I work at a startup. I'm one of the founders, and I run the tech side of things. My goal is to make a lot of money, so that I can stop working for a while and focus on other things. It's worked before. I took 2 years off before my current company, and spent the time traveling and experimenting.

I have an active meditation practice, and it's an important part of my life. It's actually a much longer story than that, but if you're interested, you can ask. I like to read psychology, and neuroscience, and developmental biology, and physics, and pretty much everything that bears on the question of what we are. Although I must say, lately I don't read nearly as much as I used to. The words have been getting in the way.

Right now, my favorite thing to do is to sit (or lie) and gaze into another person's eyes for a long long time. It's more interesting than any drug that I know of... if you're interested, let me know.

Relationships have always been a challenge for me. I know some of the reasons, but not all of them. It comes down to fear though. I'm not even sure exactly what it is that I'm afraid of... we can say it's "fear of intimacy", and that might be true, but it doesn't explain why it is that intimacy leads to fear. Is it because I'm afraid that I'm going to be really seen, and then discarded? Possibly. Am I afraid that I'll be exposed, that I don't really know how to be a real human being? That could be it. Am I afraid that I'll feel so much love that I'll forget to take of myself? Or that I'll completely dissolve in love and I'll die? Could be. I'd like to explore this...

Books: The Monster at End of This Book, anything by A.H. Almaas, Space Time Knowledge, The Book of Secrets (or anything by Osho), Seuss, crackpot interpretations of quantum physics, Wilhelm Reich, neuroscience texts, Borges, Rumi, Robert Anton Wilson, Tarthang Tulku.

Movies: The final scene of The Good, the Bad and the Ugly. I also watch some TV in my spare time.

Music: mix tapes, Dylan, Cat Stevens, Johnny Cash, Paul Potts, Django Reinhardt, Ludwig van Beethoven, Wagner, Theodore Bikel, 80s Alt-Pop, The Weathergirls, Barry White, anything that I can dance to, mix tapes.

This, Is, Not, The, Hidden, Message

Lately, I've been thinking about space. Not outer space, just ordinary space. When we're sitting across the dinner table, with a few feet of space in between us... what is that?! Why doesn't everything happen in the same location at once? How does matter arise out of space, and where do non-material phenomena arise from?

You're not sure who you are. Maybe you're an artist, or from another country, or maybe you wake up in the middle of the night with nightmares and you don't know why. Maybe you feel moved by music to a degree that you can't describe in words, or you love easily, and you want to love more, but you're afraid of being hurt. Or maybe you're a tantrika, or a quantum physicist, or a psychic, or a jellyfish, or an alien. Or maybe you're just another ordinary person like me.