes on the prize. After school I think I'll find more opportunity as I branch out and start job searching, and my goals will begin to define. Where I live isn't conducive to creativity or self discovery.

I'm really good at Propose an edit

I'm pretty good at playing piano (by ear), writing, cooking, acting, and public speaking. The first three are very cathartic. They all relax me and help me escape from my world. I love to cook for people.
Acting and public speaking give me a rush. I'm not a real extrovert (probably a mix of both introvert and extrovert depending on my mood), but I love being in front of crowds. There's a certain power that is had holding a large group of people's attention and them enjoying whatever it is I'm doing whether acting or speaking. Also, I'm a decent dancer. That's pretty much the only reason I go to the clubs. It's probably the most fun I ever have just dancing around with my friends and cutting up.
I'm also pretty good at making people laugh unexpectedly- my humor is usually ironic/sarcasm. I'm also good at saying what's on everyone's mind and getting away with it. I'm a good listener too. I'm sometimes the guy to go to when having a difficult time and I just let people talk my ear off. But it's all good cause I love to listen- but I'm not a gossip. I don't like gossips cause I don't like being gossiped about, and I think that's a fair standard.

The first thing(s) people usually notice about me Propose an edit

I have more going on upstairs than downstairs. (translated: I'm not a whore). I have a warm friendly personality and people seem to be really comfortable around me. I think it's because I have a very innocent face. And sometimes people tell me things that they wouldn't openly share with others.
Also, I've been complimented on my speaking voice several times. A couple of people have told me that it's sexy and another person said they could listen to me talk all day.
Oh, and I gesticulate. People usually notice that right away too.

My favorite books, movies, music, and food Propose an edit

I don't get to read much outside of class. So, my favorite books come from my classes. And my favorite professor, Dr. Bryan-Paul Frost, always has the best books picked out for his classes. He's my political philosophy professor. So, here it goes:
Xenonphon: Memorabilia, Education of Cyrus; Homer's Iliad; The Histories of Herodotus (seriously one of the funniest books I've read and one of the most interesting, can't wait to finish it); The Imperial Presidency by Arthur Schlesinger, Jr. (another really interesting book. I haven't finished it YET. This guy gives a superb explanation of growing Presidential power through foreign policy, specifically war. It really is a great read, very well written); I also like Ann Coulter. Just ask, so many others have. I don't feel like explaining myself. Yes, I know she's rash; but that's why I like her. You have to get my humor to possibly comprehend why I'd like her.

My favorite movies are: Interview with the Vampire (I LOVE vampires), Fight Club (not a Brad Pitt fan, but definitely an Edward Norton fan), Running With Scissors, Just Friends (love Ryan Reynolds), Curious George, X-Men, 28 Days (not 28 Days Later), Elizabethtown, Borat, No Country For Old Men, Scary Movie (all them, but not so much the last one), Superstar, Saved!, American History X, Good Will Hunting, Juno, Definitely Maybe, Kill Bill, Wanted, Moulin Rouge and the list goes on and on.
My favorite music: Jonny Lang, Ray Charles, Lifehouse, Amy Winehouse, Tracy Chapman, Ray Lamontagne, Queen, Bonnie Tyler, Kelly Clarkson, Fleetwood Mac, Whitney Houston, Britney Spears, Mat Kearney, Mindy Smith, Justin Timberlake, Alanis Morissette, Damien Rice, Emmylou Harris, Sarah McLachlan, Alison Krause, and definitely more.
Food- I love to cook Italian. Pasta is a gift from above. I also like food south of the border and Middle Eastern cuisine.

The six things I could never do without Propose an edit

I could never do without a piano because that is my first and foremost way of expressing my emotions by myself. It soothes me and is like a second voice. When I'm overwhelmed or just down I play the piano and sometimes sing...and sometimes cry. Sorry, I'm a baby sometimes.

Second, a working bathroom including a shower and a toilet. Cleanliness is next to godliness.

Third music. I'm a sensitive guy and I utilize my emotions a lot (again, it doesn't mean I cry all the time- I just feel a lot of things). Music is so expressive I just couldn't live without it. Life would be dull.

Fourth, the internet and that would include a computer prima facie. The internet is probably where I waste the most time but I just can't help it. I can keep in touch with friends all over the place and have a vast majority of information at my disposal.

Fifth, my car, Hootie. Yeah, my car has a name and my friends are the ones who helped me name him. I drive an '03 Mazda 6. Me and Hootie have been everywhere. Canada, all over the midwest including Wisconsin, Minnesota, and Missouri. I love my car. He's like my best friend. I've cried, laughed, gotten violently angry...so many memories in that car. He's like my permanent home.

And lastly, people. I love people. I like watching them. I like listening to them. I care about people. I hate seeing people hurt. I even cringe and feel bad when I watch slasher movies. I like figuring people out and testing them. Giving random responses to questions or comments and watching people respond trying to make sense out of nonsense. And then I just laugh at them afterwards cause it's funny. But isn't that what life is- nonsense that we're trying to reason?

I spend a lot of time thinking about Propose an edit

I spend a lot of time thinking about life and analyzing things. Most of the time arguments in my head. Not arguing with myself, just debating ideas and issues in my head.
I think about death a lot too. I guess I'm an existentialist. Now, I'm not a dark gloomy guy. I've dealt with suicidal depression a couple times and when you get to that point, life doesn't look the same anymore. Am I depressed a lot? No. But, when you get to the point of being ready to die, it stays with you. It's not something that's easy to forget. So, I think about how much time I have left. What will I do with my life? Is what I'm doing worth it? Usually it just makes me anxious because I start to realize I don't have enough time to do what I want to do and will get too old to do anything.
Socrates said that the examined life is superior to the unexamined life(in more or less words). I try to do that, but then no matter which direction I see myself going in life still seems empty.
I also think about politics and how society interacts on different levels and how to solve different problems. I also think a lot about God and reason. I think God (or more so the idea of God, now) was my first love, actually. But that left me more heart broken than anything. It kind of reminds me of the experiment with that monkey with the cloth mother. I guess you can think of it that way.

On a typical Friday night I am Propose an edit

I don't have much of a life right now. Louisiana is absolute buzz kill. But on Saturday I'm usually out with my best bud James.

The most private thing I'm willing to admit here Propose an edit

I bleed love. I can't ride a bike with no handlebars. I have a pocket full of sunshine. I'm worse at what I do best. I believe I can fly. I have the ability to save the world, but I can only do it once. I've got my sights set on you and I'm ready to aim. And I'm really lame sometimes.

You should message me if Propose an edit

Message me if you're cool and reasonable and friendly. I'm a really laid back guy, so I like the same in other people. (I can only take so much drama and then you get the boot) But I don't like boring people either. Pretty much I'm looking for an outgoing guy (outgoing not meaning wild and crazy and horny) that is intellectual and laid back and fun/funny and sporadic but also down to earth and comfortable with himself. Also, if you look really good in green and sweaters.(<--- I almost deleted this but it's staying for novelty purposes) I get along with most people in general, unless you're a liar and a hypocrite.
And I'm really friendly so I'm always looking for friends too. Actually, I'd rather be friends with someone before I date them.

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