(NOTICE:: I currently do not have reliable access to the
internet. Communication from me will be limited as a
result.)
You can call me J. I'm a fire-blooded kid with galaxies between my ears, cathedrals beneath my ribs, and snowstorms in the palms of my hands. That's probably the most accurate statement on this whole profile, but do read on if you wish.
The most important point of my profile is this: I have what can only be classified as Dissociative Identity Disorder, and have been experiencing this phenomenon with varying severity for the past decade. Our "system" currently stands at at least 17 other members besides myself. For all intents and purposes, I consider them to be my family, and I love them all with my entire heart. If you get to know me in any way, shape, or form, I guarantee you will meet at least one of them.
Since this is a "dating site," let me clarify that I do not identify as female, despite living in the body of one, and I'm queer as hell no matter what I do.
In truth, I identify as androgynous, but I do use male or neutral pronouns and I WILL identify as male if forced to choose a binary option.
I'm also asexual and demi-panromantic, but I LOVE EVERYBODY platonically. In any case I highly value emotional honesty; depth and openness in this respect is the major factor when it comes to showing intimacy in all my relationships.
Still, most days I have no idea why I'm even on this website, haha.
Personality-wise, I'm approximately an INFJ and a 5w6-9w1-4w5, although this is not set in stone. I see myself most clearly in the third person and my sense of self tends to be mercurial, so I find psychological assessments to be both intellectually fascinating and maddeningly inconclusive. That's what makes 'em fun though!
Despite my perplexing state of psychological affairs, I'm optimistic, compassionate, loving, and rather childlike for my age (so I've been told). I see the world quite differently from most but I can't get enough of life. Everything fascinates me! There's so much beauty in the world that it outright moves me to tears some days.
I do tend to be the 'quiet kid' despite my incessant inner vibrancy. I treasure silence and do not speak unless I feel it is warranted; ironically, when I do begin to speak, I can ramble on for hours on a single topic if not interrupted. The problem here is that I can talk AT people very easily, but talking TO people is frequently confusing and overwhelming. I have rather poor social skills, but I do love people, so I am working to improve this.
I am addicted to knowledge/understanding, especially in more esoteric fields; this is fueled by my deep and undying sense of wonder and love for this world, as well as the many other worlds beyond it. I constantly look for new perspectives and explanations to matters in my life, and have a predilection towards symbols and archetypes. I'm a painfully deep thinker and have been known to get lost in introspective conversations until ungodly hours of the morning, no kidding. (If you are willing and able to do this with me, congratulations, we're buddies for life.)
I also have a deep fascination with the mind, heart, and spirit, which compels me to research such fields as parapyschology and oneirology to near-obsession if the mood strikes.
I have a passion for world-building and express this through various forms of art and literature. Thanks to this I am enamored by all sorts of strange creatures (sometimes literally *cough*), the more fantastical the better. I am somewhat obsessed with gemstones, rainbows, and iridescent things of all kinds as well, which stands in stark contrast to my oddly lingering fascination with the macabre side of life.
I have music in my head almost constantly. I get entire orchestral pieces, rock epics and stupidly catchy pop songs playing up there, and it's all completely new to me. I only wish I knew how to convert them to digital or traditional mediums accurately enough... it's my single most frustrating blessing.
As of late I appear to be developing a curious sort of synaesthesia as well. I've always had a notorious sensitivity to colors, atmospheres, textures, sounds, expressions, etc., so to me, this is simply the next logical step up in terms of perception. Unfortunately this sensitivity of mine, despite its beauty, can quickly drive me to sensory overload, resulting in my total dissociation from reality until I can recover.
I am debatably a Crest of Light-holding Mage of Hope with a Ghost/Fairy element pairing (thanks, weird dreams!), but heaven knows fandoms are confusing enough the way it is.
Lastly, "iridize" means both "to make iridescent"-- obvious in my glittery-eyed view of the world and Care Bear intensity optimism on my best days-- and "to cover with iridium," a substance which is incidentally the "most corrosion-resistant metal known." That means a lot to me, personally.
That's all I have to say right now (heaven only knows why I feel compelled to write so much), so I'll be off.
"Everything you do right now ripples outward and affects everyone. Your posture can shine your heart or transmit anxiety. Your breath can radiate love or muddy the room in depression. Your glance can awaken joy. Your words can inspire freedom. Your every act can open hearts and minds."
You can call me J. I'm a fire-blooded kid with galaxies between my ears, cathedrals beneath my ribs, and snowstorms in the palms of my hands. That's probably the most accurate statement on this whole profile, but do read on if you wish.
The most important point of my profile is this: I have what can only be classified as Dissociative Identity Disorder, and have been experiencing this phenomenon with varying severity for the past decade. Our "system" currently stands at at least 17 other members besides myself. For all intents and purposes, I consider them to be my family, and I love them all with my entire heart. If you get to know me in any way, shape, or form, I guarantee you will meet at least one of them.
Since this is a "dating site," let me clarify that I do not identify as female, despite living in the body of one, and I'm queer as hell no matter what I do.
In truth, I identify as androgynous, but I do use male or neutral pronouns and I WILL identify as male if forced to choose a binary option.
I'm also asexual and demi-panromantic, but I LOVE EVERYBODY platonically. In any case I highly value emotional honesty; depth and openness in this respect is the major factor when it comes to showing intimacy in all my relationships.
Still, most days I have no idea why I'm even on this website, haha.
Personality-wise, I'm approximately an INFJ and a 5w6-9w1-4w5, although this is not set in stone. I see myself most clearly in the third person and my sense of self tends to be mercurial, so I find psychological assessments to be both intellectually fascinating and maddeningly inconclusive. That's what makes 'em fun though!
Despite my perplexing state of psychological affairs, I'm optimistic, compassionate, loving, and rather childlike for my age (so I've been told). I see the world quite differently from most but I can't get enough of life. Everything fascinates me! There's so much beauty in the world that it outright moves me to tears some days.
I do tend to be the 'quiet kid' despite my incessant inner vibrancy. I treasure silence and do not speak unless I feel it is warranted; ironically, when I do begin to speak, I can ramble on for hours on a single topic if not interrupted. The problem here is that I can talk AT people very easily, but talking TO people is frequently confusing and overwhelming. I have rather poor social skills, but I do love people, so I am working to improve this.
I am addicted to knowledge/understanding, especially in more esoteric fields; this is fueled by my deep and undying sense of wonder and love for this world, as well as the many other worlds beyond it. I constantly look for new perspectives and explanations to matters in my life, and have a predilection towards symbols and archetypes. I'm a painfully deep thinker and have been known to get lost in introspective conversations until ungodly hours of the morning, no kidding. (If you are willing and able to do this with me, congratulations, we're buddies for life.)
I also have a deep fascination with the mind, heart, and spirit, which compels me to research such fields as parapyschology and oneirology to near-obsession if the mood strikes.
I have a passion for world-building and express this through various forms of art and literature. Thanks to this I am enamored by all sorts of strange creatures (sometimes literally *cough*), the more fantastical the better. I am somewhat obsessed with gemstones, rainbows, and iridescent things of all kinds as well, which stands in stark contrast to my oddly lingering fascination with the macabre side of life.
I have music in my head almost constantly. I get entire orchestral pieces, rock epics and stupidly catchy pop songs playing up there, and it's all completely new to me. I only wish I knew how to convert them to digital or traditional mediums accurately enough... it's my single most frustrating blessing.
As of late I appear to be developing a curious sort of synaesthesia as well. I've always had a notorious sensitivity to colors, atmospheres, textures, sounds, expressions, etc., so to me, this is simply the next logical step up in terms of perception. Unfortunately this sensitivity of mine, despite its beauty, can quickly drive me to sensory overload, resulting in my total dissociation from reality until I can recover.
I am debatably a Crest of Light-holding Mage of Hope with a Ghost/Fairy element pairing (thanks, weird dreams!), but heaven knows fandoms are confusing enough the way it is.
Lastly, "iridize" means both "to make iridescent"-- obvious in my glittery-eyed view of the world and Care Bear intensity optimism on my best days-- and "to cover with iridium," a substance which is incidentally the "most corrosion-resistant metal known." That means a lot to me, personally.
That's all I have to say right now (heaven only knows why I feel compelled to write so much), so I'll be off.
"Everything you do right now ripples outward and affects everyone. Your posture can shine your heart or transmit anxiety. Your breath can radiate love or muddy the room in depression. Your glance can awaken joy. Your words can inspire freedom. Your every act can open hearts and minds."
