I am trying to understand.
I believe in small things. I would rather run with the hunted than pass as a hunter. I think climbing a learning curve is usually worth the effort. I have realized that I love pushing my body to its limits, and I hate measuring those limits with numbers. I am afraid. Hard, "honest" work is important to me, but I don't mean efficiency; I want to compete with myself, not with you. Seems to me that anything one can do has an art to it---tell me about yours. Family, community, and love are super important to me. I am not a perfectionist: if I can get 80% of the desired effect with 20% of the effort, chances are I'll be happy. I get a lot of pleasure from feeding people.
If I must die, I want to die all used up.