Blamed, framed and shamed.....a sweet hearted soul who was woefully
wronged but finally out of the bad relationship that lasted far too
long and went nowhere. At this time, I am focusing on moving
forward in a positive way. I don't really feel an urgency to date
yet, as I'm really enjoying some "me" time....but it would be fun
to have a friend to enjoy summer's activities with on Martha's
Vineyard. The summer is already flying by!
LOVE AFTER LOVE
The time will come
when, with elation,
you will greet yourself arriving
at your own door, in your own mirror,
and each will smile at the other's welcome
and say, sit here. Eat.
You will love again the stranger who was yourself.
Give wine. Give bread.
Give back to your heart
to itself, to the stranger who has loved you
all your life, whom you ignored
for another, who knows you by heart.
Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,
the photographs, the desperate notes,
peel your own image from the mirror.
Sit. Feast on your life.
-- Derek Walcott
A BLESSING FOR BROKEN TRUST
TRUST….is one of the most beautiful things in the world, and it's
amazing how we never notice how we use it so naturally until it's
either lost or broken, or abused. And when Trust is broken, it's
very hard to build it again -- but it can be built. And sometimes
the mistake is if your Trust is betrayed, the mistake is to hang on
to the regret of it….and to become bitter. In that way, YOU are
completely defeated. Because only those who become bitter are truly
So this is a Blessing for broken Trust:
Sometimes there is an invisible Raven that will fly low to pierce
the shell of Trust, when it has been brought near to ground. When
he strikes, he breaks the Faith of years that had built quietly
through the seasons in the rhythm of tried and tested experience.
With one strike the shelter is down and the black yolk of Truth
turned False would poison the garden of Memory.
Now the heart's dream turns to Requiem, offering itself a poultice
of tears to cleanse from loss what cannot be lost. Through all the
raw and awkward days, Dignity will hold the heart to Grace, lest it
squander it's dream on a ghost.
Often, torn ground is ideal for seed that can root disappointment
deep enough to yield a harvest that cannot whither, a deeper Light
to anoint the eyes, Passion that opens wings in the heart, a subtle
radiance of countenance, the Soul ready for it's True Other.
--Father John O'Donohue
What I’m doing with my life
I'm very busy in the summer, I work 5 jobs! I really don't recall
what "fun" is. I still find time to do a few things that bring me
deep joy and peace: I swim in the ocean every morning, meditate for
an hour or so, and do Yoga. I'm hoping to take my Yoga Teacher
Training this Fall. I'm an active, athletic woman....I like to
swim, hike, bike, rollerblade, kayak, sail, horseback riding, etc.
It woud be really nice to have someone to do those things with.
I’m really good at
Keeping it together when things get busy. I'm pretty organized. I
seem to think more clearly when multi-tasking. My days and nights
are very structured. I like to stick to a routine. I can get a lot
done, juggle a lot of things. I'm looking for a friend who would
kind of be the opposite to that...a good sense of humor,
easy-going, laid back, impulsive, knows how to have fun.
The first things people usually notice about me
Big aqua blue-green eyes that are very expressive and genuine, warm
smile, bright spirit.
Favorite books, movies, shows, music, and food
I love reading! Topics? Mostly new age stuff...self
help...spirituality...wisdom....culture....nature...anything to do
with Hawaii or Scotland....historical romance. I like REALLY GOOD
movies or it's not worth going at all...I don't like violence (I
peek through my fingers)....I also like kids movies and have been
known to "borrow" a friend's kids just so I can go see a silly
movie! Music, I enjoy just about everything....I prefer Rock, Folk,
Bluegrass, Celtic and New Age. I LOVE to dance! I am Healthy
Vegetarian, and I am an excellent and creative cook. I make my own
Cacao Truffles! No sugar!
The six things I could never do without
Ocean, Sun, love, freedom, chocolate, yoga
I spend a lot of time thinking about
Where my life is going and where I'm meant to be and how I can
leave my footprint on this world.
On a typical Friday night I am
Exhausted. But sometimes up for the local Community Yoga
Class....then a nice bath in my claw foot tub with a cup of herb
tea and early to bed with a good book.
The most private thing I’m willing to admit
I can't stand guys who think with their Pr*cks. So if you are one,
keep moving on......
You should message me if
You are the kind of guy who can gently respect a woman who needs to
learn how to trust again and needs a friendship with you first. No
lies, cheats, players please!