Standing on a cusp. Ready for change. You can't hit the road without a direction.
I'm 25 years old and I feel like a baby yet an "old soul". I love life and going on adventures! Life isn't usually very easy for me being transgender. Luckily I was raised with the notion to "always be myself". I mostly identify as female. Most of my childhood and up until about 5 years ago, I was not open about who I really was. I hid from everyone and from myself. Now that I am open and prideful being me, I am so much happier. I think that simply presenting yourself to the world for who you really are and expressing that in as many positive ways as possible can be inspirational enough to change someone's life. When someone has questions for me (if they aren't being too rude about it) I am happy to answer them. I like bringing light to the issues of gender identity and sexuality AND about how these two things are separate SPECTRUMS of being and are not necessarily related. I look at people and just see humans. Not all of us do that especially in the societies many of us live that have strict roles for different categories of people. I am a human being who cannot be contained in a mold laid out for me. Transcendent. Unique. Just like every one of us. But, pretty much unavoidably, we are exposed to these roles from a young age and make choices about which ones most suit us, though they are so arbitrary in my opinion.
I grew up being raised as a male. I always knew I wasn't a "boy", though I didn't really know how to express that. I have always seemed to gravitate more towards activities and interests that society considers to be more "feminine". I think its amusing when people make a big deal out these issues because to me it doesn't really matter. Sometimes people ask me "So should I treat you like a guy or a girl?" This is both kind of annoying and funny because I don't completely understand the question. How exactly does one treat a woman different from a man anyway? I'm writing in a box.
Other than that long ramble, I have many passions in my life. I have always loved the arts. I make art whenever I feel so inspired. No matter what form it takes. Music is something that I naturally understand. I play guitar and dabble with sitar. I love to make sense of string instruments. I am not by any means very technical or educated in music but if I hear something I can play it/follow along etc. I do create my own stuff but I'll admit I'm kind of shy. =^.^=
I love to cook and share my love of food with everyone I can by cooking with them or just feeding them. I love how food and flavor and everything that goes into it has the amazing power to bring people together. Its a beautiful thing. I cook mostly vegetarian dishes. Just recently I gave up dairy so now it looks like I'm going to be making mostly vegan ones. I have a serious love for Indian food! But I enjoy food from most all cultures. I love Thai food and Mediterranean food also totally rocks.
I do love fashion. That is one artistic area where I feel a bit guilty at times because it seems a bit materialistic. But hey I love clothes! I love going shopping with friends and trying new looks to better express who I am at that moment and show that to the world. It helps me to be confident when I think I look good. But the key is being beautiful on the inside and recognizing that fact. :)
It hasn't been until very recently that I have learned to express myself through dance. I'm sure this has a lot to do with just letting go and letting your guard down. Dancing is very meaningful and therapeutic. You can convey so many emotions through your body movements in an infinite many ways. Plus its so much fun! I mess around with hooping a bit since I have many friends who are great at it. Mostly though I just move around spontaneously and go where it takes me.
I love going on walks in nature. Feeling the wind breathe through me. Sharing company with all the life around me in this world. Slowing down and taking it all in. Reflecting.
Don't waste a moment. Don't rush. Everything that needs to will find you. Just be.
I live for laughing so hard that I'm on the ground clutching my gut and feeling like I fell out of a tree. If we can do this together, we're on the right track.