I don't know what it is,
but I distrust myself
when I start to like a girl
a lot.

It makes me nervous.
I don’t say the right things
or perhaps I start
to examine,
evaluate,
compute
what I am saying.

If I say, "Do you think it's going to rain?"
and she says, "I don’t know,"
I start thinking: Does she really like me?

In other words
I get a little creepy.

A friend of mine once said,
"It's twenty times better to be friends
with someone
than it is to be in love with them."

I think he's right and besides,
it's raining somewhere, programming flowers
and keeping snails happy.
That's all taken care of.

BUT
if a girl likes me a lot
and starts getting real nervous
and suddenly begins asking me funny questions
and looks sad if I give the wrong answers
and she says things like,
"Do you think it's going to rain?"
and I say, "It beats me,"
and she says, "Oh,"
and looks a little sad
at the clear blue California sky
I think: Thank God, it's you, baby, this time
instead of me.

"it's raining in love" by Brautigan
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well, i would describe myself as a very easygoing guy with friendly attitude :) i love kids, nature, hiking, water, good people, singing, music, movies, playing bass guitar, sports and cooking etc.. all creative things, you know..
my passion is nature - all things what connect me with mother earth and of course with cosmic energy. yes, i consider myself as a space traveler (or however you may call that).

and i usually like to make things with my own hands, build and repair and so on.. i take care of these things as good as i can :)

being a good father :)

living it, trying to break free from all those unnecessary things. the progress is quite good! and living mostly in the moment.

daydreaming, helping people out of problems.. (work...:), learning new skills, walking, wandering, fantasizing, listening, long distance cycling and swimming

eyes i guess...

books: fahrenheit 451..., simmons/coelho/asimov/a.c.clarke/bradbury/heinlein/wachowski brothers/däniken/hemingway/orwell/wells/saint-exupéry/edgar valter/castaneda books... (just few favourites.. there are so many others!)

movies: spirited away, akira, solaris, vozvrashcheniye, magnetic rose/memorizu, field of dreams, the day the earth stood still, lotr trilogy, conversations with god, requiem for a dream, the man from earth, nausicaa of the valley of the wind, history of violence, matrix, light years, fahrenheit 451, fountain, scanner darkly, the guardian, ps i love you, over the top, the day after etc etc...
documentals about nature/psychology/science/space

music: mostly bass guitar stuff, JAZZ, blues, house, classical, country, soul... etc i just cant live without music!
btw, i got a crush with guitar jazz :))

some favourite ones. enjoy.. :)

Muzykoterapia, Joni Mitchell-Peter Gabriel, Fatboy Slim, Smashing Pumpkins, The Cure, Ten Sharp, Robben Ford, Erykah Badu, Michel Petrucciani, Dead Can Dance, Steve Gadd, Joe Pass, 4 Hero, Chemical Brothers, Stuff (OMG!), Jim Hall, AIR.
:)

food: something simple and usually selfmade - with love :) , red/rose wine. i usually try to avoid very spicy stuff..

that it's never crowded on the extra mile...

probably driving to farm if things do(not) work out. watching sci-fi with my daughter or listening some nice music (blues hahaha.. yea), chilling or.. whatever comes into mind :)

i was a bloody swim champ in school, but now... uh, i should get myself together :P

and sometimes wonder why haven't i settled down in a countryside with all my six things. damn, i would love it so much...